a night he'll always forget
write
home
among what i'd most like to forget
is what i remember the most
your weak arm's attempt at a lift
the trust and donations
abandoned temptations
and false hopes left so far adrift
you gave up your seat
in hopes of pleasing me
and you tried to help me in
but the forces did forbid
euphoric eyelids
drooping with every freed beat
my foot tapping and your head rocking
a priceless useless treat
and after all the hustle and mess
a calmer setting but with atmosphere to test
chewing straw after straw
the hidden crack in the wall
a joyous occasion for one
but hardly a party for all.
the breakfast and the hot tea
you told me i was done
i told you not to tell me
what to do and done was through
another empty promise
another gift-wrapped lie
i'd hate you for it, yet i know already
my energy's spread too wide to deny
and so the trip back home
hairy legs and inclined jars
the books covered space from wall to wall
pristine frames and practiced smiles
old books, worn clothes, flannel sheets, wired guitars
the slap in the face
the morning race
almost nude and so confused
strong back, shirt black, no slack, six pack
and female anatomy reeked of refuse.