How and Why
by Ellen Pedersen

Everything seems fine
Problems are nowhere to be seen
I see nothing but sunshine
With blue skies all around….

One fine day, enjoying life
A storm picks up out of nowhere
Taking everything I once held dear away
In one strong blow
And I am left standing all alone
With no one to comfort me
Not even you
I am left all alone
Wondering how and why

Once it’s over the sun does not return
Blue skies have turned gray
And a chill wind has begun to blow
I look around and see nothing---
Not a trace or speck left
Of what I used to know
Just a bleak and baron wasteland
With me in the middle
All alone
Wondering how and why

After days of searching
And coming up with nothing
I sit down miserable
Ready to cry
Yet for some reason I can’t
I stare off into the sky
Wondering how and why
When off in the distance I see a faint glimmer
Of what looks like sunlight

Slowly I get up
And make my way for that light
And as I approach I begin to realize
I’m looking for comfort where there is none
And I keep hurting myself in that search for comfort
That you cannot give

So now I’ll stop coming to you
I’ll look for comfort elsewhere
I still don’t know why
But I accept that you can’t tell me
I still wonder how and why
And perhaps I’ll never know
But at least now I realize
My comfort can’t come from you

With this realization
I begin to run towards that light
Desperately hoping it will all be ok
And as I get closer
Do you know what I see?
I see remnants of a fallen world,
I start to see myself
I know it’s a long road,
And I know I have far to go
Before I’m back where I was before
But at least now I’ve found it
And now I’m on the right path
Maybe it will lead me back to you in the end—
Who knows?
But for now, my comfort must come from elsewhere

Thank you for trying to help—
I know you feel as if it did little good,
But really it did,
It just took me a while to see
That really you do care
And I just didn’t want to hear

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