<<From Me>>
I feel something is changing in me. It is like going back to when I was about ten years old or so when everything looked new and fresh. At that time, I noticed that the pressure of learning to become adult and school work were building up in me and felt like something was to go away - like that blue sky feeling. Without me knowing what that was at the time, I recall that moment in my life fairly vividly. That playful time, fresh impression in my mind, some vivid sense of the world around me.... I recall now, and I can relate and recreate that moment now. Then, there was that process/experience that I went through around that time that I could not describe to anyone then as I was in the middle of that experience and did not know what to do anyway. But it was more like something wonderful was falling out of me. Or, I may have felt then that that was the necessary transformation I had to go through to become an adult. From happy, careless, childhood to be immersed in learning complex, mechanical yet necessary tools and become adult - so I felt. And later, almost completely replacing that innocent feeling and if I may say, awakened state, my various desires, or emotion seemed to have taken over and chased me around during the majority of my adult life. So, it appears that the different game begun from about that age in my case.
Reflecting these, it seems like "living here/now" kind of sense I had then is what I am re-discovering now. But, looking at my son who is 11 years old and listening to his talk, I feel he is going through similar process as well. ( For example, when we were watching Discovery channel, a bug eating insect was shown. This Malaysian insect was sitting on orchid, disguised in the color of the flower, wait for a prey, who visit this orchid. He waits and waits, and when the bug comes to the flower, he catches it with his claws. Looking this, my son said quietly, "Why can't I be that bug, instead of going to school?" ) Even though each individual may take different passage in life, I sense that there is something fundamental in here - obviously! It is connected to what we discussed yesterday and what I may be going through and what happens in our life's passage. (BTW, what I mentioned here is process discussion but with my personal reflection in it. Also, I am aware that the recollection/reflection/memory can become luggage/binding and therefore to be thrown away - or that I need not to be "blinded" from such process/luggage.)
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Meditation
I wandered around, met Zen masters(roshi’s), monks, read books, listened tapes, practiced some meditation, and searched – an intellectual solution. The question started with grasping secure mind, or calm, natural, un-constrained mind. The term like zen, enlightenment or satori interested me. And I encountered paradoxical statement like grasping without grasping, or A is not A, therefore A. In a way, the passage was similar to what many people may have taken, starting from reading or listening to "guru’s." But in my case, I did not do much of heavy training, e.g., sitting for a long time. First, I tried to figure out the logic behind certain practices as much as I could, and I gathered information on various people’s passages they have taken, e.g., reasons, outcomes, etc. Also, I questioned quite a bit about why and how of various practices to make sense. This is because, I felt a potential trap or danger in blindly spending time and energy without knowing why it works or why it does not.
So, I questioned many things. I questioned about various forms of practices, behavior of so called masters, and checked from scientific or logical angle and compared to my intuitive sense. Some disturbed me. So, I tried to sort out some peculiar behavior of certain people and to figure out the reasons behind. In this way, I constructed certain logic to various religious practices and personal behaviors. However, all these process were intellectual exercises, not involving the real core of "me". So, it may be called as mental masturbation. While, I asked, "So what?" many times, and tried to be truthful, it remained in the field of intellectual exercise if I reflect back. Still, I felt that that type of exploration was necessary rather than just jumping in blindly, or trying this or trying that without knowing why. (The process was like using the brain and listening to the heart – in a general sense, but not deep enough.)
In those days, I was cautious but did not sense any imminent need that made me to jump in. So, perhaps as some philosophers may have done, I just played the game of intellect. In the meantime, reflecting my life in the outer world, I had decent luck to do many things I wanted to do. My parents lived long and I did not encounter any major problem in my life. Accordingly, I just worked to make living, enjoyed life, and created a distance from getting too serious about this zen or spiritual stuff even though I felt that the subject might be the most serious matter of life. Eventually, however, as I became more serious, I encountered a moment of facing the limit of intellect. Reflecting such a moment, like that of despair where I could not find any solution around, it may be safe to say that such set up is a requirement to finally face this imminent subject of life. I see now that such is the moment of meditation – a serious encounter to go beyond one’s intellect, the self – and to face the void or whatever that is in front.
But when I see the needs more clearly and I started to face this most serious issue in life more often, what I find is a secure, calm, quiet center to replace my ego-centered state while creating the total awareness – until my mind starts to move again. Then, the process repeats – just like uncovering the binding areas of my mind, then like getting a massage to loosen them up or unbinding the knots so to speak. In a way the point of meditation in modern day life is, as I see it, to go back to that state whenever we need to (here, detecting the need is one of the keys.). Accordingly, the state of delusion is noticed and given attention and dissolve itself in the process of passive observation. In such a state, "I" am left alone somewhere else or forgotten and quiet center just does the job without me making any efforts. It is the sense of "letting go" or "to look what is going on and face the inevitable without using mind" and just stay there, and find that it is OK, or perfectly OK in that state of no-mind as it is. Reflecting back, I feel that I had that state in my youth. I just rediscovered such state at my (spiritual or absolute) "home" where I came from and can go back to almost any time by the process or to create the moment as described above which I think is meditation. So, it is not form, but the process as I see it.
There is awareness. There are security, calmness, peace, and awakened state where everything is in bright color without any concern of constraints. It is the state of being with heart, home, and for intelligence, creativity, or compassion to express itself. Then, I may stay or I may lose that state. Or, I may go back and forth to that state. Sometimes when I am in delusion, my mind may start to seek for such an experience that I had in the past. (#4 in Ox herding picture) But seeking reinforces the state of "delusion". More I search that state, I lose it farther away. Using "my" efforts to find it creates "me" searching for something that happened in the past. Then, this defeats the whole principle of meditation but to go back to use my mechanical mind. So, there is a jump from dualistic world to that absolute world that need to happen. (#7-8-9 in Ox herding picture) So, I need to be aware of what I am doing first. By observing how my mind moves, I realize that I can stop searching for solution and without making efforts, I can face that "most serious" point where no intellect can reach and just let the quiet center to observe – or take over. So, in a way it is like a game of hide and seek. Sometimes, my ego and all that conditioned, mechanical thinking overtake the situation. Otherwise, this quiet center, or X, reveals itself without any efforts- and cleanse my mind. Or, should I say find the no-mind, or the original face?
As I reflect back, it is that sense of imminence, unavoidable, the despair, the total bind, or state of paradox in mind that should be faced directly - without searching for the solution externally, or from the memory. I have to realize that there is nowhere else to go but where I am then and there is the reality to look at or to be one with, i.e., no choice. So, meditation is not the escape from any other state. It is directly facing what is there without me, or any thought involved. Then, I find wisdom, compassion, or whatever there is to be experienced. It is a process of dying and letting go, and feel totally relaxed without effort. It may be just a few minute or even seconds. But instead of seeing meditation as 30 min. or an hour practice, for example, we may be able to be with that state much more often during the day once we get the knack of it. (Krishnamurti addresses this point, e.g., p.17, You are the world)
When a thought ends and before the next thought begins, there is a moment for meditation. Also, when we are thinking, talking, acting, and even sleeping, we may become aware of that quiet center within us to monitor the process. (#5-6 in Ox herding picture) This is like heart is watching while the brain is working, body is working, emotion is coming and going, etc. (BTW, I remember "me?" watching myself in the dream – it is like my awareness was observing what is going with myself playing in the dream. It is one way it just happens perhaps even when we are in sleep. Recently, I found Osho* sharing such notion in one of his tapes on the net.) So, our mind state may change. But with the sense of quiet center within us, we may take the journey of our life in a much different manner than otherwise. Whether we name such a quiet center as X, God, Amidha Buddha, or whatever, that is not the point.
* I recommend for anyone interested in these subjects to visit Osho at:
http://www.osho.com/talks/audio/audio1.htm
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Dark Side of Religious Practices
Among many cases pointing the dark side of religious practices, I recently visited sites like those below. They made me to think on this subject again.
- Aum Shinrikyo: http://www.religioustolerance.org/dc_aumsh.htm
- Osho: http://www.clipper.net/~calder/Osho.html
Perhaps, dualistic or objective world has to exist to check against the absolute or subjective world while subjective world needs to exist to bring out the meaning in the objective world. Einstein said, "Science without religion is lame; religion without science is blind." We need to have eyes to see both. In other words, we need to be able to use heart and brain harmoniously. Ultimately, each of us is to figure this out on our own – every moment of life for us to live the best we can.
Today, I was at Home Depot to do some shopping. When I was trying to explain my problem of sprinkler to a store helper, he made me to realize that I was spinning on my own logic and not clearly seeing the picture. After a while, he stopped me describing the situation and gave me much simpler solution that I did not see. We laughed for a while. Then, shared the view that all our engineering mind (brain) was often quite useless if we do not listen to our intuitive sense (heart). As described by Einstein, we need to see the world from both directions, and find the connection somehow. The store helper’s comment was, "If I had the engineering degree, most likely I have had the same problem." So, he was intuitive, but we could share and communicate this very point. From this, he taught me that what we need is a commonsense after all.
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<<from wilbro>>
Kio, I am not sure what you mean by the objective and subjective world. I think such a distinction is a creature of thought. Anyway, I am not sure if anything can be done about that "dark side." So long as one is seeking the truth, they will believe another can give it, or show it, to them. It is only when one has brought the seeker to an end that the fact that another could not do it for them becomes a fact. A seeker thinks the answer is to be found in the future. The answer is to stop and uncover the power behind the seeking. When that is uncovered, the seeking comes to an end.
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<<From Me>>
If an insight is gained from passive observation, that insight should be tested from the objective, logical or conscious viewpoint, thus it is an insight. (Yet, this insight may not be expressible or it may be expressible. In case of enlightenment, some zen master may write a poem for example. An interesting topic by itself.) In any case, on the subject above, if the problem/issue at hand is, say, how to deal with bad government or expressing one's own sexual desire as found in the case of Osho, I wonder how scientific process - way of inquiry - may function.
I realize your last e-mail suggest if guru is watching - in attention - a case like Osho's should not happen. Perhaps, collecting the wisdom of people is important as opposed to relying more on one's own experience - even that may represent some collected experiences of people. (Subjectivity is truth, but still need to be checked and balanced in human society - call it collective subjectivity, perhaps?) Is this the point of "guru bind" you mentioned before?
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Kio, I am confused. I am not quite sure what you mean by relating
insight to "bad government" or "sexual desires." I don't understand this
sentence: "Perhaps, collecting the wisdom of people is important as
opposed to relying more on one's own experience - even that may
represent some collected experiences of people. (Subjectivity is truth,
but still need to be checked and balanced in human society - call it
collective subjectivity, perhaps?)" It seems to me like mixing oranges
and apples.
The only thing I know about the "guru bind" is my experience of being
caught up in two thoughts after entering the process; first, that I had
the answer, and second, that I could give the answer to another. All
there is at that point is the release with no understanding. There is no
way, with the understanding, that one will then use it improperly. That
last sentence is wrong, there is no user, but the point is made by it. I
have no way of judging whether someone like Osho ever got to the bind or
was a hustler from the beginning. Saying the right words then doing the
opposite leads me to believe there is no understanding. Throw away all
gurus, including me, if you see me in that light. I only know what I
understand, and I can not give that understanding to another. That is
why I wrote the Guide. That is all I can do.
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Concepts and Intuition – and Our Passage
Referring Osho’s questionable behavior, wilbro san mentioned, "Saying the right words then doing the opposite leads me to believe there is no understanding." A Zen saying related to this is: "Do as one desires, but not go beyond the way – or rules* of the society." Or, I may put this as: "Do as your heart desires, but use your brain (commonsense)." (Note: * rule: I interpret as laws of universe, including some fundamental laws of humans, religious precepts perhaps included)
Let’s say concept and intuition are like apples and oranges. Yet, let’s figure out how we may be able to mix them up by going through three stages. 1) Let’s say we are born enlightened, full of intuition, creativity, free without any framework, living in the absolute world, just like a wild fox. 2) Yet, we start to get trained to acquire words, concepts, and start to see the world with a filter. Good, bad, beautiful, ugly, if I do this then that, if I did not do that, then it would have been so, etc., thus, creating a dualistic world in our brain and all programs associated with it. We then became fascinated to see the benefits to practice tools of cause and effect, e.g., live longer, enjoy this and that, cure disease, and build civilization.
3) But realizing the suffering that comes along with such living, let’s say we figured out to get out of delusion by watching us from the quiet center and let delusion to break up. Then, we start to see that absolute world, innocent world of child, with Fresh Morning, new Sound of bird, Mountains, and reflection of Light on the Water, etc. - while still being able to live in the dualistic world. Therefore, not blinded by the cause and effect rather than not fall into the cause and effect.
So, I see a passage here from 1) innocent child or wild fox to 2) human to 3) transcending process. In the mean time, we may accumulate more experiences, knowledge, and tools to help live the fullest (H-maximization of the universe). We may use brain, heart, or go up and down or play a catch in between brain and heart. We may gain insight/awareness simply in heart (innocent child experience) or gain insight connecting brain and heart (discovery, inspiration, innovation – when we feel great in solving problem). In other words, it is for us to go these three stages and keep moving forward to help us individually as well as help others in such a way it help H-max (universe) against the law of entropy. That, to me, is living as it is meant to be with what we have.
Potential problem at 3) is that that process is an on-going process and that even if one had an experience of enlightenment, that is not the end but the beginning of the continuous process. For instance, as much as Osho is human, he may have had, say, childhood experience that left some bias as imprint that is very difficult to correct if not impossible. This imprint may show up just like ego may show up as much as both are certain neuron programs responding to certain stimuli. (Very attentive watching is needed to be able to detect and respond appropriately as much as such reaction may come or be seen so natural even from the quiet center.) For this reason, precepts and Bottissatva’s vow, etc., are all perhaps relevant to play a role of checklist because they will prevent or deter certain ego or imprint program to function (and therefore end up causing suffering on one’s own or for others.) In other words, they are helpful for anyone in 2) to move forward on the Way. Yet, for those in 3) also need this (unless he is arhat – living alone in the wilderness.). Or if one is well trained, he will, "Do as he desires, but not go beyond the way – or rules of the society"
This connects to Einstein’s quote, "Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind." Left and right brain, consciousness and unconsciousness, brain and heart, concept and intuition, etc., "all" have to go together to be a human to transcend to be HUMAN. Even when we may put emphasis on religious passage, after all, we cannot take lightly the learning from the past and constructively find a passage into the future. Each individual is of course responsible in this task. (This is my view – from my brain and heart. Any comment, anyone?)
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Life’s Passage
It appears to me that the life’s passage is similar to a process of a tree growing. There are roots, trunk, brunch and leaves to make a tree. There are storms and obstructions of growth. Or, there are sunny, calm days, as well as rains. And every time there is disturbance, there is a feedback and lessons learned and make another move to try to move forward. Individually as human, we go through the similar process. It is the same with our organization.
Tying many previous posts, I may be able to make a simulation of life’s passage and try to come up with certain understanding: where we are, where we came from, what we do here now, what we do in the future, and how to conduct our life in a happy, realized state as it is meant to be – such are the understanding to come up with. If we can clarify these, we may be better equipped to realize such understanding in our life
* At the root, we find a base. It is zero base mind, no mind, home, the world of "It is OK", quiet center, peace, absolute state, and as-it-isness. It is unconscious world that conscious mind cannot peek into.
* Above the ground is the growth taking place as we see and describe with words, etc. It is a dualistic world. It is a world of consciousness.
When we are awake, most people will spend the mind occupied in the world above the ground. There, as we create more brunches (mini-brains) and leaves to try to express ourselves, we also encounter hurdles. The sprinkler breaks down, schedules are changing, assumptions are overturned, etc. etc. In spite of these hurdles, we never stop and all civilization we see around has been created as a result of the efforts.
Sometimes, brunch breaks or disease may spread. Even trunk may break, as well. In such a case, we experience feeling of hurt, suffering. On the other hand, if everything is going well, we feel confident and want to explore more. If we focus our eyes on eliminating suffering and gain peace in mind and live freely, we typically, go back to the home, the quiet center and regain the life energy, go through the healing and learning process. And we go back to our challenge in our life.
Let us see if we can go through an imaginary trip of this life’s passage. First, let us see my case and tie it to whole society’s passage, i.e., history of humans. For example, if I can not find a pencil I use at where it usually is left, I get puzzled and start to search for it. If the same thing happens often, we try to come up with an idea or a system so that the pencil will not be lost. So, the new order (or call it system or organization) is put in place. Gradually building up this way, not just finding a pencil, but finding information, or even inventing tools, machines, and miscellaneous systems, humans as a whole have created a huge complex system of our life and our civilization. We are the beneficiary of such a complex system to get food, drive cars, have doctors, and many conveniences of life all based on certain procedures. At the same time, we are providers of these tools, products, services, and systems. Over all, we try to maintain and upgrade so that we can pursue for living a better life.
Let us look at the psychological process more carefully. In the first incident of not finding a pencil, in our Hear-Brain System, as represented by an analogy of tree, it is like the point of brunch or leaves are in trouble. Our consciousness is focused on that very point. Then, realizing that the pencil is not there, we search in our brain while keep looking around the area. Perhaps uncomfortable feeling is felt as things are not as it was supposed to be. Our unconscious mind tells me that the pencil is there and has been. But, it is now disturbed that it is not there anymore. In the case of trees, the similar situation is that when a brunch started to hit something and cannot grow further.
To make the story short, this process of search, reflection, discovery/insight, and learning are the typical growth process (similar to PDCA process). Whether human or tree, the situation is pretty much the same. Both grow, or try to grow and express all they have – combining what we have, a creative process - and enjoy the process. When the growth is not possible, tree will retreat and find other path. We, human, do the same. The major difference is that humans have memories to retrieve the information for future use. This is the value of words, and concepts. It is to help live our life productively, not repeating the same mistakes again and again.
When the prospect is met and the path to the future was paved, it is like a brunch being hardened, thickened, and now be able to support the future growth for more brunches and leaves. It then becomes the part of the structure, and even forgotten into the level of unconsciousness. In our case, this is like we can swim, ride bicycle, read, write, etc. without thinking. We may take these internalized skills for granted – because it is natural and do not require efforts. It is like air we breath, heart that pump the blood, legs we walk, eyes we can use to see, etc. In a way, these become more like a root of the tree, a base of our living.
We think, and when tired, we stop thinking. Then, we try again later. This way, we try to seek for better situation (H-optimization). The process here is also like trying out different passage like a simulation – basically the same process as brunch’s growth. The difference, however, is that because of our capability for simulation, we can test out various hypothesis – without actually facing the problem on the spot as in the case of trees. So, we may be able to figure out to avoid problem ahead of time and come up with the solution to accomplish the mission. In this way, I see us going back and forth between brunches and roots, i.e., consciousness and unconsciousness.
In developing a strategy for a company or coming up with an improvement idea, we see the same process applied. As different hypotheses are created, different images of success or failure are simulated or pictured, perhaps also with some emotion comes with them. When things do not seem promising, the process is the same as I cannot find my pencil( or tree brunches hitting an obstacle). We retreat back to our home ((root, quiet center, etc.)) to seek for insight. When the insight is not found, we stay longer at home. When it is found, we experience a release. (Actually, if we seek for it, we cannot find it easily because we are too uptight and creative insight typically do not come from such a state.)
The release or insight comes only when we face hurdles and be able to go beyond. It is the life energy in action. We can learn from trees and animals how they use the energy. Trees will not complain. Even after the broken brunch, it concentrates itself in healing the wound and to restart its pursuit for growth. In animals, we see them being very quiet when they have injury or sickness. Similarly, in human, we retreat back to the quiet center or home when we find ourselves in trouble. A night’s sleep is a way to sort out issues brought into our mind and start new day with fresh open creative way.
When we see children with full of energy, challenging spirit and inquisitive mind, we realize that they started life after their birth just like new buds coming up from the ground to fully explore the unknown potential. Compared to our situation where more structure is developed and even feel burdensome about it in some cases, children question everything with fresh mind. The world is fresh in their eyes, no conditioning is being done.
Adults experience the fresh feeling when they discover something inspiring. When I started to do fly-fishing, I felt like I found an unknown world that existed but was foreign to me. Perhaps, it could be work, girl friends, travel, or whatever that gives the sense of inspiration. Each of these experiences may be similar to discovering a new world as children. In each of these, we can identify that life energy. But when that dream or potential is denied, we feel sorrow – much more than unable to find the pencil.
Kids can recover quickly and do not dwell on things so much. Few minutes later, tears may be gone and be replaced by smile. It is that innocent mind adults may forget and more structure is to drive our life.
The bottom line of this story is this: We should curtail our activity if we are losing ourselves. We should go back to the core, home, quiet center, no-mind, unconscious mind, heart, or whatever we call and be there as animals need to be quiet to heal the wounds. This is meditation. And the point of this is that we maintain or regain the freedom we lost from our child days. We need to off lord the burden if tree brunches are too big and heavy such that they cannot support themselves – almost detached from the base, the root. ((We need a neuron linkage, A10, to get back to the root to balance our act.))
On one hand, consciousness and tools and concepts are helpful to conduct our lives. Yet, we need not to be confined by the structure, the action is where the new insight is gained. Life is a continuous creation process. The wisdom to live practiced in our life – and help others to do the same, there are many choices. Ultimately, it is a decision of each individual (and each mini-brain and mini-mini-brain, etc.).
We may fit to any of the above categories. Or, we may experience all of the above in a day or week. To know it and living it and not know it and living it are two different things.
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Sprinklers – So what?
After working on the sprinkler problem for a few days, I saw a light in the tunnel, i.e. discovering the root cause of the problem. Then, I thought, even if I fix this problem, I will then find another problem to work on, and my life continues. In the mean time, I can see how my H-value changes along the way of my life’s passage. Some times I feel troubled with unresolved problem, the other time, perhaps feeling happy to find the solution. Then, I asked, to myself, "So what?" (In other words, what if I am oblivious to these personally created problems, and just live the life from that quiet center? A monastery life? Or, monastery life in modern day life?) After all, I did not have to work on sprinkler, it was fine, but I wanted to automate the process, resulting in more unknown problems. So what is the point of me creating these problems and finding me consumed in it?
This is a new so what question for me. It is now trying to figure out the "process" of life – in the reminder of my life. We can work on so many various problems, and keep working on them one after the other. In concept, the process of life is a continuation of problem solving. I thought that way for so long. There is an identity of me solving problems to express my self best. So, I thought.
But if I am identifying me with that quiet center that observes the process of this problem solving, does it really matter what problem to solve or even whether or not to solve the problem. We may think it is good for me or good for the society. But that thought is not addressing this "here and now". It is simulating with thought process as to what if, then, so and so, etc. But if we see that process being as mechanical and not real, in the sense of not living here and now, then what? It is not real, that is all.
Then, the next question is, would I live in that unreal world or live here and now?
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There are merits and demerits to Zen. One of the merits is its freedom – not free from anything to be free from, but free from seeking, free like a master. To become the creator but no the created is Zen. Here, we recognize it transcending concepts. While Zen is transcending concepts or dualism, it does not exclude concepts, thought or philosophy. For human, thinking is human’s nature. One cannot live without thinking for even a day. Zen thinks as well. It is thinking of no-thinking.
Thinking is based on no-thinking; no-thinking works because of thinking. If this point is not
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Perhaps, we can make a mental checklist to see how much off we are from the state of attention, or to realize that we are way off and need to go back to the state of attention, perhaps by quick meditative process:
So what is the point of these all?
It is to live the life as it is meant to be. Always moving forward, always being attentive without efforts, express what we can as it is meant to be. Question, and realization. Notice the unnaturalness in us, and be with the fact. Construction, reflection, deconstruction, and rebuilding. Binding, unbinding, insight, and being. Inattention, attention
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*New World, Old World*
Perhaps it was when I was about 8-10 years old,
I remember a scene of a rice field from the train window.
There was that smell of the field, wind, sun and the song of grasshoppers.
Reflecting back, that moment was when I felt God (X) right besides me.
I did not know then what that sense meant or what I was going through.
I had no words or concept to describe but just be.
But, it was when I was about to leave the Garden of Eden.
Before that, I was God (X) Himself and I had no word or no need to describe that world.
Then as more words and concepts arrived, my life/world started to unfold about that age.
Now, in my life’s passage, I find it amusing to go back and actually re-live that state.
The scene and situation may be different, but only major difference seems that:
I have accumulated and carried more concepts, memories, and human desires.
Yet, I can go back there now – when I see a tiny bug, grass, or perhaps when I feel mischievous.
In that state, I notice that I am surrounded by "Love" and the sense of "It is OK."
In fact, there is no word to describe except a deep sense of "reality." Or, should I say alive-ness?
So, I start my life/state again and again centered around that base state…
It is the home, X or whatever term that can be used to describe that formless creative energy.
It is THAT that sees through my eyes, move in me, feel the sun, hear the bird, smell the flower.
Whether young or old, whatever the situation is, it is that heart, the quiet center,
that "works" through me, through everything, and everywhere.
Then, is there anything more or other than what is?
I say yes. There is this new "I" shedding tears to see the world of God’s creation in action.
Reflecting the emotional ups and downs I went through, and looking at the world right here,
tears flow and at the same time, the ever renewing world brings a smile on my face.
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From Wilbro’s Doodle Works
My Brief Impressions and Quotes from the Doodle Works by Wilbro99
1. Fool Proof
"The way of looking that creates problems is the self-description that creates the me as a thing."
"Why is it not seen that the me, the self, the ego, whatever, is a by-product of description?"
2. An Open Letter of Sorts – about happiness and going through the process
3. Introductory Lecture(1) – self-observation, include experimenting exercise
4. A letter - 6 step approach- easy reading, pragmatic
"Do you seek happiness because you are unhappy, or are you unhappy because you seek happiness?"
"create a thought form, invest it with a self, then negate the form; what do you do with the identity remainder?"
"be a movement of separation, untangling, detaching, disconnecting, stepping out of, backing out of "
"no sweat; all of the sweating is being done in the startle box."
"waking dream, i.e., lost in thought and unaware of the world about "
"on how to stop daydreaming. Simply become aware that you are doing it, and it stops" X cannot allow such use of energy….
"When we become aware of an unaware act, the act comes to an end. In fact, it is the art of exorcising your unconscious."
5. The problem of the psychological(A) – This is similar to #6. Describes positive and negative way. Neg. way is attention to inattention way. "The solution is -- a state of mind full of attention"
6. The problem of the psychological(B) – About attention and inattention, the process to have the condition is the key. "the solution to the problem of the psychological is not a science, nor a religion, nor a philosophy, but an art."
7. Yet another postscript – Not too difficult to follow with certain intuitive sense, it is about how the "traps" are set to our mind (from trap creator’s view.)
8. The other way
"Assume that in one way or the other, we are all seeking the same thing, i.e., peace- of- mind. It could then follow that in some way or other, our mind is disturbed, else why would we be seeking it."
"The other way is not to form any notion of what the problem is, but to stop and observe the problem itself, thereby uncovering and rooting out the disturbance."
"when a division is negated, all things created by the division follow suit."
"there is another way of looking at things."
"the paradoxical implication here is that the only way the old field can understand the new field is to cease being the old field."
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