lyrics.

Vindication
Gravity
Frustration
Just For A Second
I'm The One
Spin Around
Jenny (867-5309)
Making Progress
Butterfly Stitches
Building Up
Non-User
Stuck Like Chuck
What You Wish For

1. VINDICATION

I know you know what's happening to me
My dreams have all been fulfilled.
The pain you've caused has all gone away.
And now it's my turn to shine.
As I cross the line that you created,
I am now Vindicated.

2. GRAVITY

Sense. You. Near. Once again.
Now, What. You. Want. Is flowing through me.
Over and over you're hanging your head,
To the point where my cold blue eyes turn red.
It's the same old fiction, it's the same old lines.
Your life is hectic and pathetic and it's messing with mine.

Came. To. Know. How you work.
You, Want. To. Be. Just like me.
Rolling and rolling and rolling your eyes.
And you're lost in a sea of mind over size.
It's a lesson of skill and it's a lesson of life.
It's selfish, energetic, subliminal, wise.

Keep. Off. Me. You're growing near.
Just, Push. It. In. So far it's sin.
Bigger and badder the stronger you get.
Waste away? In your dreams, the scenario's set.
It's always something when something ain't right.
it's over here, over there, it's always a fight.

I see you. Come falling down.

3. FRUSTRATION

I've got no expectations
I complicate the complications
I've got no objection to whatever's going on

Filled with anticipation
I decorate with decoration
Try hard to be the focus of it all

Chorus:

Tell me you want me, 'cause I don't believe you
Feel the frustration - (I feel the frustration)
Life is the slowest form of suicide
Feel the frustration - (I feel the frustration)

I truly miss the sensation
I stimulate the stimulation
Hard not to miss the way you rub me wrong

When is my expiration?
I fascinate my fascination
I can't believe I'm hanging on this long

Chorus (x2)

Now I deny all allegations
I instigate the altercations
I'm always right or wrong, most never wrong

Chorus (x2)

4. JUST FOR A SECOND

Don't think about it much anymore.
When I saw you, walk out the door.
I believe, there must have been a reason.
Blame it on the weather it wasn't my season.

I think I've figured out, the way into your head.
Instead of asking you, I will just assume instead.

Just for a second, I thought I knew
The way for me, to get to you.
Just for the record, not peace of mind.
I can honestly say I tried.

IDon't think about it much anymore.
Defenses down, I'm over the war.,
Living here, die in absolution.
Too much thought in finding a solution.

5. I'M THE ONE

I can't sit around, while you fall down
Doing the things that make me sick.
When you say you say you'll be good today,
Well all that is is another trick.

I claim to be everything you need,
When you need more I can't be found.
When you say that it's all OK,
It makes me think that you're safe and sound.

This is what I say to myself:

How many pills, must I swallow?
Just to see, if you will follow?
Contemplate the fading sorrow,
Here today and you're gone tomorrow.

It's easy to see what you're doing to me.
Fucking with my head again.
Up in the clouds you won't come down,
Until we reach the bitter end.

I'm the one that let you be.
I'm the one that told you so.
I'm the one that came to see.
I'm the one that let you go.

6. SPIN AROUND

You come off softly as you walk across the room.
Never looking back to see the mess you've made.
I gotta wonder, do you think I don't know what you do?
You disappear as I spin around.

I take a walk and listen to myself some more.
My thoughts tell me, I'm already gone.
Feeling sorry, but I don't know who these feelings are for.
I disappear when you spin around.

The door slams as it echoes through me world.
Spend an hour holding empty space.
Looking forward, to looking back at you.
Cause we disappear when we spin around.

I'd rather lay in bed, and waste the day away.
Then spend another night, wondering where you are.
I'll see your face again, when I close my eyes.
That's all I've got left of you.

7. JENNY (867-5309)

8. MAKING PROGRESS

I don't want to be, what you want to be
I want to be myself, I just want to be
I don't want to hear, what you have to say
All things you do, just to fuck with me
Reach into my plastic bag for help
One more trip and I'll fly myself away

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Just a few more days, I'll be out of this daze
I'm making progress I told myself so
I think it's a phase with all my twisted ways.
I'm making progress I told myself so.

You don't want to know, what you want to know
I don't want to leave, I don't want to go
Remember how to be, how to love, how to lie
How to hate, how to get to me
Remember when we kiss, roses are so red
One more trip and I'll fly myself away

Chorus

I hear the lies and I sympathize
But it took me so long to see the real you
I wanted to compromise, but now I realize
Nothing you say will ever get through

I don't want to say what I have to say
Let me be alone, I don't want to say
Remember what it's like, everyday holding back
In the end, it's down to you or me
Once upon a time, feels like forever and a day
One more trip and I'll fly myself away

Chorus (x2)

9. BUTTERFLY STITCHES

How come we never talk about anything anymore?
I hate the silence, I hate the silence.
I guess the flowers didn't work this time I'm sure.
You're got your reasons, you've got your reasons.
I can see in your eyes, that you know that I'm right.

I can't believe the things you say to me.
Your words cue so deep.
I need butterfly stitches.

I flip a coin to find out what mood you are in.
So independent, you're so independent.
I know you doubt the way you're feeling in the end.
Make me believe then, make me believe,
That  I can see in your eyes that you know that I'm right.

And I can't believe, you've got the audacity.
To tell me all of my ways are wrong.
You can't expect me to leave or exist,
When we both know that you're wrong.
So wrong.

10. BUILDING UP

Another stroke of bad luck is all I can take
Don't want to be around when the mirror breaks
I don't want your advice or your sympathy
I just want you to let me be
I just want you to let me be
I only want you to let me be

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I can feel it building up inside of me
The pain, the hate, the rage, is all I can see
I can feel it building up inside of me
And my heart turns to stone, my heart turns to stone

I've been preoccupied lately, lot on my mind
Looked for answers to the questions I'll never find
That's how it's been, that's no way to live
I've given all that I have to give
I've given all that I have to give
I've given everything that I can give

12. STUCK LIKE CHUCK

I'm sick I need help,
A Fungi to be with.
Pills are good or so you say.
Repugnant is the word I use,
I like you for no good reason.

I'm stuck like chuck.
And I'm so fucked up.
I'm stuck like chuck.

Yes have some, what do you care?
I'm sick of being sick.
I've woken up on this floor before,
I know exactly where I am.

You open filters, let your mind expand.
What rolls through your heart,
Was once in your hand.

The tribe is alive for one last hurrah,
All you can say is "sure."
My eyes are disguised in the back of my head,
M.D.M.A. you're so damn cool.

11. NON USER

I've got toxic paranoia running through my brain
I love living on the brink of dependency
I've got something for you,
But you don't want to partake
Are you too afraid to be like me?
Tell me what's so bad

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Why won't you follow me?
(Why won't you follow me?)

Got the nerve to call me a walking pharmacy
When your blood alcohol level is past two point three
I only want you to feel a little like me
Are you too afraid to try?
Do I scare you that bad?

Chorus (x2)

You say I've got a problem, what about your vice?
Liquid is legal, so don't think twice
What's good for you ain't good for me; that causes strife
Propaganda like addiction, doesn't terminate life

Chorus (x2)

13. WHAT YOU WISH FOR

I wish I could live amongst you and not be bothered by the sights and sounds you push on me.
To see things your way seems absurd, because your sights and your sounds are as shallow as you are to me.
You live so sheltered by people you think care what you say and do. They see right through you so easily.
Why I see through you is no mystery.
It's everything that I wish for.

I wish I'm there the day you learn about me.
The thoughts that will run through your mind mean so much more to me than you'll ever know.
To think you could have shared in all this, but your "know it all" ways leave you nowhere.
While I ride this for all it's worth you sit in your crumbling world, not being able to imagine mine.
So sit there, let your thoughts drive you crazy and scream it's not fair,
Cause I still can't hear you.

I wish I'm there on the day that all I said becomes clear to you.
The day that people you love turn away in disgust.
When you realize that all the pain you've caused is coming back to haunt you.
The day that you sit with your head in your hands,
Wondering just where you went wrong.
That's the day I'll reappear to give you the "I told you so" speech.
You can curse all you want as you walk out that door.
Cause that's the day that I wish for.

Watch what you wish for.