my journey started on April 9th of 2001. i was friends with a guy who i frequently called freak because he talked about this lifestyle stuff. Well then i split with a boyfriend and was down and out. my friend came to me and asked if i wanted to come and hang out with him and his friends in the bdsm rooms. Soon after that He collared me. He's guided me through my journey. He's now released me but i'm so grateful for all that He's done to help me realize who and what i am. He's my best friend. i'm not gonna lie and say it's been an easy lifestyle to change over to. There is so much to learn. i found the lifestyle wasn't just about dirty perverse freaks...that's just one of the bonuses...lol Rather it's about trust and honesty. i remember the first nite my first Master had me fill out the checklist...part of me said run now the other said oooo yeah this could be fun. And everything i said i would never ever do...well i've done them now and am proud i did. He pushed my limits much further than i ever thought i would allow. Remember i was one of those girls, i'm in control at all times. He broke that down. my one big suggestion to A/anyone going into the lifestyle is this...go in w/a fully open mind. There is so much out there to learn and to experience. Never say never. i've found the things i said never too i enjoy the most. i've learned all about my secret desires and about pleasing someone unconditionally through love. He has taught me my self worth which i know may sound odd being that i'm a slave. i was in abusive relationships before and thanks to Him i've learned i'm so much better than all of that. He's also taught me how strong i am. That i can get through anything and if i have to ask for help along the way it's ok. He's taught me it's best to discuss your feelings then letting yourself self destruct. He's taught me to love pain and humiliation if given from a loving hand. He's taught me to be proud of who and what i am, a slave. i always thought being submissive was a weakness before. Wow have i learned otherwise. It takes a very strong person to show their submissiveness but not be a doormat. It's very different to give that power to someone instead of having that power taken from you. Master shows me His love everyday just by being with me. He chose me and i'm the luckiest girl for that. i was released from Master Poobaa's collar on August 31, 2002. Not only am i the luckiest girl He chose me but that He was strong enough to release me when it was time for U/us to grow. i'm very grateful for the time i had w/Him and He's one of my best friends now. On August 30th, 2003 i was collared to Masterof Senses. E/everyone knows Him as Will. It's funny He's everything i never thought possible to find in one Man. He's strict and rules over me w/an iron fist but He's also so loving and caring. W/we've been faced early on w/many obsticles and w/His strength W/we're making it through them just fine. He's taught me so much in such a short time and i feel that i love Him more every day. i feel i have to give Him more of me w/every experience W/we share. i pushed my limits w/my first Master and i thought i had given all i had w/Him, i found out i have so much more to give and i am. i never feel like it's enough cuz i want to give Him all of me. i feel like i give Him pieces but how do you really give A/all of you? If anyone figures this out let me know, i'm doing my best to learn on my own. i love Him and i give Him all i can of me. i am His mind body heart and soul. i love You Master always. Your chained princess |