| October 18th 2002 13 Months on Testosterone Update Hello Everyone, My computer has been royally messed up. This update has not been posted on the date that it was due, which was October 18th. My 1 Year on T update was pretty huge and covered most of my changes. This update is only going to include the changes that I have noticed different, since my previous update. Please forgive my lack of updates and pictures, due to computer problems. Thank you for looking ~ Love, Johnny I have some really great news. First off, I am able to fianance my bottom surgery and I am HIGHLY considering getting my lower surgeries done within a year. Knowing that I will be getting bottom done soon enough, gives me hope and something to look forward to. I really feel the need to say that if I can get this far, then so can you. I am no better then anyone else out there. I have been extremely fortunate to get this far in my transition by the age of 20. I just want everyone else who is going through what I am, to know that things can and will happen for you. Don't ever give up on yourself because there is hope. I wanted to give up on my life so many times in the past; I use to assume that I would never make it this far/this fast but strength got me through it all ... I believe it all happens when it is mean't to happen, when it is best for each of us. I know waiting can seem like FOREVER, but focusing on what you are currently doing to make things happen, can really help. On another note, I got to meet the incredible Loren Cameron. I will be modeling for him sometime soon, which I am really looking forward to! *Updates* *Acne* The acne on my face seems like it's starting to improve. The acne on my back/shoulders/arms is just getting worse. It is starting to flair up into cysts that are sometimes so painful i can hardly lay down comfortabley. I am using my Differin Gel still and plan on making *ANOTHER* appointment with the doctor to see if there is anything better for me (other then Accutane). *Body Hair* I have noticed more hair on my back, shoulders, chest, upper stomach and butt. The back and shoulder hair is pretty much blonde colored fuzz. The chest and upper stomach hair is a light brown and growing in fuller. My butt hair is getting very furry and light/medium brown in color. *Voice* I just wanted to add that it seems like my voice has leveled out a bit ... I don't really notice it changing and so it may of hit its ''level'' peak this month or last. Email me for the current voice clip *Cock/Libido* My dick is still growing and sex drive is going back up. Things are not as uneasy, mentally, when it comes to sex because i know i will be having my bottom sugery soon and that gives me something positive to focus on. *Muscle/Body* Weither i eat or not, diet or not, my little boy belly is starting to push its way through. I am lifting weights/working out randomly and i am starting to see some muscle mass. I can see it in my shoulders and arms ... and i can feel it in my abs. My key target spots to work on are my shoulders/arms, abs and butt/thighs. I want to stay scrawny but have some muscle tone. I do NOT want to work out my pecs because i like the fact my chest is 100% little kid flat and don't care for pecs right now... *Extra* I wanted to throw in this extra concern. As some of you may know, a few months ago i started having some head-hair loss. Well i went and got it checked out and the doctor said it was not from my testesterone being too high or anything... Anyhow, i have noticed body hair loss as well. I don't know exactly what is causing this but it is a big health concern to me and i will be making another doctors appointment to get things checked out. *There are NO pics for this month. Computer problems really suck and so does this update. Sorry!* |