This is a special mailing to the All for Jesus list ...
I just need to talk (or type!) to anyone who is willing
to listen (or read!) There is a Christian message
after all my ramblings, if you'd rather just scroll
through the long message from me and read something
from the LORD! But to make a long story short, for
those of you who don't want to read all that I have to
say ... I need your prayers ... I really, really need
your prayers.
VERY LARGE NOTE FROM KIM ...
The Lord never said that we wouldn't have trials and
tribulations, but He promised never to leave or forsake
His children. I was reading my Bible on this sleepless
night, and I opened it to Psalm 118. Verse 5 that
says, "I called upon the Lord in distress: the Lord
answered me, and set me in a large place." In my mind
at that time, a large place meant smack in the middle
of nearly 1000 of you, my dear subscribers. So I feel
that I should ramble on to you about why I'm sleepless
tonight. Here is my distress ...
Since I was a junior in high school (4 or 5 years ago),
I have battled anxiety and panic problems. My sweet
pediatrician (bless his heart, he was about to retire
at the time, and he couldn't stand to see a patient in
pain) prescribed an anti-anxiety medication. He didn't
tell me that it was recommended to be taken for a time
period not to exceed a couple of months. I am still on
the medication today, and sometimes I believe it is
part of the Lord's plan to help me through this. Other
times, I believe that it is a sin to take the medicine
instead of trusting in Him. I just have a big problem
with change, and even though I'm not supposed to feel
this way, the future is scary to me. Anyway, my
prescription ran out last week, and when I tried to get
a refill (25 days after it had been filled) I was
denied by the insurance company until 30 days had
passed. For the past few days, I have suffered MAJOR
withdrawal (because I stopped the medicine "cold
turkey", which you are not supposed to do for that kind
of medication.) I slept tonight from about 12 until
1:35, and since then I've had the racing heart, the
chills, the cold sweats, the breathing difficulties ...
all that good stuff.
I have cried out to the Lord so many times in the past
few years, and my problem has not been eliminated. I
have a question for you ... which I assume some of you
are very well-read Christians ... if the Lord hasn't
answered my prayer, could it be because He doesn't hear
me, and I am really not one of His children? When I
think about that, it scares me much worse than anything
else does.
What I need most from you is your sincere prayers, for
whatever the Lord's will would be in my situation. I
know one thing ... right now, I am not stronger than
this thing, and without help from my God, I will be
defeated. Please pray for me. I would really
appreciate it.
The next thing I felt like I should do was print the
lyrics to a song ... it's a country song by T. Graham
Brown, and although I definitely don't have a drinking
problem, some parts of the song really apply to my
situation.
And after that, I am going to share with you the rest
of Psalm 118 that I have been reading tonight.
I thank you so much for reading this far, and I am so
thankful to be able to reach out so many Christians who
can reach up to the Lord on my behalf, and I believe He
can take this problem from me instantly, if it is His
will. God bless you all.
"Wine into Water"
--T. Graham Brown
You've heard a multitude of prayers on my behalf
I pray one more is not too much to ask
I've tried to fight this battle by myself
But it's a war that I can't win without Your help
Tonight I'm as low as any man can go
I'm down and I can't fall much farther
And once upon a time You turned the water into wine
Now on my knees I'm turning to You Father
Could You help me turn the wine back into water
So many times I've hurt the ones I love
I've pushed them to the edge of giving up
They stood by me, but how much will they stand
If I don't put this bottle in Your hand
Tonight I'm as low as any man can go
I'm down and I can't fall much farther
And once upon a time You turned the water into wine
Now on my knees I'm turning to You Father
Could You help me turn the wine back into water
I shook my fist at Heaven
For all the hell that I've been through
But now I'm begging for forgiveness
And a miracle from You
Because tonight I'm as low as any man can go
I'm down and I can't fall much farther
And once upon a time You turned the water into wine
Now on my knees I'm turning to You Father
Could you help me turn this wine back into water ...
SPOKEN: "My God can see under the darkest stone, on
the darkest hill, on the darkest night. God bless
you!"
"Psalm 118:1-29"
O give thanks unto the Lord; for his good: because his
mercy endureth for ever.
Let Israel now say, that his mercy endureth for ever.
Let the house of Aaron now say, that his mercy endureth
for ever.
Let them now that fear the Lord say, that his mercy
endureth for ever.
I called upon the Lord in distress: the Lord answered
me, and set me in a large place.
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man
do unto me?
The Lord taketh my part with them that help me:
therefore shall I see my desire upon them that hate me.
It is better to trust in the Lord than to put
confidence in men.
It is better to trust in the Lord than to put
confidence in princes.
All nations compassed me about: but in the name of the
Lord, I will destroy them.
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hey compassed me about; yea, they compassed me about:
but in the name of the Lord I will destroy them.
They compassed me about like bees: they are quenched as
the fire of thorns: for in the name of the Lord I will
destroy them.
Thou hast thrust sore at me that I might fall: but the
Lord helped me.
The Lord is my strength and song, and is become my
salvation.
The voice of rejoicing and salvation is in the
tabernacles of the righteous: the right hand of the
Lord doeth valiantly.
The right hand of the Lord is exalted: the right hand
of the Lord doeth valiantly.
I shall not die, but live, an declare the works of the
Lord.
The Lord hast chastened me sore: but he hath not given
me over unto death.
Open to me the gates of righteousness: I will go into
them, and I will praise the Lord:
This gate of the Lord, into which the righteous shall
enter.
I will praise thee: for thou hast heard me, and art
become my salvation.
The stone which the builders refused is become the head
stone of the corner.
This is the Lord's doing; it is marvelous in our eyes.
This is the day which the Lord hath made, we will
rejoice and be glad in it.
Save now, I beseech thee, O Lord: O Lord, I beseech
thee, send now prosperity.
Blessed be he that cometh in the name of the Lord: we
have blessed you out of the house of the Lord.
God is the Lord, which hath shown us light: bind the
sacrifice with cords, even unto the horns of the altar.
Thou art my God, and I will praise thee: thou art my
God, I will exalt thee.
O give thanks to the Lord; for he is good: for his
mercy endureth forever.
THANK YOU JESUS!