| March 10th, 2002 The past few weeks, I have felt more alive than I have in many years. I have become so connected with my partner. Kevin and I kill together, have incredible sex together and taste the food that both of us hunger for from each other. The feeling of his blood running through my veins as I am buried deep within him provides me a high that I had only felt through drugs while I was alive. No one during my human life had ever made me feel this good, and I’m almost afraid of what it could lead to. Although I have chosen him to be by my side for all eternity, I was in no way prepared for this type of connection. I can feel him getting closer to me everyday, becoming a part of who I am…and that scares the hell out of me. Even though I had wanted a partner so badly, the loneliness haunting me, I suppose I had become accustomed to it. I can see in his eyes, hear it in his voice and feel it in his heartbeat when we make…when we have sex that he wants more from me, he wants all of me, and I’m just not sure what I’m ready to give. I’ve been abandoned one to many times and don’t want to end up hating him and myself for something trivial as love. That’s why I had suggested that we visit my friend’s club in New York. It was an underground club; known mostly to vampires and some other stray souls, but what I enjoyed about it the most was the atmosphere of sexual freedom. Most of the vampires there had same-sex partners, or were looking for one, and most were men. I had been gay all of my life, but due to societal constraints I had never been able to fully live the way I wanted to. This alternate life gave me the opportunity to explore every aspect of it. I had gone there often by myself, to help get ideas for my own club and to watch and experience the sexual freedom I had longed for. Kevin had readily agreed to the trip, saying that he wanted to experience more about his new lifestyle and the one that I had loved so much. I loved the new aspect of our relationship, his eagerness to learn more and my extreme willingness to teach him everything. As we walked up to the club, both completely covered in leather, Kevin wearing a special choker I had chosen especially for this evening, I could sense that even though he was excited and eager, he was also slightly nervous, knowing that he was entering an entire new world. I warned him that it was different from my club, more private and unknown where sex and vamping united. As we stood underneath the dim lights outside of the club I saw the tentative look in his eyes. His hair fell loosely around his face; it’s silky texture shining in the faint light. His black sleeveless shirt clung tightly to his muscles, accenting each ripple. I licked my lips as my eyes fell down his body, his tight leather pants hugging his ass and accentuating everything I loved about him. I moved closer to my lover and placed my hand on his cheek. My lips were only inches away from his, letting my breath caress his face as I spoke softly. “I’m here with you baby, all night. Feel safe with me and let yourself explore.” Kevin’s head turned and kissed my palm, nuzzling his face in my hand. I stroked his hair and slid my hand down his arm to reach for his hand. We stopped at the door and I told the doorman my name. We entered and I immediately spotted the owner, my friend Anthony. He hugged me and I introduced Kevin. Anthony winked and smiled back at me, approving of my choice. We wasted no more time and made our way to the dance floor. I hadn’t seen Kevin’s moves, but I knew by his entrance to my club that night and the way he moves in bed that there was no need for concern. The music pumped loudly in our ears as we closed the space between us, our hips the first to meet. I soon felt his strong hands on my ass, pulling me closer to his body as we found a rhythm and grinded to the music. A moan escaped my lips as his bulge brushed against my own and the look of lust and sexual hunger in his eyes burned through me. I leaned into him, smelling his scent and feeling his muscles against my own as I whispered, “Look around, take it in.” Kevin looked back at me as his eyes turned to see a couple making out on the leather couch in the nearby corner. A red light was shining over them as their tongues battled within each other’s mouths, their hands sliding up and down each other’s shirts and the smaller man’s legs wrapped around the larger man, positioned on his lap as they thrusted against each other in perfect rhythm with the music. I felt Kevin hold onto me tighter, move more forcefully as he saw the sight before him. He grabbed a fistful of my hair at the back of my neck and forcefully wrapped his mouth around me, sucking my tongue into his mouth and biting on my lower lip, drawing blood. He sucked on it roughly, his tongue swirling over the skin before he drew my blood into his mouth, spreading it over his lips before sucking it down his throat. He pulled away as quickly and forcefully as he had sucked me in. I looked at the red substance smeared over his sensuous lips and I wanted nothing more than to taste myself on his lips once again, but I was surprised to enjoy Kevin’s dominance as much as I did. Still holding onto my hair, he led us across the dance floor until we were positioned only feet away from the couple that had stirred such emotion in Kevin. There were other couples around, but that didn’t seem to stop Kevin as he forced us directly in front of them, close enough to hear their own moans, the sound of their leather pants grinding roughly between their bodies and the deep growls coming from their throats, their hunger and desire evident. Kevin placed me in front of him, his hips pushed tightly against me, his erection pressed against my body, begging to be released from it’s tight constraints. Kevin placed his hands on the front of my hips, grasping the sensitive area around my aching cock. His fingers dug deeply into the confining material as he pulled us closer together. I moaned loudly, his erecting torturing me as my eyes remained fixated on the couple in front of us. That’s what I loved most about my club, I could sit in the upper VIP area and watch the action without anyone noticing, but there was something so erotic about being so close, hearing every moan while feeling Kevin pressed tightly against me. I soon felt his breath on my ear, hovering over my neck. “It’s so hot Alex…” Kevin whispered seductively against my ear. I placed a hand at the back of his neck and pulled him closer. I turned my face to meet his own and kissed him roughly, tasting myself on his lips before pulling away. I looked back over at the sight before us, both now shirtless men had unzipped the other’s pants and their fingers were intertwined around their joined shafts as the stroked at the same pace they were thrusting against each other with. The smaller blonde’s face was buried in the larger man’s neck, sucking feverishly at his skin. I could barely stand to see the look on the man’s face. His blond unruly hair was spiked; his head rolled back, his mouth open exposing his fangs as his tongue licked his lips and teeth. Kevin’s hand slid down to the front of my pants and cupped the now throbbing erection that was begging for his touch. I groaned loudly as Kevin stroked me through my leather pants, I moved my hips, forcing back into his hard cock behind me, rubbing my ass over his pants, friction making him slowly lose control. The moans coming from the men across from us turned into animalistic screams as the smaller man pulled away from his feast, his head flying back as he screamed out in pleasure, both men releasing themselves all over each other. Blood slowly dripped from the smaller man’s mouth, his blond hair and the red liquid gleaming in the light. The larger man yelled out the other man’s name, it clouded in the music and my own groans. Suddenly, I felt Kevin moan loudly right before placing his mouth at my neck. He broke the skin quickly, sinking his fangs within me, sucking at the skin forcefully as his hand slipped under my pants, stroking my skin with such desire. I closed my eyes savoring the penetration and the heat building within me. I wrapped my hands behind his ass, squeezing and pulling him closer. We continued to grind against each other until I couldn’t hold on any longer. I yanked his head back as I screamed with pleasure, squeezing his ass tightly as I came all over his hand. I grinded my hips quickly against his and heard his moan of ecstasy as he followed, breathlessly releasing a loud groan into my ear. I felt a drop of blood hit my shoulder and soon felt his tongue lick at the skin, taking every drop of me into him. I captured his mouth once again with my own, turning around to face him and wrap my arms around him. I was on such a high from his change of demeanor, never expecting him to take such control. I might not let it happen again, but for that night, it was such an unexpected gift that I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him closely for a passionate kiss, wanting to thank him. It seems that with each new step we take, I am happier and happier, enjoying my choice for a partner. A part of me feels as if I’m losing the strong walls that I had built to protect myself and my heart, but somewhere within me, it feels so right. I was so caught up in the moment that I hadn’t noticed the other men until I pulled away from the kiss with Kevin. He was staring blankly at them. I turned around and the smaller man was sitting on the larger man’s lap, facing us. Both were smiling, yet seemed to have the same expression that we had only experienced moments earlier watching them. It seems we have new friends. Alex |