The Love That Heals 19 to 22

by: Darlene

The Love That Heals - Part 19

A few weeks after Brenda & a very drunken Jax almost made love, neither of them have been able to get the urge to make love to the other out of their heads. All the distance that Brenda wanted to put between them to show Jax that she was over him, so he would want her more, & that Jax tried to put between them so that he wouldn't hurt her, like he hurt all the other women he got close to, disappeared. In fact, except for not sleeping in each other's arms, they were closer then ever. The kisses that both Jax & Brenda desired were no longer forbidden, in fact they were plentiful. Sweet delicious kisses were now a common occurrence. Jax & Bren no longer had to wonder when & if they would kiss again since few hours passed without at least one kiss. Some of the kisses were short & sweat, most of them were long & delicious all of them warmed their bodies with happy memories though out the night.

Jax & Brenda are scurrying around trying to get ready for a fancy dinner party Jax is expected to attend in less then an hour.

B: "Who is this party for, again?"

Jax fixes his tie as he yells back to Brenda.

J: "The Lakota's. They're business associates of mine"

B: "Why is this party so special?"

J: "I gave them a week to decide if they want to accept my offer, they're close to signing but it's well known that they rarely do business with people who reject their invitations"

B: "So this should clinch the deal for you?"

J: "Yes & this deals worth a lot of money"

Brenda walks out, with the help of her crutches, & joins Jax in the living room. The first thing Jax notices is Brenda's dress. A beautiful short red lace dress that hugs each curve of Brenda's body just the way it should. Brenda is also taken back by the breath taking person in front of her. As usual Jax looks dashing in his tux.

J: "You look delicious"

B: "Thanks, you look incredible"

J: "Come here"

B: "Shouldn't we get a move on?"

J: "Yes but before we do that I want to hold you for a few minutes"

Brenda doesn't hesitate to slip in to the space between Jax's legs.

B: "I could get very used to this"

Jax wraps his arms around Brenda & Brenda intertwines her hands with Jax's. As they sit, silently enjoying their closeness, Brenda thinks about what Jax said he does when he gets drunk -- either spills his guts or makes love to what ever women he's with. Neither of which Brenda would mind.

B: "Will you be drinking tonight?"

J: "Why? You worried about what might happen?"

Bren smiles.

B: "No, I wasn't worried. I was just thinking"

Brenda stops mid sentence.

J: "What were you thinking?"

B: "About what you told me happens when you drink too much"

J: "Your afraid that I might try & spill my guts to you or make love to you?"

B: "I wasn't afraid. It might be nice"

J: "Believe me when we make love"

Brenda's mind immediately begins thinking <<he said when, not if. Yes!!! He wants to make love to me>>.

J: "I want to feel & memorize every detail of every moment. You mean too much to me to risk making love to you & forgetting it. The same goes for when I bare my soul, I want to be completely sober. So no, I won't be drinking tonight"

Brenda moves over on to the cushion next to Jax, leaving her legs draped between Jax's. Jax moves one hand up & down Brenda's leg as he plays with her hand with his other hand.

J: "Thanks for doing this for me, it means a lot"

B: "Do we need to stay long?"

J: "No, we just have to stay long enough to let them know I'm there & having a good time. To seal the deal. Why? Do you want to stay home?"

The sick feeling that Brenda had been feeling since shortly after noon, continues to increase as she answers Jax.

B: "I know this is important to you"

J: "But"

B: "I'm a little tired"

Brenda didn't lie but she didn't tell the whole truth either. Brenda was a little tired but she was also beginning to feel very sick. Her stomach felt like it was churning & her head was pounding, but Brenda smiled despite their pain. She knew this party was important to Jax & she didn't want to ruin it.

Jax leaves one hand on Brenda's leg as he runs his other hand through her hair.

J: "I know these parties aren't very fun for you now. I promise you, when you're healed completely we will dance the night away. Does that sound good?"

Brenda shakes her head in approval.

B: "We better get going"

Jax looks at the clock

J: "You're right, but first a little incentive to get through the night."

Jax, followed by Brenda, leans in for what was intended as a sweet delicious kiss. As sweetness & desire fill their bodies, Jax feels something that scares him.

To Brenda's shock, Jax abruptly pulls out of their kiss. Jax's eyes fill with concern as he looks as Brenda.

B: "what's wrong?"

Jax runs his hand over Brenda's face.

J: "Bren you're hot"

B: "I'll be fine"

J: "Why didn't you tell me?"

B: "Tonight's important to you,. I don't want to ruin it"

J: "It's not nearly as important as you. You're Enoch going anywhere tonight"

B: "I'll be fine"

J: "I'll see to that, I'm staying here with you tonight"

B: "No Jax, this deal is too important. Go! I'll be fine"

J: "It's only business. You are much more important to me"

B: "I won't be responsible for ruining this deal"

J: "I'm not leaving you tonight. Do you want me to call a doctor?"

B: "No. Please don't jeopardize all your hard work for me"

J: "I'll call Jerry & send him, besides if someone doesn't want to do business with me just because I can't make it to a party, they're not really wart doing business with anyway"

For a split second Jax could have sworn that the look Brenda gave him was filled with love.

J: "What hurts?"

B: "My stomach & head"

All of Jax's desire for Brenda quickly turns to concern for her health.

J: "Can I get you anything, juice, aspirin

Before Jax can continue, Brenda cuts him off.

B: "I don't need anything"

J: "Do you want me to rub your back?"

B: "I would rather just lay with you"

J: "I can do that"

Jax swoops Brenda up in his strong, graceful arms.

B: "Where are we going?"

J: "To lay down of course"

B: "I can walk you know"

J: "I know but I'd rather carry you"

B: "Stop"

J: "What's wrong?"

B: "I want to lay in there"

J: "There? But that's"

B: "Your room"

J: "Wouldn't you be more comfortable in your own bed?"

B: "Your room has a spectacular view".

Jax does as Brenda asked & lays her down on his bed; his bed where he dreamt bout making love to Brenda again & again.

J: "Would you like me to get you a change of clothing?"

Brenda reaches her hand out to Jax,

B: "I'm comfortable right here, come lay with me"

A few hours after laying down with Brenda, Jax is fast asleep, with his chin resting on top of Brenda's head. Brenda realizes that Jax has been silent for quite some time & reaches her head back to check on him.

B: "Jax, you awake?"

Bren gets her answer when she sees Jax's face.

B: "God Jax you look gorgeous even when you're sleeping. Your mom was right, you know that? I will marry you. Maybe not as soon as she thinks but someday"

Still sleeping, Jax tightens his hold around Brenda's waist.

B: "Lois is right, I do love you Jax".

A few days later, Jax sits in the Outback, waiting for Brenda. Jax arrived a few moments ago, over an hour before Brenda's supposed to get there. Brenda decided to go to the Q's & Jax didn't want to tag along so Brenda asked him to meet her at the outback. Jax quickly realizes that he should have brought his lap top, or invited Jerry for appetizers, anything but sit there for over an hour. Just as Jax is about to dial his cellular phone & ask Addie if he needs to make any business calls, he spots a couple coming in. Jax immediately recognizes the woman from pictures that Lois showed him. Jax calls Mac over & points to the table while saying something. Jax glances over to the couple a few times with in ten minutes. Finally the guy gets up & goes towards the restrooms. Jax slowly & confidently walks over to the young woman. Jax extends his hand to the young woman.

J: "I never thought I would meet you"

L: "Do I know you?"

J: "No. You're Lilly Rivera right?"

L: "I was, it's Lilly Corinthos now"

J: "I'm pleased to meet you Lilly, I've been waiting a long time to thank you"

B: "For what?"

J: "Changing my life"

Lilly gives Jax a you got to be kidding look.

J: "I'm serious, if it weren't for you, I never would have met the love of my life"

Lilly immediately thinks two things. 1) those must be the worst pickup lines ever, and 2) if she weren't married, she would definitely fall for them. Lilly smiles as she responds in an, "I'm not interested" voice.

L: "Let me guess, me!"

Jax holds back his laughter as he realizes that It must have sounded like he was trying to pick up Lilly.

J: "Oh, I'm sorry it must have sounded like I was trying to come on to you"

Jax points to the empty chair across form Lilly.

J: "May I"

Lilly is both delighted & scared. Delighted because this gorgeous man was joining her, scared because she didn't know what Sonny might do if he saw her with him. Not that she thought he would be jealous, but she was afraid he might think she was disrespecting him.

L: "Go ahead, but my husband will be back soon"

J: "I suppose I should explain to you why I'm thanking you & introduce myself"

L: "Go ahead"

J: "My name is Jax, & you really did change my life"

L: "That's what you keep saying"

J: "Not too long ago, outside of a blues club, you risked your life to save another. In that moment, you changed my life forever"

L: "How?"

J: "I didn't know it at the time but the person who's life you saved

L: "Brenda"

J: "Yes, Brenda. She's very important to me & if it weren't for you, she would have died before I got a chance to meet her"

Lilly thinks, <<Brenda has all the luck?>>

L: "All I did was react"

J: "You saved her life! I will always be grateful to you for that, if you ever need anything or if I can do something for you, please let me know".

Lilly's eyes focus on the door.

L: "Are you waiting for Brenda?"

J: "Yes, she won't be here for about an hour"

L: "Looks like she's early"

J: "It was nice talking to you, now if you'll excuse me, my dates here"

L: "Of course".

Before Brenda gets a chance to look around, Jax rushes to her. Brenda drops her crutches right there, near the door, & hugs Jax. Jax lifts Brenda off the ground, as they share a very intense kiss filled with desire. Jax places Brenda back on the ground.

J: Now, what are we going to do with your crutches?"

B: "leave them"

J: "Yuo're early"

B: "Are you complaining?"

J: "No,not at all. I missed you"

B: "I missed you too"

J:" Hold on"

Jax lifts Brenda in another hug as he carries her a few steps over to their table. As Brenda tells Jax about her day with the Q's, Bren's hands rest on Jax' s & intertwine; her legs stay intertwined with his.

B: "Lila asked when she would see you. She missed you at that party a couple days ago."

L: "Excuse me"

Brenda & Jax look up to find Lilly standing near their table. Brenda's a bit surprised, but responds politely since Jax is there & Lilly did save her life.

B: "Hi Lilly"

L: "I came to invite you two to join myself & my husband for tonight".

Although Lilly's invitation sounded innocent to Jax, Lilly really had 2 reasons for asking them over, well actually 3. The first reason was that she wanted to see if Brenda was as into Jax as it seemed & over Sonny; the second reason was that she wanted Sonny to see that Brenda has moved on with her life. The third was that eventhough she was in love with Sonny, she couldn't resist wanting to get to know Jax better.

J: "Sweetie, do you want to join them?"

Jax looks at Bren,

J: "Lilly would you mind giving us a few moments alone?"

L: "Not at all"

Once Lilly's gone, Jax realizes that there's h wrong with Brenda.

Next time. . . Brenda tells Jax more about Lilly & Sonny & Jax gives Lily their decision on her invitation.

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Subj: TLTH 19 done

Date: 8/20/98 10:22:09 AM Central Daylight Time

From: PepeTDevil

To: PepeTDevil

The Love That Heals - Part 19

A few weeks after Brenda & a very drunken Jax almost made love, neither of them have been able to get the urge to make love to the other out of their heads. All the distance that Brenda wanted to put between them to show Jax that she was over him, so he would want her more, & that Jax tried to put between them so that he wouldn't hurt her, like he hurt all the other women he got close to, disappeared. In fact, except for not sleeping in each other's arms, they were closer then ever. The kisses that both Jax & Brenda desired were no longer forbidden, in fact they were plentiful. Sweet delicious kisses were now a common occurrence. Jax & Bren no longer had to wonder when & if they would kiss again since few hours passed without at least one kiss. Some of the kisses were short & sweat, most of them were long & delicious all of them warmed their bodies with happy memories though out the night.

Jax & Brenda are scurrying around trying to get ready for a fancy dinner party Jax is expected to attend in less then an hour.

B: "Who is this party for, again?"

Jax fixes his tie as he yells back to Brenda.

J: "The Lakota's. They're business associates of mine"

B: "Why is this party so special?"

J: "I gave them a week to decide if they want to accept my offer, they're close to signing but it's well known that they rarely do business with people who reject their invitations"

B: "So this should clinch the deal for you?"

J: "Yes & this deals worth a lot of money"

Brenda walks out, with the help of her crutches, & joins Jax in the living room. The first thing Jax notices is Brenda's dress. A beautiful short red lace dress that hugs each curve of Brenda's body just the way it should. Brenda is also taken back by the breath taking person in front of her. As usual Jax looks dashing in his tux.

J: "You look delicious"

B: "Thanks, you look incredible"

J: "Come here"

B: "Shouldn't we get a move on?"

J: "Yes but before we do that I want to hold you for a few minutes"

Brenda doesn't hesitate to slip in to the space between Jax's legs.

B: "I could get very used to this"

Jax wraps his arms around Brenda & Brenda intertwines her hands with Jax's. As they sit, silently enjoying their closeness, Brenda thinks about what Jax said he does when he gets drunk -- either spills his guts or makes love to what ever women he's with. Neither of which Brenda would mind.

B: "Will you be drinking tonight?"

J: "Why? You worried about what might happen?"

Bren smiles.

B: "No, I wasn't worried. I was just thinking"

Brenda stops mid sentence.

J: "What were you thinking?"

B: "About what you told me happens when you drink too much"

J: "Your afraid that I might try & spill my guts to you or make love to you?"

B: "I wasn't afraid. It might be nice"

J: "Believe me when we make love"

Brenda's mind immediately begins thinking <<he said when, not if. Yes!!! He wants to make love to me>>.

J: "I want to feel & memorize every detail of every moment. You mean too much to me to risk making love to you & forgetting it. The same goes for when I bare my soul, I want to be completely sober. So no, I won't be drinking tonight"

Brenda moves over on to the cushion next to Jax, leaving her legs draped between Jax's. Jax moves one hand up & down Brenda's leg as he plays with her hand with his other hand.

J: "Thanks for doing this for me, it means a lot"

B: "Do we need to stay long?"

J: "No, we just have to stay long enough to let them know I'm there & having a good time. To seal the deal. Why? Do you want to stay home?"

The sick feeling that Brenda had been feeling since shortly after noon, continues to increase as she answers Jax.

B: "I know this is important to you"

J: "But"

B: "I'm a little tired"

Brenda didn't lie but she didn't tell the whole truth either. Brenda was a little tired but she was also beginning to feel very sick. Her stomach felt like it was churning & her head was pounding, but Brenda smiled despite their pain. She knew this party was important to Jax & she didn't want to ruin it.

Jax leaves one hand on Brenda's leg as he runs his other hand through her hair.

J: "I know these parties aren't very fun for you now. I promise you, when you're healed completely we will dance the night away. Does that sound good?"

Brenda shakes her head in approval.

B: "We better get going"

Jax looks at the clock

J: "You're right, but first a little incentive to get through the night."

Jax, followed by Brenda, leans in for what was intended as a sweet delicious kiss. As sweetness & desire fill their bodies, Jax feels something that scares him.

To Brenda's shock, Jax abruptly pulls out of their kiss. Jax's eyes fill with concern as he looks as Brenda.

B: "what's wrong?"

Jax runs his hand over Brenda's face.

J: "Bren you're hot"

B: "I'll be fine"

J: "Why didn't you tell me?"

B: "Tonight's important to you,. I don't want to ruin it"

J: "It's not nearly as important as you. You're Enoch going anywhere tonight"

B: "I'll be fine"

J: "I'll see to that, I'm staying here with you tonight"

B: "No Jax, this deal is too important. Go! I'll be fine"

J: "It's only business. You are much more important to me"

B: "I won't be responsible for ruining this deal"

J: "I'm not leaving you tonight. Do you want me to call a doctor?"

B: "No. Please don't jeopardize all your hard work for me"

J: "I'll call Jerry & send him, besides if someone doesn't want to do business with me just because I can't make it to a party, they're not really wart doing business with anyway"

For a split second Jax could have sworn that the look Brenda gave him was filled with love.

J: "What hurts?"

B: "My stomach & head"

All of Jax's desire for Brenda quickly turns to concern for her health.

J: "Can I get you anything, juice, aspirin

Before Jax can continue, Brenda cuts him off.

B: "I don't need anything"

J: "Do you want me to rub your back?"

B: "I would rather just lay with you"

J: "I can do that"

Jax swoops Brenda up in his strong, graceful arms.

B: "Where are we going?"

J: "To lay down of course"

B: "I can walk you know"

J: "I know but I'd rather carry you"

B: "Stop"

J: "What's wrong?"

B: "I want to lay in there"

J: "There? But that's"

B: "Your room"

J: "Wouldn't you be more comfortable in your own bed?"

B: "Your room has a spectacular view".

Jax does as Brenda asked & lays her down on his bed; his bed where he dreamt bout making love to Brenda again & again.

J: "Would you like me to get you a change of clothing?"

Brenda reaches her hand out to Jax,

B: "I'm comfortable right here, come lay with me"

A few hours after laying down with Brenda, Jax is fast asleep, with his chin resting on top of Brenda's head. Brenda realizes that Jax has been silent for quite some time & reaches her head back to check on him.

B: "Jax, you awake?"

Bren gets her answer when she sees Jax's face.

B: "God Jax you look gorgeous even when you're sleeping. Your mom was right, you know that? I will marry you. Maybe not as soon as she thinks but someday"

Still sleeping, Jax tightens his hold around Brenda's waist.

B: "Lois is right, I do love you Jax".

A few days later, Jax sits in the Outback, waiting for Brenda. Jax arrived a few moments ago, over an hour before Brenda's supposed to get there. Brenda decided to go to the Q's & Jax didn't want to tag along so Brenda asked him to meet her at the outback. Jax quickly realizes that he should have brought his lap top, or invited Jerry for appetizers, anything but sit there for over an hour. Just as Jax is about to dial his cellular phone & ask Addie if he needs to make any business calls, he spots a couple coming in. Jax immediately recognizes the woman from pictures that Lois showed him. Jax calls Mac over & points to the table while saying something. Jax glances over to the couple a few times with in ten minutes. Finally the guy gets up & goes towards the restrooms. Jax slowly & confidently walks over to the young woman. Jax extends his hand to the young woman.

J: "I never thought I would meet you"

L: "Do I know you?"

J: "No. You're Lilly Rivera right?"

L: "I was, it's Lilly Corinthos now"

J: "I'm pleased to meet you Lilly, I've been waiting a long time to thank you"

B: "For what?"

J: "Changing my life"

Lilly gives Jax a you got to be kidding look.

J: "I'm serious, if it weren't for you, I never would have met the love of my life"

Lilly immediately thinks two things. 1) those must be the worst pickup lines ever, and 2) if she weren't married, she would definitely fall for them. Lilly smiles as she responds in an, "I'm not interested" voice.

L: "Let me guess, me!"

Jax holds back his laughter as he realizes that It must have sounded like he was trying to pick up Lilly.

J: "Oh, I'm sorry it must have sounded like I was trying to come on to you"

Jax points to the empty chair across form Lilly.

J: "May I"

Lilly is both delighted & scared. Delighted because this gorgeous man was joining her, scared because she didn't know what Sonny might do if he saw her with him. Not that she thought he would be jealous, but she was afraid he might think she was disrespecting him.

L: "Go ahead, but my husband will be back soon"

J: "I suppose I should explain to you why I'm thanking you & introduce myself"

L: "Go ahead"

J: "My name is Jax, & you really did change my life"

L: "That's what you keep saying"

J: "Not too long ago, outside of a blues club, you risked your life to save another. In that moment, you changed my life forever"

L: "How?"

J: "I didn't know it at the time but the person who's life you saved

L: "Brenda"

J: "Yes, Brenda. She's very important to me & if it weren't for you, she would have died before I got a chance to meet her"

Lilly thinks, <<Brenda has all the luck?>>

L: "All I did was react"

J: "You saved her life! I will always be grateful to you for that, if you ever need anything or if I can do something for you, please let me know".

Lilly's eyes focus on the door.

L: "Are you waiting for Brenda?"

J: "Yes, she won't be here for about an hour"

L: "Looks like she's early"

J: "It was nice talking to you, now if you'll excuse me, my dates here"

L: "Of course".

Before Brenda gets a chance to look around, Jax rushes to her. Brenda drops her crutches right there, near the door, & hugs Jax. Jax lifts Brenda off the ground, as they share a very intense kiss filled with desire. Jax places Brenda back on the ground.

J: Now, what are we going to do with your crutches?"

B: "leave them"

J: "Yuo're early"

B: "Are you complaining?"

J: "No,not at all. I missed you"

B: "I missed you too"

J:" Hold on"

Jax lifts Brenda in another hug as he carries her a few steps over to their table. As Brenda tells Jax about her day with the Q's, Bren's hands rest on Jax' s & intertwine; her legs stay intertwined with his.

B: "Lila asked when she would see you. She missed you at that party a couple days ago."

L: "Excuse me"

Brenda & Jax look up to find Lilly standing near their table. Brenda's a bit surprised, but responds politely since Jax is there & Lilly did save her life.

B: "Hi Lilly"

L: "I came to invite you two to join myself & my husband for tonight".

Although Lilly's invitation sounded innocent to Jax, Lilly really had 2 reasons for asking them over, well actually 3. The first reason was that she wanted to see if Brenda was as into Jax as it seemed & over Sonny; the second reason was that she wanted Sonny to see that Brenda has moved on with her life. The third was that eventhough she was in love with Sonny, she couldn't resist wanting to get to know Jax better.

J: "Sweetie, do you want to join them?"

Jax looks at Bren,

J: "Lilly would you mind giving us a few moments alone?"

L: "Not at all"

Once Lilly's gone, Jax realizes that there's h wrong with Brenda.

Next time. . . Brenda tells Jax more about Lilly & Sonny & Jax gives Lily their decision on her invitation.

The Love That Heals - Part 20

J: "I'll just tell her that we want to be alone tonight"

B: " DO you know who she is?"

J: "Yes, Lilly Corinthos"

B: "What else do you know about her & her husband?"

J: "Lois told me that she saved your life the night of your accident. That's all I know. Why? Is there something I should know?"

B: "Well fro starters, Lilly & Miguel almost got married, they have a son together"

J: "They do?"

B: "Yeah,, Juan. It's a long story but basically her father took him away & Miguel didn't find out about him until later?"

J: "Where is he now?"

B: "Juan lives in Puerto Rico with his adoptive parents"

J: "What about her husband?"

B: "His name is Sonny, actually Michael but he goes by Sonny. Before Lilly married him. I lived with him for a while"

J: "What happened?"

B: "He lied to me & I wore a wire, he threw me out. That's not what's important here, the important part is that my accident wasn't really an accident"

J: "Did he cause the accident?"

B: "No, but some of his um associates did"

J: "Did you love him?"

B: "Yes"

J: "Do you still love him?"

Before Jax can finish his thought of <<please don't say yes>>, Brenda answers him.

B: "No"

J: "Are you sure?"

B: "Yes. The little bit of feelings I had left for him after we broke up disappeared once I was hit by that car"

J: "I'll thank her for the offer & politely decline"

B: "Jax, you don't have to do that, I just wanted you to be straight with you about my connections to both of them"

J: "Are you sure you want to do this?"

B: "Yes. Maybe Lilly will accept my thanks this time. I wonder why she invited us over"

J: "You don't get along with her?"

B: "I used to hate her. Are you sure you want to have dinner with them?"

J: "She seemed nice when I went to her table"

B: "Why would you do that?"

J: "I recognized hr from pictures Lois showed me & I wanted to thank her for saving your life"

Brenda's face lights up.

B: "Really?"

J: "Yes"

Jax chuckles.

J: "I think she thought I was coming on to her at first"

B: "Why?"

J: "I told her that she changed my life & thanked her for that"

B: "Changed your life?"

J: "Yes, she saved you & you changed my life more then I ever thought possible"

B: "In a good way I hope"

J: "If it wasn't, I wouldn't be sitting here with you right now"

Sonny finally returns, it turns out he actually slipped out a back door & made some "business" calls. As he walks towards Lilly, he trips on Brenda's crutches.

S: "WHAT IDIOT LEFT THESE HERE?"

Against Brenda's wishes, Jax pulls out of his & Brenda's kiss. Brenda moans to show her lack of pleasure.

B: "Jax, don't stop"

J: "Your crutches, I'll get them & come right back"

By the time Jax kisses Bren one more time & gets to the crutches, Lilly is already next to Sonny asking him to lower his voice & sit down. Within a few minutes, Lily is able to persuade Sonny to leave with her. Once Lilly has Sonny at the door, she goes over to her table & tries to flag down the waitress. The waitress refuses her money. Lilly makes a quick trip to Jax & Brenda's table, where Jax has now brought the crutches.

L: "Thank you, but you really don't need to pay for my bill"

J: "It's my pleasure, you saved Brenda, I owe you for that"

After Lilly leaves, Jax & Brenda have a quick dinner, then head home.

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B: "Jaaaaaaaaaaax, come here"

Jax comes sprinting into the room.

J: "What's wrong?"

B: "Nothing, I want you to see something"

J: "What is it this time?"

Jax thinks back to all the times Bren wanted him , "to see something" with in the last two weeks since their night at the outback.

After finding out Jax thanked Lilly for saving her life, Brenda knew that she meant a lot to Jax. With this new found knowledge Brenda found many not so urgent things that she just had to show Jax, most of which she displayed while dressed in very sexy lingerie. The most "important" thing Brenda showed Jax was a picture she found of her & Lois when they first opened L&B records. So naturally Jax expected Brenda to be crying wolf again.

Brenda gives her best innocent look.

B: "What do you mean this time?"

J: "Bren your emergencies haven't exactly been urgent lately"

B: "Maybe I shouldn't show you then"

Jax joins Brenda on her bed. He places his leg over hers & pulls her close.

J : "I'm sorry sweetie"

Brenda lovingly kisses Jax.

J: "What do you want to show me?"

B: "You really want to see?"

j: "Yes".

Brenda bounces up & down on the bed.

B: "Good because I really want to show you"

J: "Where is it?"

B: "Close your eyes"

J: "Why?"

B: "Just close them".

Once Jax's eyes are closed he feels Brenda remove his leg from on top of hers. The next thing Jax feels is the bed move,

J: "what are you doing?"

B: "Open your eyes & see"

Jax opens his eyes to find Brenda waking across the room. Jax's smile lets Brenda know that he likes her surprise. If she had any doubts, they all disappeared once Jax walked to her, picked her up in an incredible hug & swung her around.

J: "This calls for a celebration"

Jax & Brenda walk hand in hand to Brenda's bed, fulfilling one of Brenda's dreams for them.

B: I know the perfect way"

Brenda quickly locks lips with Jax. Brenda initiates several long, deliciously sweet kisses before Jax sits back up on the bed. Brenda immediately moans her displeasure.

J: "Yeah, I know the perfect way too. A party!"

Although Brenda was thinking of another kind of party involving only her & Jax & a loss of clothing, Jax's idea & the way he said party, delighted Brenda. Brenda motions her hand between herself & Jax.

B: "I was thinking of something a little more private."

Jax kisses Brenda in an exploratory kiss which fills Brenda's body with an unbelievably good feeling.

J: "like that?"

B: "mmm hmmmmm"

J: "You want to give up a party in your honor so you can kiss me?"

B: "Not just kiss"

J: "Brenda"

B: "I'm healed, we can make love now"

Jax takes Brenda's face into his hand & strokes her face & hair as he speaks to her.

J: "Sweetie did you really think I wouldn't make love to you because you couldn't walk?" I'm not that petty"

B: "No, but a little part of me hoped that was why"

Jax shakes his head no, before continuing he kisses Brenda.

J: "Sweetie, you mean the world to me. Your injury has nothing to do with the way I feel about you. I do want to make love to you"

Brenda lights up.

B: "You do?"

J: "I do but"

B: "I hate that word"

Jax laughs.

J: "I need a little more time"

B: "I'll wait as long as you need, but I don't understand why"

J: "Up until a few days ago, I was waiting to make sure I was clean & clear"

B: "What?"

Jax lets go of Brenda's face & takes her hands instead.

J :"I was, well, promiscuous before I met you. I did use protection but it's never 100 percent. I waited eight months to be sure it was long enough then got tested for HIV & other STD's."

B: "Are you?"

J: "No, there's nothing in my body that shouldn't be there"

Brenda lets out an enormous sigh of relief.

B: "So"

J: "Why do I want to wait? You mean too much to me. Can you be patient a little bit longer?"

B: "Yes, I do want to make love to you, a lot, but you mean too much to me not to wait"

J: "Do you still want to keep this celebration private?"

B: "Since I can't be in your arms the way I want tonight, a party sounds great, as long as I get that dance you promised me"

J: "I'll dance with you the whole time if that's what you want"

B: "Is that what you want?"

Jax acts like he's thinking.

J: "Let's see, do I want to hold my gorgeous girlfriend close & dance with her all night long? Sounds like pure bliss to me".

The truth is that once Jax said girlfriend, it wouldn't had mattered what he said since Brenda's mind went to mush once she heard Jax call her his girlfriend.

B: "Girlfriend!"

J: "What did you think you were to me?"

B: "I don't know, it's just that you never referred to me as your girlfriend before"

J: "Does it bother you?"

B: "No, not at all"

Jax laughs.

J: "Brenda we haven't spent a day apart since we met. We share incredible kisses all the time & we've shared a bed more then once. What did you think you were to me?"

B: "I don't know. I guess I thought you were being so nice to me because of what Oscar did".

Jax shakes his head no.

J: "I was attracted to you the first time I met you. My feelings have nothing to do with what he did to you." <<I love you>> "You mean the world to me & that has nothing to do with anyone but you"

Brenda softly kisses Jax.

B: "SO how many people do I get to invite to this party of mine?"

J: "You love being the center of attention, don't you?"

B: "Yes!"

J: "You can invite whoever you want as long as they can fit into the penthouse."

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

J: "How do you feel?"

B: "Exhausted".

The party ended moments ago. Brenda's leaning against pillows on the couch with her legs across Jax. Jax sits massaging Brenda's feet & legs.

B: "I don't think I've ever danced that much in one night"

J: "Are you complaining?"

B: "About being in your arms all night, never" <<I love you>>

J: "Are you as sleepy as I am?"

B: "I could sleep for a week"

J: "Then we better get you up to bed"

Jax reaches his arms over & lifts Brenda into the air.

B: "I can"

Brenda yawns, along, drawn out yawn full of exhaustion from her wonderful night of dancing.

B: "Walk now"

J: "I know but I like having you in my arms"

Brenda lightly kisses Jax, then yawns again.

J: "Going to sleep on me?"

B: "Would that be so"

Brenda yawns yet again.

B: "Awful?"

Jax yawns out of pure exhaustion.

J: "No".

Jax stops on the first room he sees, his. He sits Brenda on the pillows as he pulls back the covers. Once Brenda is comfortably tucked in, Jax kneels beside her. As Jax speaks, he runs his hands through her silky hair.

J: "Do you mind if I lay with you tonight?"

Brenda shakes her head no & smiles weakly. Brenda lifts her head just enough to lightly brush her lips against Jax's.

B: "It is your bed".

Once Jax removes his pants & joins Brenda in bed, Brenda guides his thumb under her bra, to the valley between her breasts. At first Jax rests his other hand on Brenda's waist, then he moves his hand from her waist to her bra clasp, which he quickly unfastens. Jax guides Brenda in removing her arms from the sleeves of her shirt just long enough so he can discard her bra. Once Brenda's shirt's back on, Brenda once again rests Jax's hand so that his thumb rests between her breasts & his fingers brush against her breast. Brenda scoots back so her body fits into Jax's curves perfectly. Jax rests his head above Brenda's, places his other hand over Brenda's stomach, which Brenda covers with her petite hands, & falls asleep with the woman of his dreams sleeping peacefully in his arms.

When Jax wakes up he realizes that he is now shirtless & the beautiful woman sleeping in his arms has discarded her clothing & replaced them with his shirt. Jax's first thought is to wake Brenda & ask her about the wardrobe change. He didn't drink at all at the party, but could he have possibly been so exhausted that he did more then just sleep with Brenda & couldn't remember? Impossible! He wanted her so much that there was no way he would make love to her & not remember. There must be another explanation but what? The curiosity was maddening, but then Jax remembered what the party was for, Brenda completed the last step of her recovery. She could walk again which meant she could easily go back to her room above Kelly's since the stairs were no longer a problem. Instead of waking Brenda, Jax decided to enjoy the time he had with Brenda right now, even if she was sleeping, her body in his arms felt amazing & he couldn't bare to give that up.

When Brenda wakes up, Jax is fast asleep. While he was enjoying holding Brenda his body decided to get some rest. Unlike Jax, Brenda's patience doesn't last long. After watching Jax sleep peacefully for a few minutes, Brenda climbs on top of him & softly kisses his lips, to which he responds.

B: "Jax sweetheart, are you awake?"

Jax connects his soft lips with Brenda's again.

J: "If I weren't could I do that?"

Brenda kisses Jax again.

B: "I don't know, you are pretty amazing."

J: "So are you. You went to sleep in your party clothes & woke up in my shirt."

Brenda smiles & kisses Jax.

B: "You noticed. So how do I look?"

J: "I don't know how you do it but you even look adorable in my clothes"

B: "Thank you. I didn't think you would mind if I burrowed this. I woke up in the middle of the night & couldn't fall back to sleep with that skirt on, so"

J: "You decided to undress me"

B: "Yeah, I was too tired to go to my room & I thought you might be a bit uncomfortable if I slept in only my panties, & I like wearing your clothes. Besides you didn't mind undressing e last night"

Jax looks at Brenda with pure shock.

J: "I did not"

B: "Honey you took my bra off!"

J: "I wasn't undressing you. The wire hurt, it must have been painful for you" <<& how could I let my hand slip with it on?>>

Brenda laughs at Jax.

B: "Men!"

Jax kisses Brenda.

J: "Last night was amazing"

B: "I know, thank you for the party. I had an incredible time"

J: "So did I. You're a fantastic dancer"

B: "So are you"

Jax chuckles.

J: "I do feel kinda bad that we didn't pay much attention to your guests"

B: "They said they had a good time. We definitely have to go dancing again soon."

The Love That Heals - Part 21

J: "Brenda, is that you?"

Jax comes rushing to the living room & dashes to the door. A week has gone by since Brenda's party. Jax & Brenda have barely seen eachother, it's not that they didn't want to spend time together, they were simply too busy. Jax spent so much time with Brenda while she was recovering that he virtually ignored his business & Brenda didn't get much L&B business done either, so both of them had a lot of business to get caught up on. It's amazing how quickly Jax & Brenda were able to work when they has a little inspiration. Their agreement was that once they both got caught up on their work, they would go dancing. So far they managed to get most of the work they left undone for months, done in a week. There was a major drawback to spending so much time working, Jax & Brenda didn't get to spend more then an hour or two together before one or both of them fell asleep. So when Jax hears a knock on the door around eight, he hopes that it's Brenda.

Jax swings the door open as soon as he gets to it. Before he sees who's there, he says,

J: "Brenda"

B: "Expecting someone?"

Jax pulls Brenda into a long hug then an equally long kiss.

J: "I hoped it was you. Where's your key?"

b: "I can't find it"

J: "I'll call Addie & have her make you "

Brenda puts up her hand to stop Jax. Brenda shakes her head no as she speaks.

B: "I didn't lose it. I have it somewhere, in my purse. I didn't want to spend ten minutes digging for it when I could simply knock & spend that time with you."

Jax & Brenda walk hand in hand to the recliner chair by the window, Jax sits first, pulling Brenda into the V between his legs.

J: "I missed you"

B: "I missed you too, that;s why I came home early. Did I interrupt you?"

J: "No I was just going through faxes & returning phone calls. I can do that tomorrow."

B: "If I could be in your arms like this once an hour I don't' think I would mind the work so much. Can't you bring your work to the gatehouse so we can spend more time together?"

J: "I'm sorry sweetie, but that's impossible. It's hard enough for Addie when I work from here instead of my NY office, she might have a breakdown if I move everything again. I can't risk losing her, she kept my part of the business running while I was off with you"

B: "There's nothing you can do?"

J: "I can try to spend lunch & dinner with you. Did you eat yet?"

B: "NO, but I don't want to leave your arms right now"

J: "When you get hungry, we can call room service & have them send something up"

B: "Will you really spend your lunches & dinners with me?"

J: "I'll try to. Maybe it will help me concentrate."

B: "huh?"

J: "I do all right for most of the morning, except for today when I woke up & looked for you & you were gone"

B: "I didn't want to wake yo"

J: "Next time please wake me. I kept day dreaming about kissing you"

B: "You were?"

J: "I usually start day dreaming about you around lunch time, but when you left without telling me, I couldn't get you off my mind"

Brenda reaches her head back & kisses Jax.

B: "I think about you most of the day too"

J: "If I can't get to your office I'll call you okay?"

B: "Okay. How close are you to finishing?"

J: "I'll be caught up in a few miserable days, what about you?"

B: "Same as you"

J: "All we have to do is spend a few more days working them we can spend a few hours a day working & the rest together"

B: "Sounds perfect to me!"