Why am I here? This is wrong; I have no reason to come here. A million thoughts roamed through my mind as I stood staring at his apartment door. I raised my hand to knock, but I held back. I couldn’t do it, not yet.
Why is she just standing out there? Doesn’t she know I can feel her on the other side? I should just open the door, but I don’t want to embarrass her. If it’s this hard for her to just knock on my door maybe I shouldn’t pay this any mind anyway.
Okay, just do it girl. I am strong; it’s just Michael. Someone I’ve known for a long time. I finally knocked, and it took only one before the door swung open. And there he was, that tall, strong alien man. I was holding my breath for way too long.
“Hey Liz, come in.”
“Thanks.”
“So…what are you doing here?”
I tried to figure out if what he was asking was a good thing by the tone in his voice. His voice was husky, like he was holding back. But what was he holding back?
“I just felt like coming to see you Michael.”
“Oh, well, here I am, you see me.”
She’s so pretty. And she doesn’t even know it. How can Max…no, can’t think about him. This is between Liz and I; we both have such loyalty to him that I’m afraid the guilt of these thoughts will consume me. God, she’s so damn pretty.
I let out a soft chuckle. A Liz Laugh Max called it. No, can’t think about him. This is between Michael and I; the guilt is already in the back of my mind. Michael…he’s standing there so…so, god he’s gorgeous.
“Yeah, I see you. You’re so sarcastic Michael, but I guess that’s what makes you, you know, YOU.”
“Yep, if you can give me credit for anything, is that I admit who I am, I don’t hide anything.”
I wonder if she knows I’m lying.
I know he’s lying.
“You don’t hide ANYTHING?”
I walked to get closer to him. It was involuntary; I had to be near him.
“Well, I guess I do hide some things.”
“Like what?”
She’s standing so close to me. I can barely breathe; I want to feel her against me so bad it hurts.
“Like…”
“What Michael?”
“Like you.”
Wow…he finally admitted he felt something for me, does this mean I should admit the same? It’s too hard to hold back now.
“I hide things too Michael.”
“Like what?”
“Like you.”
This changes everything. Now we both know how we feel about each other. How can we deny this any longer?
“Liz, can I-?”
I’m losing my breath now, I feel this tingly nervous heat running all over my body, and looking in his eyes, I know he’s feeling the same. I know what he wants to ask; I make that last step so that I’m now touching him. Finally I’m against him, his body is so hot-this intense heat radiating off of him.
“Yes, Michael…please.”
And now I’m no longer scared to take that step. I cup her perfect face in my hands and press my lips against hers, gently. But then she grabbed my neck, then my shoulders, and she kissed harder. She was getting hungrier and hungrier for me, how long have I been waiting for this?
He tastes so good. I don’t know if I can stop at this kiss. I can’t go any further; we’re too young. But I can’t stop…this is wrong…I’m too young…look at who I’m gonna hurt…but he feels so good…and no one has to know…
The next thing I know she is pushing me into my bedroom. Down I go onto the bed, her falling on me, long dark hair covering my face, but she never broke the kiss. I told her we couldn’t do it, but she insisted. And I was too weak to resist her, something I’ve dreamt of for so long. So in my bed, over and over, she never broke the kiss.
The sunlight woke me up. And I realized that I was lying skin to skin against sleeping Michael. The thing I thought I’d hold onto for so much longer, I lost so fast. And to Michael. But I wanted it, and I still want him. I placed a gentle kiss on his forehead. His brown eyes opened slowly.
She’s really here. Lying on top of me. And she gave me a precious gift last night that cannot ever be returned. And she chose me to give it to. Things will never be the same now.
“Liz…?”
I knew what he was going to say.
“Yes Michael, I see you.”
The End
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