| Tears find their way down her cheeks, she cries and can’t stop it. Why is life always so hard? Why can’t anything go the right way, the good way? She is thinking about her life; nothing, really nothing, seems to be like she wants it to be. There is no sense for living, nobody will tell her anymore that life is the greatest present God ever gave to her. Why was there this fuckin’ red Mercedes coming down the streets? Why was he standing there? Why couldn’t the car stop? Why? Why? Why? She doesn’t want to think about that anymore, she never ever wants to spend any thought on it. It’s hard and she knows that it is impossible to forget. There will be the car, always in her dreams no matter where she goes. There will be his face, this really beautiful face with the happy smile, this shining eyes and these red cheeks. He always be in her mind even he’ll never be together with her. Her dreams will be full of stuff like that. She knows he wasn’t her real brother, he was different, he never had the same opinion, there was always trouble between him and her. But if she was down he always was there for her. She could tell him her problems anyway. He never asked why she had done any kind of nonsense, never said she was a silly girl, never told her to go and let him have his peace. He always was there to listen how she became hurt and to give her his warmth to feel better. She never realised that he was her reason to stay alive. Her best friend… Now he’s gone. He’ll never come back. And whose fault was it? Her fault or his fault? He was standing there at the sidewalk waiting for her. It was her fault! Her cheeks are wet, she cries, can’t stop the tears, can’t stop herself thinking that it was only her fault! Suddenly she stops it all for some seconds. What would he think about that when he could see her? Wouldn’t he tell her that she shouldn’t cry and give up her life? Wouldn’t he make her laughing like so much times before? He would take her in his arms telling her stop crying and see how beautiful the world is. Go out and see the people walking around, some smiling others with sad faces. But everyone will be happy again who is crying today. Wouldn’t that be what he would say if he could be by her side yet? Since yesterday everything changed. There isn’t anybody telling her to hold her head up high, to think positive, to love her life and to feel free of any sadness. The only person who was able to tell her this things in the right way isn’t there anymore. God has taken him into heaven! She smiled under tears. Yes, he must be in heaven! He was such a wonderful person! He couldn’t be anywhere else. Therefore she feels better. But she still wants to follow him. Only one person stops her: HE himself! He would never forgive her if she gives away her life for him because: LIFE IS THE GREATEST PRESENT GOD CAN EVER GIVE YOU!!!! |
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