Title:
Broken Promises
Author:
Richan
Pairings:
SS/HP, SS/HG, HP/GW (sort of), SB/RL, SB/RL/HP, RL/HP
Rating:
R
Warnings:
Angst, Character Death, MPreg, brief HET sex scene
Summary:
Harry's heart is broken. Can Remus and Sirius heal it?
Notes:
This fic is part of the 'Mortal Moon' Harry/Remus Fuh-Q-Fest (http://groups.yahoo.com/group/mortalmoonfest/).
Challenge: 9. In the final battle, Remus is hit with a curse that takes twenty
years off his body. He's now only a year older than Harry. (Cara)
Beta:
Winter Flower
AN2:
I am putting this up now, even though there is a dearth of post-OotP stories.
For those still angered by the ending. For those needing a break from the rest.
Harry
tried to get himself under control, but he was too excited. After all, it
wasn't everyday that you were going to ask the man you loved to marry you. And
it wasn't everyday - even by wizarding standards - that you could tell him you
were pregnant and four months along at that.
He
had spent most of the morning at various shops searching for the perfect ring,
before finding one in a Muggle shop a couple blocks over from the Leaky
Cauldron. A black onyx dominated the ring and lay in the middle of two much
smaller diamonds. It was a ring very befitting Hogwarts' Potions master and
Head of Slytherin. He had even had it engraved, paying no mind to the odd look
the Muggle had given him at the saying.
Making
his way through the dungeons, Harry let himself drift into a daydream about
what their wedding might be like. Nothing like the grandiose affair Hermione
and Ron had planned for their wedding three years ago, but it would rather be a
small gathering of close friends and family. Harry would invite his friends as
well as Sirius and Remus. His godfather had resigned himself to Harry's
relationship with Severus more than two years ago, and while he may not be
enthusiastic about the occasion, he would support Harry no matter what.
Harry
had noticed, though, that he had received several strange looks as he had
wandered about Diagon Alley. He had shaken it off, figuring that some reporter
had decided to write something false about him in the hopes of breaking into
the business. It had happened before, and Harry had prepared himself.
He
was almost at the chambers he shared with Severus when he noticed the odd noises
coming from inside. 'Did Severus make that potion that always make him swear
again?' Harry wondered. The closer he got to the rooms, though, the more it
didn't sound so much as swearing but grunts and screams.
"What
in the world are you doing, Sev?" Harry mumbled as he opened the door.
Harry
really wished he hadn't even come down here when he saw the source of the
noise.
Severus'
skin had a light sheen of sweat that glinted as the light hit it. Red scratches
ran up and down his back, the fingertips that made them still griping his
shoulders. The short fingernails dug in again as Severus shoved his hips into
the person's below him.
"Oh,
Severus," came a passion-filled voice below Harry's lover. He'd recognize
that voice anywhere, but why here of all places would he hear it?
"Granger,"
was Severus' grunted reply as his face screwed up in orgasm.
Harry
was numb as he watched all of this. Even so, a part of him found it curious to
see what Severus looked like in the throes of passion when he wasn't underneath
- or above - him. He hadn't known that Sevverus could look so... silly... as he
pulled out of Hermione.
He
waited for the two on the couch to notice him, but both of them fell into a
light doze. As he did, the numbness wore off as anger settled in. How long had
this been happening? Harry wondered if Ron knew what his wife was doing while
he was at the Ministry working on the new Auror training courses Bill Weasley,
as Head of Magical Defenses, had asked about before he started teaching Defense
Against the Dark Arts in a couple of weeks.
Harry
knew that if he let his anger out, he could tear down Hogwarts itself, so he
took a couple of deep breaths to get himself under control long enough that he
could get out here. Forcing himself past the entwined couple, he went into the
bedroom and started packing. He wouldn't be able to stay here.
Setting
into motion several spells to collect his belongings, which weren't much to
begin with, Harry thought about all of whom he could go to. His mind went to
Sirius and then stopped. Yes, that was where he would go, with a stop at Ron's
office for a few minutes.
Trunk
packed, Harry searched for some parchment. He may be crazy to leave a note for
Severus, but he couldn't not do it after four years of being together. As he
did, he noticed a crumpled up copy of The Daily Prophet laying on Severus' desk
in the study. Curiosity briefly winning out over the need to get away, Harry
flattened out the parchment.
Anything
breakable in the study exploded.
Harry
quickly reigned himself in and muttered a sleeping charm on the two in the
other room just in case they had heard the noise. No, he didn't want a
confrontation at the moment. It may be that he was running away to hide, but
Harry didn't think that it would be good for the baby for him to let loose all
of what he was feeling.
The
baby. The thought stopped him in his tracks. Harry was torn between going out
there and letting Severus know about the baby anyway and keeping the secret to
himself. Then no one would know his shame in having a child with a man who
cheated on him with one of his best friends.
Harry
nodded. Yes, he would do that and no one would be the wiser.
Five
minutes later, Harry was out the main doors and making his way to the
apparition point. In his mind's eye, he could still see the ring box lying on
top of his note and the paper, its big headline stating "Ginny
Weasley-Creevey Pregnant with Harry Potter's Child."
******
Sirius
lifted his head at the knock and looked at the clock. Amazed at how much time
had passed and realizing that he had missed lunch, he stood from his seat at
the kitchen table and made his way to the door. It was just him in the house,
Remus having gone to a special teaching class offered by Beauxbatons University
for the week though he would be returning much later this evening.
He
opened the door to a sobbing Harry, his face tear-streaked and one eye rapidly
swelling.
"Harry!"
Sirius pulled the younger man into the house and his arms.
Harry's
sobs grew louder as he buried his face in Sirius' neck. Thin arms slowly crept
around his shoulders.
"I
didn't do it," came the strangled voice below Sirius' ear.
"Do
what, Harry?" Sirius asked as he rubbed his hands in a comforting manner
along Harry's back.
"I
couldn't have," was the reply.
Mentally
sighing, Sirius knew that he would have to wait a little while before Harry
could tell him, since it sounded as if the younger man was in shock. Well,
whatever it was, Sirius would help his godson any way he could.
******
Remus
had just put his key in the lock when the door was suddenly wrenched open. He
was then faced with a rabid looking Sirius, the other man's eyes wild with fury
and indignation.
"Siri?"
Remus asked as Sirius pulled him into the house. He had just enough time to set
his case down by the door before he was dragged into the living room, where he
saw Harry sitting on the couch, eyes rimmed red and puffy from crying.
"Harry? What's wrong?" he said as he went to engulf the younger man
in his arms.
Harry
responded by bursting out in tears, holding onto Remus with a tight grip.
"Did
you see The Daily Prophet this morning?" Sirius ground out from behind
clenched teeth.
Remus
shook his head. "No. I figured I wouldn't read it until I got home."
"Good,"
whispered Harry from Remus' shoulder.
A
strange calm swept over Remus. "Why do I suddenly get the feeling that
whatever was in it isn't good?"
Sirius
gave a dark chuckle. "It seems as if somebody's decided that it would be
better to say they're pregnant with Harry's child than with some other poor sap
and not their own husband."
Remus
burst off the couch, Harry still clinging to him. "WHAT!? But Harry
wouldn't...." He drifted off as Harry gave a watery hiccup and inched
towards Sirius.
The
other man opened his arms to Harry before nodding. "That isn't all."
Five
minutes later, Remus was all for heading to Hogwarts with wand ready. For the
briefest moments, he suddenly understood how Sirius had felt since he found out
Harry was seeing Severus. He was still seething when he noticed Harry shifting
uncomfortably between himself and Sirius.
"Harry?"
"I..."
Harry put his head down. "I didn't tell Sirius *everything* earlier. I...
I wanted to tell you both together."
"Harry?"
Sirius asked, putting his arm around the younger man's shoulders. "What is
it?"
"I'm...
pregnant."
Remus
swore that his eyes could have popped out of his head. And that wasn't anywhere
near Sirius' reaction to that bit of news.
"WHAT!?"
A
forlorn look passed over Harry's face as he raised tear-filled green eyes to
look at the other two. "I'm four months along."
Remus
closed his eyes to let it sink in. Only the most powerful of wizards were able
to carry a child, but it was still dangerous. In fact, it was very dangerous
for both the wizard and baby, and both had only a forty percent chance of
surviving.
A
pregnant wizard was also incapable of fathering a child the entire time he was
with child. Not that Remus had doubted Harry's story in the first place, but
here was proof that they could take to Severus. He said so, but Harry shook his
head.
"No.
I don't want anyone to know. Ron didn't believe me, and thought I was making up
what I saw about Hermione and Severus to cover it up." He pointed to the
eye that was a spectacular shade of purple, his voice raw from his crying.
"Hence the pop in the face."
Remus
looked down and found that Harry's other hand was clenched tight. Neither that
or the other one had any indication of his fighting back, so he figured that
Harry was still too stunned from what he'd seen earlier to do anything about
it.
He
looked over Harry's head at Sirius. The pale blue eyes were trained on the
man's godson, but Remus knew that he was worried about this entire thing.
Sirius looked up, and he knew, just by the set of his mouth, that Sirius was
going to do something. Whatever it was, though, Remus was going to go along
with it.
******
Harry
smiled as he watched his son play in the sandbox. The little boy was happy
shoving his truck through the piles and through 'lakes' he had made in the
sand. Shaggy, black hair partially covered eyes so dark a green they often
appeared black in certain lights. They were one of two things Harry could see
of Severus in the little boy.
"Alastair!"
Both of them looked to the source of the shout and found Sirius waving his arms
spastically, a happy grin on his face.
"Paddy!"
Alastair shouted and, forgetting completely about his truck, ran to Sirius. The
man scooped the little boy high into the air before settling him on one hip.
Harry
smiled at the picture the two of them made. Sirius had fallen deeply in love
with the child as soon as he held him the first time. Since then, he had
spoiled the child, so much that at times both Harry and Remus had to forbid him
to do anything more for a while.
He
was glad that he had Sirius and Remus, though, for all the support they had
given him through his pregnancy and difficult delivery of Alastair. The three
of them had moved across the Atlantic to the States and had settled in a suburb
of Detroit. They figured that if anyone wanted to find them, they would look in
the wizarding populations of New York and LA, which were large. The advantage
of living in Detroit was the easy access to Canada and the underground that
existed in Windsor, just across the river. There they could find a mediwizard who
would be able to help Harry without fear of being found out.
While
some of the denizens of wizarding Windsor were on the shady side of the law,
they were the nicest people Harry had ever met. They were the outlaws of
several countries, including quite a few from Britain, having fled during
Voldemort's first reign of terror. Indeed, the mediwizard who delivered
Alastair was Madame Pomfrey's brother, who had come over here when he had
fallen under suspicion for having healed a Death Eater and refusing to report
him. The crazy part of it was that the Death Eater he was suspected of having
helped was Severus, who had already been serving as spy for Albus for over a
year. It was a good thing that Harry hadn't known that until after Alastair was
born, because he wouldn't have been comfortable with that at all.
Harry
stood and slowly followed Sirius and Alastair made their way over to the
swings, having collected the few toys the little boy had insisted on bringing
to the park. Walking was still painful after almost five years. Dr Addison had
had to perform an emergency caesarean, and while Harry was recovering, he had
started to bleed internally. They had caught it, but not before some muscle
damage had set in to his left leg. Still, he hadn't cared at that time - and
even now - as long as Alastair was healthy.
Sirius
smiled at Harry when he finally got to where the older man was pushing Alastair
in the specially designed seat for smaller children. The child was squealing
happily and urging Paddy to push harder.
The
smile made Harry think about the smile Sirius had thrown him this morning as he
had climbed out of bed to catch Alastair before he got into trouble. He, Harry,
and Remus had still been in their big bed talking quietly when they all heard
the sounds of Alastair awake and ready to terrorize the three of them for the
day. Sirius had been the one to run after the giggling little boy, both of them
going past the open door through which Harry and Remus, curled up around each
other, had watched.
It
still amazed him just how welcome he had been into Remus and Sirius'
relationship. He hadn't given much thought to their relationship during his
pregnancy. Instead, he had been thrown through a tumult of emotions as the
pregnancy advanced. Then had come the long road to total recovery, or as far as
he would ever get on it.
Alastair
was almost a year when he noticed the looks that both Sirius and Remus were
throwing at him. Then followed a month of feeling awkward around the two men,
until that night. The night when he'd awakened from a nightmare about the last
battle, when Remus had been hit by that curse, and had crawled into bed with
the other two. Harry had woken up the next morning to soft, feathery kisses
along his brow and a hand rubbing a soft path up and down his arm. Still
half-asleep, Harry had turned to look at first Sirius, then Remus. Both of them
had worn expressions Harry hadn't seen in a long time - that he was desirable,
that he was loved sexually.
The
three of them had made love in the quiet of the morning, using the early hours
well before Alastair would awaken. It had hurt when Sirius entered him, Harry
not having had any form of sexual interaction in almost two years. But then
Remus had kissed him gently, his tongue matching the slow rhythm of Sirius' hips,
and Harry forgot all about the pain and broken promises Severus had uttered
during sex.
A
soft peck to his lips woke him from his reverie. Opening his eyes, he found
himself looking at a pair of amber ones.
"Remus,"
Harry murmured as he inhaled Remus' musky scent as the older man leaned in to
give him another quick kiss. He pulled back and Harry looked around, noticing
that the sun was setting and the park was deserted but for the four of them.
Faint
lines crinkled around the golden colored eyes. They were nowhere near what they
had been when Harry had first met Remus ten years ago. The curse that Remus had
been hit with had been intended for Harry in an attempt to eliminate
Voldemort's number one enemy for once and for all. Instead, Remus had noticed what
was happening behind Harry as he battled against the
Dark-Lord-for-the-Second-Time-wannabe. The curse had taken around twenty years
off of Remus' life, leaving him little more than a year older than Harry.
Sirius hadn't minded the difference in his lover, and had instead focused on
making sure that he was recovered before they disappeared for a month. Harry
had smirked knowingly when the two had finally shown up at the grand ceremony,
when the awards were given out and they were all forced to attend by Albus.
A
cool finger ran down Harry's scar.
"You
shouldn't think so hard." The finger moved to the faint laugh lines
forming around Harry's eyes. "It causes wrinkles."
Harry
laughed and looked to see if Sirius had heard. The other man had taken great glee
when he had finally noticed he had wrinkles in the crease of his eyes. Twelve
years of Azkaban had meant twelve years of heart-wrenching sadness. It had
taken another two years before he could laugh again, so now when any more of
the lines appeared, Sirius threw a small celebration, which Alastair found
funny, even as Remus and Harry shook their heads in exasperation.
He
smiled at Remus as the other man sat beside Harry, wrapping an arm around his
shoulders. Harry leaned over slightly and put his head on Remus' shoulder,
content in watching Sirius and Alastair run around, content in being here with
his family.
******
Alastair
was awed at the sight of the castle as it shimmered in the summer sun. His
fathers had gone to school here? It's amazing, he thought. Next to him, Papa
shifted in his seat as the carriage carried them to the school. Then he
remembered why they were coming here.
Papa
and Remy-pa were here to ask the headmaster if they could bring Paddy to rest.
A tear tried to fight its way from behind Alastair's tightly closed eyelids. It
had been two months, but it felt like it was two minutes ago. He had been
waiting at school for Sirius to pick him up when his teacher had asked him to
come with her and that they needed to go to the hospital. Alastair had started
to panic the closer they got, and when he arrived, he had found two of his
three papas hugging each other close and crying. He had started crying in
reaction, and then he found himself pulled between the two of them. Both men
had held him close as they told him that Paddy had been hit by a car while on
his motorcycle, and that, while the doctors had tried their hardest to save
him, they couldn't.
Now
they were here where all three had gone to school, hoping that they could
spread some of Paddy's ashes in the place where he had met some of his best
friends. Alastair had seen just how torn up his papas had been, and how hard it
had been for them to make this trip. He knew they weren't telling him something
- and that it was big - but he could wait for their explanation. He was more
concerned about the well being of his papas.
At
ten, Alastair knew he was more mature than the other boys in his class. Remy-pa
had said that it was because Alastair knew what his Papa felt, but Paddy had
told him that it was because he was special. But Papa had said that sometimes a
boy would age faster than everyone else and he should use that to his
advantage.
The
carriage finally stopped, and Alastair waited until Papa and Remy-pa got out
before stepping out. Adjusting the thin, wire-framed glasses on his nose, his
jaw dropped at the tremendous size of Hogwarts. He hadn't realized it was so
huge!
~*~
The
three of them entered the doors, no one appearing on the other side to let them
in. Harry knew that the castle sensed they were here in a special mission and
didn't wish to meet up with anybody but the person they were seeking. He knew
that Albus lived at the school year round, his family having been grown for
decades. A few of the other teachers also resided here during the summer -
Severus had been one of them.
Harry
shook his head. He wasn't going to even think of Severus other than that.
Instead,
he reached over and grabbed Remus' cool hand. The other man tightened his hand
slightly in support before relaxing his grip into a reassuring one. Their hands
stayed clasped together all through the halls on the way up to the headmaster's
office.
The
gargoyle looked at them for a second before moving to the side, no password
needed. Harry wasn't sure what to make of it, but steeled himself for a variety
of reactions that the old man could give.
Behind
him, he heard Alastair gasp out a "cool!" as the stairs twisted their
way to the office at the top. Once they stopped, Harry stepped into the
circular office and looked around for Albus.
What
he found surprised and shocked him.
Albus
looked like he had aged fifty years in the eleven Harry and Remus had been
gone. The blue eyes that reminded him so much of Sirius no longer twinkled.
"Harry.
Remus." The voice was so old sounding, having a raspy quality to it, as if
Albus had a hard time talking anymore. He turned his eyes to Alastair.
"And son."
"Alastair,"
Harry stated as he took a seat without an offer. "We are here to do
something, and we don't need your permission to do it."
The
castle gave a pulse that seemed to take Albus by surprise. Still, the older man
nodded, and Harry relaxed.
******
Remus
sank into the hot water, grateful for the soothing sensation. He brought water
up to his face, hoping to relieve the hot, prickly feeling along his skin. It
had been harder than he thought to spread Sirius' ashes. Two months may have
passed, but it was so hard to feel him gone.
They
had been a part of each other for almost two decades, even though a full one
lay in between them.
He
knew that Harry had spoken to the castle when they had arrived, feeling it
along the bond between them. Even if he hadn't, nine years had taught him how
to read Harry when he was quiet. Harry's connection with the castle reached
back to his sixth year, when Voldemort had attempted to attack during the
Christmas holidays, when most of the school had gone home. Harry had reached
out to the castle to help protect everyone while he figured out a way to send
Voldemort packing.
Through
their bond, Remus could feel the castle's reaction to Harry being back. It was
happy he was back, but Remus knew that Harry felt the same way. It had been his
first true home, even though he had made one with Remus and Sirius.
Remus
sighed. It felt so strange not to have Sirius there. The other man would have
been in and out of the bath a dozen times, trying to sneak a look at Remus as
he lay in the tub. A sob erupted out of nowhere as he tried not to think about
Sirius.
It
wasn't supposed to happen this way, Remus thought as he slammed his fist into
the water.
Sirius
had taken that route every day for all the time that Alastair had gone to
school. But that day, some drunk had decided that it would be a good road to drive
down - drunk at three in the afternoon. Sirius hadn't stood a chance against
the truck, and had slid with the bike underneath it, before being crushed by
one of the back tires.
A
warm hand brushed the hair on his forehead back as he felt Harry climb into the
tub and hug him.
"I
miss him so much," Remus cried raggedly through a sob.
"Me,
too," whispered Harry.
Remus
could feel hot tears drip onto his neck as he wrapped his arms around Harry's
still clothed back. He held onto Harry, wanting to promise to stay forever, but
knew that he couldn't.
Sirius
had promised the same thing.
******
Harry
poured through the back issues of The Daily Prophet. He hadn't wanted to ask
Albus what had happened while they were gone, so he had gone to the deserted
library to find out. So far, he had found out that Colin had divorced Ginny
about a month after the first newspaper article had come out. He had also taken
the time to read that first article again, and saw that Charlotte Gooding, a
Slytherin in Ginny's year at Hogwarts, wrote the byline. Harry knew that the
two had been friends from about the time Harry had started seeing Severus late
in his sixth year. He had thought it great that Ginny had been able to make
some friends outside of Gryffindor, even though Ron hadn't been happy it was
with a Slytherin.
Three
months after Harry, Remus, and Sirius had left England, there was brief
statement in the back of the Prophet that Mr Ron and Mrs Hermione Granger
Weasley had divorced. He felt slightly vindicated that Hermione'd had her
comeuppance, even if it still rankled just the tiniest bit that Ron hadn't
believed him when Harry told him.
Five
months after that, The Daily Prophet had run a spread over Ginny giving birth
to a daughter with wild, black hair and blue eyes. Not surprising. But then,
three months later, the baby still had blue eyes. At that time, Mundungus
Fletcher, the man that had helped them escape England, had demanded that a
paternity test be performed. In public. Using the spell that should have been
cast at the hospital that filled out the birth certificate.
The
little girl had been given the test by none other than Albus Dumbledore in the
Ministry of Magic building at a large press conference. The picture of before
the test showed a nervous Ginny wringing her hands, and Harry had to suppress a
snicker (not that it would have been noticed in the lonely library). The
'after' picture showed Ginny trying to make a run for Charlotte Gooding,
forgetting about the daughter that lay cooing on the table in front of Albus.
Ginny had dove at her friend, screaming that it was her fault that she didn't
get Harry.
The
baby, named Harriet after her 'father,' was the daughter of Virginia Weasley
(ex-Creevey) and Tom Marvolo Riddle.
The
scandal that arose from it forced a big movement within the Ministry when it
was revealed that several of its members had been Voldemort sympathizers, and
had had Charlotte rope Ginny into bearing their Lord's child by way of a few
frozen things of Voldemort's. How strange it was that they had used a Muggle
way of preserving sperm to impregnate the one person that had known Voldemort
more intimately than Harry himself. Of course, Ginny hadn't known it was Tom
Riddle's sperm, but had been told it was Harry's.
~*~
Harry
finally set the parchment aside and rolled his head to the side, relieved as he
felt the tension ease in his neck. He surveyed the large pile that he had now
gone through. He was to the point where Alastair had just turned seven when he
knew that Remus was hovering just behind him.
"It's
time for tea, Harry," Remus said, quietly. "Did you want some?"
He
nodded, glad for the break and the chance to sit with Remus. In the five days
they had been here at Hogwarts, Alastair had found that tea was the perfect
time for flying with Madam Hooch, who had returned to the school a day after
Harry and Remus had. The flying instructor had been happy to meet the young boy
and give him instructions, as well as taking him down to the kitchens for a
meal when they were done.
Back
at their rooms, Remus poured both of them some tea as Harry scooped some
shepherd's pie on his plate. "I think this is the only thing I missed
about England," he stated after his first forkful. He savored the taste on
his tongue, relishing in what had been his favorite dish before discovering
funnel cakes at a local fair.
The
castle seemed to sigh, and Harry had to laugh. "I said England, not
Scotland."
Remus
was shaking his head when Harry looked at him, throwing an unrepentant grin at
the other man.
"So,
did you find anything on Severus?" Remus finally asked. The table had been
cleared by the house elves over an hour ago, and the two of them had been
sitting on the couch together, content just to be next to each other.
Harry
shook his head. "Ron got married about six years ago, to Ana Malfoy."
Remus
laughed at the irony of it all. "You mean he spent all those years hating
Draco Malfoy and ends up marrying his baby sister?"
Harry
nodded before sobering slightly. "Hermione married some Muggle eight years
ago. It was just a little snippet. But nothing about Severus."
A
cough interrupted them, and the two looked over at the north wall. They were
both were startled when they noticed the new addition to one of the pictures
that hung on that wall.
"Minerva?"
Remus asked, incrediously.
The
former Head of Gryffindor nodded her head. "Yes, Remus, Harry. The only
reason why I had a portrait done is because Albus insisted." She paused
briefly to mutter under her breath, of which Harry only caught the words
"idiot" and "Albus," but it was enough for him to guess she
was cursing the headmaster.
"About
Severus..." Minerva paused again, but was quiet this time. "You
obviously hadn't gotten as far as I thought if you don't know...."
"Know
what?" Harry asked.
"He
was killed in a potions accident two years ago," the staunch Gryffindor
said in a mournful tone of voice. "One of the seventh years decided he
would make a new potion and added the wrong ingredient. Severus, the boy, and
three others were killed in the resulting explosion.
"Harry...."
He
looked at his former head of house.
"He's
here - as a ghost. He still wanders about. I think he knew when you came."
Harry
nodded. He had felt something off when he had stepped into the castle, but had
dismissed it due to the circumstances in which he had arrived. Now that he
thought about it, he noticed that he hadn't felt any of the ghosts. They may
have known that it hadn't been the best time for them to meet.
"He's
waiting to talk to me before he can move on," Harry said in sudden
realization.
Minerva
nodded as Harry leaned into Remus, suddenly needing the comfort he could give.
******
Harry
stared at the ghost.
Severus
had aged greatly before his death, even though his translucent state hid a lot
of it. Still, Harry wondered just what had put such devastating lines on the
man's face.
"Severus?"
The
ghost nodded. "Harry..." He reached out a pale hand and put it down
just before touching Harry. "I need to say I'm sorry."
Harry's
throat tightened suddenly. "I know," he choked out.
"I
should have had more faith in you," Severus said in a tight voice. His
face was filled with grief and love. "It wasn't until you'd been gone a
month before I realized..."
Severus
lifted his other hand. Harry saw his ring still on one of the fingers and
couldn't hold back a couple of tears. The ghost must have noticed this, because
he said, "I never took it off after that."
"But
why...?"
"Why
I did it? or why Granger? It was only that time."
Harry
nodded in acceptance.
"I
had to hurt you like you'd hurt me - " Harry opened his mouth to retort
the statement, but Severus continued - "and Granger was suddenly at the
door wanting to talk to you. I still don't know what all happened, but the next
think I know is I'm staring at the ring and your note."
Harry
pondered what he should ask for a second. "What about Hermione?"
"You
know that Weasley and Granger divorced?"
Harry
nodded.
"Granger
came back just after it was finalized and tried to start something. But I
couldn't... I was hoping that I could still find you and at least have you
forgive me if you wouldn't come back. Then she started living in the Muggle
world. The last I heard was that she got married to some doctor because she was
pregnant."
He
was surprised at Hermione's behavior. Harry would never have suspected her of
acting in behavior of this kind. He was glad, though, that Severus hadn't....
He wasn't sure of what, but knowing that Severus had at least wanted
forgiveness even then soothed his wounded memories.
They
both were silent for a long moment.
"Is
Alastair mine?" Severus finally asked, his voice so quiet Harry could
barely hear him.
He
nodded. "Yes. He'll be an only child. I... miscarried a couple of times
since then. He... Alastair's birth taxed my body too much. The mediwizard said I
shouldn't try it any more."
"Remus?"
Severus inquired.
"Him
and Sirius," Harry answered.
Severus
was quiet for a couple of seconds. "I'm sorry about Black. I may not have
liked him, but I understand."
Harry
closed his eyes as another tear ran down his cheek and nodded.
"Go
back to him," Severus suddenly said.
Harry's
eyes opened to discover that Severus' form was fading. "Severus?"
"He's
looking for you. He and Alastair." Severus' eyes were almost black even in
the middle of his silver-hued face. "I still love you, Harry. I always
will. I'm sorry."
"I
love you, Sev," Harry said as a sob ripped through his chest.
Severus
nodded, his face sad. "You love Remus now. Go and be with him." With
that, his form disappeared from view, and Harry couldn't feel him anymore.
He
turned around and headed down the corridor, desperate to find Remus. It still
hurt, but he wouldn't ever go back to what it had been before if given the
chance.
Harry
found his small family in the entrance hall, where Remus engulfed him in his
arms. Alastair stood awkwardly off to one side before Harry pulled him into the
embrace.
Near
the ceiling, a glint of silver flashed twice before fading.
******
Fin.