do u know?

Do you know how many nights I lay awake with you on my mind? Do you know how many hours of sleep I've lost just by thinking about you? Do you know how much my heart is crying But my mind tells me not to? Do you know how much it hurts To watch you come and go everyday?
Do you know how hard it is For me to act like I have moved on? Do you know how often our past Replays in my head like a film? Do you know how I try to avoid you And only secretly look at you from afar? Do you know how hard I fell for you And how much I regret it now?
I'm asking you... do you know? If you don't, I do.
There isn't a night that goes by That there isn't a vision of you in my head. I would go to bed at a certain time And not fall asleep until three hours later. My heart cries rivers of tears, Yet, my eyes don't have any tears to cry. Every time you come and go, A part of me leaves with you.
I smile when I see you, I laugh when I talk to you, I smile again when you leave, but it is all a daily act. I can only think briefly about the day we met Our first kiss... and everything else (You know what they are) For if I go too deep into detail, I may never return to reality.
I know all the places I could go to run into you, But I refuse to see you face to face.
Instead, I will do anything I can Just to be out of your sight- but by your shadow. I fell so hard for you that my heart is cracked. And the fact I still like you… And the fact you let me go… And the fact you gave up on us Not to mention the fact you made me feel As though I wasn't enough to make you happy...
I hate you. And after all this time I've kept quiet, All this time I made life so much easier for you but harder for me, The pain has decided to stay. So, now I'm asking you... Do you know how much I am suffering? Do you know?

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