Today, my girlfirend will come here for movie.
I can't really say she is my girlfirend, since...I've never kiss her or even hold her hands...
I hate that I still have to stay up and pertend I am not tired when I am tired to death now
Over 2 years already, I have to do the same steps every week.
"Kaka, where we will have lunch today?" A voice that I've heard over 2 years already.
"Please don't call me that, where you want to go?" I ask in the phone.
"Why, Kaka? I want to come over today." She said.
"Beucase I don't like..." Nevermind, she've call me this everytime after I ask her not to. "Umm...I am tired today, how about next week?"
"But Kaka! This is the only day in this week we can meet!"
"But...ok...I'll come pick you up."
"Hehe!! No need! I am already infront of your door." And the door bell ring.
"Kaka!!" She jump in after I open the door, she then round my neck by her arms which I don't like.
I pull his arms off and let her sit down on the sofa. "So, what you want to do today?"
"Sleep." She look at me.
"Huh?"
"Sleep, I've never see you sleep before, never! Is already 2 years, Kaka...why...why you don't sleep with me?" She sit closer.
"I am not sleepy, if you are, you can sleep in my room." I smile and be nice.
"Kaka!!! If you always get to sleep, is not health for you."
"Ofcouse I will sleep, but not right now..."
"Or not infront of me?"
"How about have lunch first?" I change topic.
"Kaka!" She suddenly hug me and rest her head on my chest, I feel so uncomfortable...but I don't know why...I don't know the reason...
And after a while, I close my eyes to take some rest, and somehow, I fall asleep...
but after 15 mins or so...I can heard that someone is opening the drawers and finding something...
I open my eyes, stand up and walk to her. "What you want to find?"
She got scared. "You scare me!! I...I...Yes!! I am sensative!! I think you have another girlfirend!!! So I want to find some girl stuff!"
"Don't be silly, is not about girls..." Not about girls?! What I am talking about?!
She found a photography from one of my drawers. "Who is that?" She point at the person in the photo.
"That's...Die-Kun..." We've took this photography a year ago.
"I've never see you smile like this before, you are so happy at that time, ain't you?" She ask.
"Yeah...Die-Kun made a joke about something, and we all laughing non-stop..." I smile while the memory comes to me again.
"You two are really close?"
"Kind of...he is a really funny guy...well, I guess is time for our lunch now, let go out to eat."
Then so, I take her out to have a lunch.

After we've ordered our lunch, my cell phone rang.
"Hello?"
"KAKA~~How are you?!" Die tease, but..."Kaka" sounds...comfortable from Die's voice.
"I am fine...just having lunch right now." I reply with happy voice which from my heart.
"That's good~!"
"What are you doing now?" I ask.
"Trying to get a sleep...HEY!!! Have you sleep?!" He ask worry.
"I...well..."
"I guess not."
"Don't sounds like my mom~~" I laugh.
"How come you wouldn't sleep without my reminding?!!"
"Okok~~!! I will go sleep after lunch."
"Good boy!" He joke.
"Hey! I am not your dog!" I laugh again.
"Ok then, see you tonight at nine."
"See you." I then put down the cell phone and begin to drink my soup.
"Who's that?" She ask.
"Oh! Is Die-Kun."
"I've never heard you call other people like this." She complain.
"........"
"And I've never see you laugh like this before!" She complain again.
"Well, beucase he is a joker in our band and..."
"And who do you think I am?"
"What are you talking about?"
"You seems like care more about your Die-Kun more than me!"
"Beucase he is my bandmate."
"And who am I?!"
"Yourself...I mean...my girlfirend, don't argue about little things..."
"To you is a little thing..." She then leave it and start to eat her lunch in quiet.

After the lunch, she follow me to the studio.
"You've said you will sleep after lunch." She said.
"No...I still have lots of things to do..." So I go to studio earlyer.

"Die-Kun?" I try to find Die-Kun while we got into the studio, and she follow me.
"Hai!!!! You are so early today!!!" Die-Kun suddenly pop out and said. "And she is...your girlfirend?"
"Yes." I smile, but is beucase I saw Die-Kun's smile.
And suddenly Die-Kun put his hands on my cheeks and said. "You come here without sleep, aren't you?!"
"...um.....not too tired....so..."
"Not TOO TIRED?!!! You looks like you are dying!!!!! Come on!!! Sit on the sofa, and I will lend you my chest, ok?! Take a good sleep for 3 hrs, then we will start to practice, sounds nice?!" He pull me to sit on the sofa beside him and he push my head lightly to rest on his chest. WHILE my girlfirend still standing there and saw everything. But I can't control myself from Die-Kun's body heat, so warm...so protective...I like to be in his arms...feels like nothing can hurt me anymore, feels like nothing I have to worry about anymore...and I can feel that Die-Kun did give me a soft kiss on my cheek...I am sure about my feeling now...beucase he is the only one who can make me sleep infront of him and feel so protective from him...I think will tell him my feeling when I wake up.......and after thinking all those nice things...I start to fall asleep now...
 

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