| Chapter 11 |
| -Brian- “I don’t understand why we have to walk so fast. It’s not like we’re going to be late or something.” Nick practically pulled me down to the Kevin’s small dock on the lake for his fishing boat. I did have to laugh though, the little boy was showing again inside of Nick, anxious to go play or something. Just one of the many things I adore about my baby Nicky, no matter how old he gets, how sexy he is, or how mature he can be, there will always be that fragile 13 yr old that I protected and looked after for years. It’s still hard to believe that after all this time I’m still as much in love with him as the first day we kissed. I’ll never forget that night on the bus. We were somewhere in Germany and Nick was only 17 and I could already spot his extreme sexuality. He asked me to lay with him that night, at least till he fell to sleep. It was something I had done many nights before, but there was something different about how he asked me, I could tell he was more nervous and I still didn’t believe it when he placed his hand on my face, asking me permission to kiss me. I thought I had always been the one who wanted it and now it was Nick who was asking me. I only responded with a kiss, a soft yet sensuous kiss that began the past 4 years of absolute love. As we reach the dock I can barely see AJ and Howie sitting along the other edge of the lake. We finally stop and Nick quickly turns around to face me. “So tell me again why we ran down here?” I ask, catching my breath. Suddenly I feel Nick’s full lips against my own…I moan at the feeling and immediately give him complete access to my mouth as I myself deepen the kiss. I wrap my hands around his neck and pull him down closer to further our kisses. When I’m kissing Nick, everything else in the world comes to a halt. I love tasting his mouth, sucking on his lips, massaging his tongue…mmm…His hand runs up my back, to my neck and rests at the bottom of my hair, his fingers toying with the curls that gather there. His other hand rests on my lower back, pulling me closer into him. He pulls away, leaving us both breathless. -Nick- “That’s why” I say with a devilish smile on my face. I kiss him once more, sweetly sealing the moment. I grab his hand and walk him out to the end of the dock. I stand behind him as we both face the beautiful sun setting on the lake. I love nature and this is truly the epitome of beauty. “It’s so peaceful here” I remark as I wrap my hands around Brian, his head resting against my chest, his hands covering my own. This is definitely the perfect place to give our minds a break from the constant screaming, interviews and photo shoots that we endure practically everyday. I think we all needed a break and I definitely needed some time with just Brian. I love him so much. I look down at his perfect face; his structured jaw line, his beautiful eyes and the small stubble that gathers on his chin, and I can’t help but marvel at how stunningly gorgeous and manly he is. He’s protected me from so many things, been there for me always and helped me to become the man I am today. Not only is he my one and only lover, but my best friend. I honestly can not picture my life without him. I tighten my embrace as I recall the time I almost lost him, his weak heart needing to be fixed. There were times then that I needed comforting and realized that he is where I turn. I depended so much on him and decided then that I would be strong and we would protect each other. I hope that one day we’ll be able to express our love the way we want to, but until then, I don’t care if we are the only two people in the world who know about us, just as long as I have him, I can do anything. “I love you with all my heart and soul Bri” I say, kissing him on the cheek. I feel a tear roll down my face as he lifts my hand to his lips, kissing it lightly. “ I love you forever Nicky.” |