Oxymoron

I'll do anything but I won't
I love everything but I don't
I'm joyful but depressed
Ambitious with loss of interest
I'm ever so invincible
Yet I know I am invisible
A clear and clouded mind
Far ahead but far behind
I'm lost but I have a vision
I feel free while I'm imprisoned
Alive while I am dead
I'm sane in my crazy head
Never ill but still in pain
Always happy in the rain
Everything's lost yet I still gain
Stupid thoughts in my smart brain
Don't want anything but I want something
I am everything but I am nothing

February 23, 2003, SilentSoldier