If anything, I wish someone would had sold me a pack casting and it would had made my life much simpler, but no. I had to start from zero. People don't have the smallest idea about the amount of work that this project absorbed out of me. I practically forced myself to keep on. Me, cheering for myself. There was no one to motivate me. There wasn't even anyone who would understand what I wanted to achieve out of all this. If anything, People all around me wanted me to stop.
I was ruining the house with resin stains that I had to wipe out with strong odor solvents. I ruined the pavement outside with dark permanent resin stains. I deformed my thumb, broke a few things, busted some doors, wasted my life savings, etc. I could go on and on. Sometimes, I would see months go by and see no progress.

We have people in their mothers making packs. None of them went through what I did. Sometimes, I wish I was them and have things handed. I expanded to other related projects not done before. I managed to make 2 Slimers and just not move on to the obvious "traps." Both Slimers are in different corners of the world. That's cool.

Many people first saw my pack at Dragoncon 2000. Months before, progress PICS were posted on prop forums. It's official, here is the finished project and all the baggage that came with it. Good or bad, it's done. From now on, I wanna focus on original ideas and projects which are now possible thanks to what I learned off making the pack. It's whack for me to do the same projects others are making. I thought I could find uniqueness in the rarity of props, but not anymore. With "cast of originals" parts floating around, it's pointless to spend time replicating something that someone else can just "get" mold and cast away. Ironically, If I was to be face to face with a real, screen-used pack, I would spend no more than 3 seconds looking at it without saying "Been there, done that" and walk on. I had moved on. I look back at all that I did and think I must had been crazy to do all that. The fact that I can realize that is a form of maturity.

Celebrate, when I ended the Blair Pack Project? Nah! Not really. When I was done with the project, I was done and broke. With my life savings gone, no love life as I haven't dated in 4 years and dedicated the last 2 fully to the pack project, I had a lot to catch up with. Celebration with me is like a surprise party. I never expect to meet people who had been to my site or know me from something they saw on the net "Oh! You are the guy with the chewbacca! Yeah, I saw your site!" Surprisingly meeting these people and my work being recognized and appreciated outside of me is very fulfilling and is celebration. People's feedback and recognition is very inspirational. Ofcourse, I will believe it all when I get pay for it. Someday, perhaps.

Getting paid? Money? Fame and chicks? Yeah, right! Maybe for Hanging out with Nsync , But not for replicating packs. ( You ain't getting concert tickets, so stop IM me) there is no way I will ever be compensated for endless hours of work as descried here. You might had read all this and think to yourself "It doesn't sound so bad and you are being overdramatic." Truth is, it has been a long time since this project took off and ended. I had been involved in many other things and I had almost forgotten about all that went into the pack. All the overtime hours, research, weekends, net-hours, My time in general for 2 years of full, overtime work. There is no way in hell I will ever see a fully paid cent that would compensate for so much. Guess what I had learned through this self-provided scholarship will favor me down the road with more fulfilling and compensating projects. I have to work in a professional level to be taken seriously everytime. Too bad I have to take the professional approach now. I wish someone would had handed me a mask making kit or a book on molding and fiberglassing when I was 15, 10 or 5. I would had done more. Thank you for reading this and for visiting my site.

Widescreen, Circle Of The Ghost Head Hunters and all graphics by JC Alcantara. I claim no association with Sony or Columbia pictures. For entertaintment only.

Widescreen, Circle Of The Ghost Head Hunters and all graphics
by JC Alcantara.
I claim no association with Sony or Columbia pictures. For entertaintment only.