When both my son and daughter graduated high school in 1995, my son joined the marines and my daughter was planning her wedding.. I gave my life back to God in 1995 because I new at some point I had fallen from him, and needed him back.

I then began searching for more, because I wanted and needed a deeper and more personal relationship with God Almighty! I wanted to be filled with the Holy Spirit, and I seek the baptism of it. I received the Spiritual Baptism in September of 1995, and knew for many days what God actually felt like.. for the first time I could actually feel him in me and with me.. He never left me, He was always there.. I just lost Jesus through all I was going through. I also realized at this point of time if I would of died before I re-newed my life with Jesus I would have died and gone to hell!

During this time of me seeking more of Jesus, I knew in my heart what all I wanted and did all I needed to make it happen! I prayed and seeked His face each time. I needed this relationship with Jesus very bad, because I heard him speaking to my heart about my children! I have already lost 2 children to a bad ordeal in life, I wasn't ready to loose anymore. God was telling me to myself.. Mothers you need to get your life right with me first before you can be of use to your children.. I knew this was me He was speaking to, why, because my son was in the service, and over seas, and my daughter was getting married to man which at the time I was not aware of, dealing and using heavily in drugs! God saw the life of my children, and was giving me warning to get myself lined out right with Jesus so I could help them..

When I got myself strong in God's words and knew the authority I had being His daughter I was helping my children through GOD through PRAYER!! God showed me how my children were calling out and needing help.. I woke up many times praying for my children, and I still do.. My son had many encounters with death, but by the Grace Of God and His Hand of Protection He picked my son up from the side of a mountain with 4 other men behind him doing some climbing maneuvers in Okinawa.. God Showed me things about my daughter and her husband. He had me praying for their salvation and deliverance. I didn't understand this because I thought my daughter was already saved, and not realizing she was pulling more and more from God as I was growing more in HIM..

When my daughter and her husband separated and later divorced it was due to drugs and his lack of interest to be a husband to my daughter and a father to his two children he walked away from! I saw my daughter becoming distant in her life as I use to .. I couldn't talk to her without her getting all defensive, but I did pray for her and her children.

God would show me how to annoint her room and touch things that she came into close contact with.. He also showed me when I would hold her children to annoint them and pray over their for protection. I did just as God showed me and lead me through for my family.. this was my family that God gave me and I wasn't ready to have them torn from me, or destroyed by the devil..

I fought satan with God's word.. I used it all with the authority of Jesus's name. I called out to Our Lord God pleading the blood over each member and binding satan and his evil spirits.. God showed me how to fight for what I loved and held dear to my heart, and I fought satan with Jesus leading and guiding my steps. When victory was won over my daughters grip by Our Lord Jesus that satan held on her, my health turned to the worse, only because I wasn't going to stop caring for and loving my family.. Satan was trying to kill me so he could devour my family!!

I was experiencing headaches the end of Jan.,.,2000. I was having headaches so bad it was causing me to be dizzy, and off balance.I was loosing sight in my left eye,and sick on my stomach. I was so off balance I could not stand up. I finally went to the doctor 02-07-00, to see what was wrong. He ran several blood test,and put me on medication for migraines. After I got the results from the tests, which showed nothing wrong, the doctor was concerned about an aneurysm. I went to the city and had a cat scan done. Waited some more time for this test to come back.

This test showed something, not good. But it was not clear, I had to make a appointment to a neoru-surgeon. He ran a MRI on me which did indeed show an AVM (arteral vascular maliformation). It was the size of a chicken egg in my brain. It was sitting in my speech area, which is the top left of you head. This doctor has seen them before, but never performed on one before, so I was passed over to another neuro-surgeon. He was very rude, never told me what the dangers were with this avm. He showed no interest in helping me, he passed me on to Oklahoma City, Okla., to a neuro-surgeon specialist.

He was good, I knew he was the doctor God sent me to. I felt God all through this building His presence was so strong and very real! We had more tests to do, and it was a 3-D, a MRI, and a 3-D cat scan. I had to wait 2 weeks before the results on these tests because of them being different. During this 2 week wait I had two experiences with God, that changed my life and the way I was actually seeing things from that point on! I was told if this ruptured in my head it was instant death; and because of the pain, and the light effecting me and causing me to feel worse, I took a leave of absence from work to come home and live in total darkness! Light of any form made the head pound worse and caused me to feel like it was about to blow off my shoulders.

I was restricted to bed since all the medication I was on, I was not safe to myself to be up! My head would hurt so bad my body shook. I was laying in my bed praying and asking God to take my pain, and at the very moment I felt a poping sound in my head, it was like a rubber band being stretched out tight then it pops, that's what it felt like in my head and a bolt of electricty went through my body and I began jerking for a few minutes. I really thought it was my time to die! But I didn't..

One week after later I was in church praying while the pastor was preaching, and on stage behind him I saw HEAVENS GATES!! Once again I thought God was coming to take me home. I took God's hands as we went to Heaven, and when I got there I was standing in front of the Heaven's Gate's! They were so tall you couldn't see the top of them. The colors in Heaven are brighter then you can ever think of. I felt God, His presence was powerful, like electricty, and the air was full of energy. It was so powerful it was drawing me closer to the gates. I was ready to cross over, but God told me, "No, it was not your time yet." I wanted to go in and never come out.

I could not figure out why God didn't want me, maybe cause I was being denied Heaven, this was my first thought. I had a few days left to get myself prepared for my next visit back to Oklahoma City,Okla., I had a living will drawn up, I had my funeral plans made, I even started divining things up for my children. I did everything possible to prepare myself to go. I saw this specialist and we had a very long discussion on all my options. My first was this was not coming out by surgery, it would cause instant death.My second option was, to leave it, and live out what life I had, but you see it wasn't this easy.This avm,was sucking the blood from my supply to my brain, which was slowly causing me to be brain dead,it was stealing life from my brain already. It would rupture in time, how long who knows. I had only one more option that had a small light of hope.It was called gamma knife treatment, this was shooting 206 beams of raditation in to my brain killing this avm out at root, but it would still be active to rupture up to 2 years from treatment. WHAT CHOICES!! I chose the gamma knife, so I had to check in to the hospital for a arteral-gram test.

This test was a simple procedure and did have some pain, but not like the pain I was experiencing. It was the devil the devil himself ripping me apart and causing me this horrible pain. The doctors who were giving this test could not understand why I was in such pain. I had be given 3 local shots to stop the pain, but yet each shot only made me more aware of the pain! I was in much pain, and at one point of this test I cried out "DEAR GOD PLEASE TAKE MY PAIN". It was at this point I saw the most brightest,shinest light enter into the room with me, I felt someone take my hand an hold it, IT WAS GOD. He took my pain and held my hand. After this test was done I went to recovery room for 5 hours. Doctors (5) of them looked at me with dumbfounded looks as if they were in shock, they told me there was nothing in my brain, it was clean, I PRAISED GOD right then and shouted again.These doctors looked at me and asked me what happened. I told them all, God healed me because no man could.God touched me 06-20-00.

I will never as long as I live forget this day. I since then pledge to God before my family, I will go the distance for MY HEAVENLY FATHER. I love My Heavenly Father. No one can tell me ever God did not heal me. I have in my possession all test that has been ran on me, all the doctors reports and statements. I have all the information about this with me, so no one can tell me it never happened, IT DID HAPPEN, and I am and will be the walking, living, breathing testimony for Our Lord Jesus Christ..

Everything that Jesus did for me was because HE loved me, not because I was better or was more special.. I was healed because Jesus loved me and I believed with my faith He could do it! I'm not a perfect Christian, but I do love Jesus with all my heart, mind, body, and soul! I know that everything you have read through my story sounds so far fetched and unbelieveable that all this could happen to only one person!! It did happen to me as you now have read it, and I hope that through my story you can see God is able to help you and heal you, and free you from your bondage in life. Our Lord God is a wonderful and very loving and forgiving Father. He loves you just as you are, and I do to!

THANK YOU LORD JESUS CHRIST!!