This page is dedicated to the memory of my Dad. He fought a long, couragous battle against cancer that finally came to an end on April 29th, 1999.
I miss him more and more each day. I try to hide my tears but sometimes I can't.
If you knew him you know why it is so hard to go on with out him. Below you will find a poem that I wrote for him.
The angels came for you quickly, without making a sound,
They took you to a place where only peace and love can be found.
You could hear my heart break into when they took you away,
Oh, how I wish that you could have had the chance to stay.
Seeing that last breath come from your body was a painful moment to see,
But I would do it all over again because by your side was the only place I wanted to be.
It's not goodbye forever, it's only so long for now,
I hope to see you again soon, just as quickly as the Lord will allow.
Until we meet again, I will cherish your memory and hold on to your love,
Please ask God to send me the strength I need from Heaven above.
My tears will keep on falling and my heart will continue to be sad,
No one could ever take your place, you were my one and only loving Dad.
So long for now, Dad...........I Love You.........
My Dad was a very special part of my life. Of course we had our differences,
just as everyone does, but I still loved him with all of my heart. My daughter KK was also a very special part of his life. She was the apple of his eye and the same went for her. They were just like best friends. They spent so many great times together.
The hardest part was trying to explain to her why he could not do the things with her that he use to do once he became sick. The worst of it all was having to tell her that he was gone.
I was the only one that was able to be there with my Dad on that dreaded day. I sat there helplessly as he drew his last breath. With tears streaming down my face, I just sat there, knowing that there was nothing that I could do.
The picture of that is forever embedded in my mind.
I thought for sure that I would die along with him. It was hard to deal with but I am glad that I was able to be there with him. He did not want to be alone and I didn't want him to be. Nothing could ever erase that picture from my mind. It is always there.
I know that death is a fact of life and it will always be there but the sorrow and pain that goes along with it is also always there. I try to hide my pain and move forward for the sake of my family but sometimes it's just too much to handle.
If I hadn't had my family and friends to rely on I would have never made it. I hide my pain very well. I don't know if that is a good thing or not. I try to keep my head up and keep fighting and make peace with it, hopefully I will see myself through.
It's been a little over 6 years now. He died right before my daughters 8th birthday. That was hard to deal with also. I keep trying to think that at least he is in a better place and that his suffering has stopped. That gives me some comfort when I think about it that way.
He really suffered alot through all this and at least now he is pain free and whole again. I really believe that with all of my heart. Until I am able to meet with him again I will forever cherish him and his memory, for they will always be embedded deep within my heart, mind, body and soul..............
This picture was taken of my Dad on his last birthday. KK and him were blowing out the candles on the cake that KK made and decorated for him. They were both very proud of it.
This picture is very dear to me. He was very sick during this time. I hoped and prayed that this wouldn't be his last but indeed it was. I love and miss you, Dad.
