| Hello Everyone! Today is Thursday, December 28th 2006. I'm updating my website to let you know that I was given approval to go back on intramuscular injections. I will be receiving my first shot today at California Pacific Medical Center in San Francisco, CA. My new doctor is Charles Moser. He is a specialist and will be monitoring my hormonal levels. My testosterone level has dropped to 75, which is completely out of normal male range (it should be atleast 250). The patches that I've been using for 3 years have stopped absorbing in my body. I went to see Dr. Moser to check my T levels, and found out they were dropping. I do not have enough fat (due to my eating disorders and low body weight) on my body for the testosterone patches to absorb properly. Therefore, my only option right now is to go back on injections. My new dosage is 50MG cypionate-testosterone per week. This means I am on 1 full CC a month (200MG). I knew that my T level was down because I felt it. There's been a manifestation of side effects from my hormonal imbalance. I have been experiencing major depression. My voice has softened to the point of sometimes not being passable. My dick has shrunk. My sex drive has been on vacation. I do not feel a "physical male" balance the way I used to. Keep in mind that I am a gender bender to the extreme. Most people assume I am MTF because I am so feminine. In order to sucessfully master the art of the gender bending I live to create, I need congruency between my gender identity and physical & social presentation. My transition is one of the most important aspects of my life and self. Transitioning into my true self has been the best thing I could of ever done for myself. I don't even want to guess where I'd be today if I hadn't transitioned. I want my revolution back. I'm sick of feeling chemically castrated and as if something has ripped my identity from me. My gender doesn't define all of who I am, but it does play a big part of the development of who I am, and I want this back. If I develop any new changes from injections then I will update them on this website. My doctor is not sure how I will respond to injections because I am still struggling hardcore with eating disorders, and I am at a low weight with little muscle. Also, my insurance is not covering my prescription and so I will have to pay 112.99 a month to continue my injections, but it's worth it. My life, health, and happiness are worth it. Pink TuTu Twirls, Johnny Giovanni Righini The Ballerina Prince~ss! Happy Holidays! |
 |