| Deceived Dedicated to Jamie S. and Jeffrey M. So many times I have wanted someone to love me, So many times I have been pushed away. I’ve lost friends and family, Simply because I’m gay. I’ve tried dating time and again, Each time to no avail. Each time I try a relationship, Is each time that I fail. Every time I’m not good enough, Each time there’s something not right. Each time I find it my fault somehow, Each time renews my fright. It all stems from a certain fear, Which is a basic fear of many. The fear that I will have no one, Not one…not any. I thought you actually loved me, I thought you actually cared. But all you did was show once and for all, That love just is not fair. You tricked me and lied, You lured me to walk your way. You got me where you wanted me, Then you took my dignity away. You were the ultimate thief, And I can never truly forgive you. You robbed me when you had my trust, And not a word you said was true. Now I can never trust again, Because of a vile plan you conceived. But you got what you wanted, Because I was so easily deceived. -Julian Carlton Aisling 8/23/00 |