Back to the ER Yes, still the eternal return, not the emergency room.  I liked what Ben said about forgetting the good things so we can discover them again for the first time.  Again for the first time.  Discovering things is always something to look forward to.  I keep thinking about Easter and how soon it is and how excited we would be when we had to hunt for easter eggs.  The discovery was a shock of pure pleasure.  But reminiscing....I took an existentialism class a while back and so when Ben was talking about the ER, I didn't feel too confused.  And when he was talking about the task of thinking and alethia, I'd read about it before in an essay of Heiddeger's.  "The End of Philosophy and the Task of Thinking".  For Heiddeger, thinking (at least at the end of philosophy which is the development of independant sciences and the completion of metaphysics) is about finding an openness.  This openness is in thinking, about finding the meaning of being in consciousness instead of practices.  I don't know if that's right or if it makes any sense and someone can call me on it if I'm wrong.  Alethia is this openness of thinking.  Unconcealment.  It is not truth because "truth is understood in the traditional 'natural' sense as the correspondence of knowledge with beings demonstrated in beings...Rather alethia, unconcealment thought as opening, first grants the possibility of truth."  I'm confused.  I don't know if that makes sense.  And to close I'd just like to say that I know that Finnegans Wake begins and ends with the same sentence but it does seem like ther should be something in between.

Heidegger himself, looking very ravishing if I do say so myself.

I FOUND IT EUREKA!!! So I was looking for the passage about Ulysses in Finnegans WAke because I was looking for something familiar and I came across the most interesting word: bisexycle - yeah, I know, no real academic reason for it catching my eye, purely primordial reasons.  But the passage, I think I shall take for my own - not a whole paragraph but a passage.  page 115  "Some softnosed peruser might mayhem (may have, mayhem - trouble) take it up erogenously (erroneously - erogenous zone) as the usual case of spoons (spooning - sex?), prostitua in herba (prostitute in grass?) plus dinky pinks (sounds like private parts - pink....) deliberatively summersaulting off of her bisexycle (bisexual, bicycle)........more to come (I meant that in a totally non sexual way.

(continued) at the main entrance (ahem) of the curate's perpetual soutane suit with her one to see (peeping tom!! dirty priest) and awoh! who picks her up as gingerly as any balmbearer would to feel whereupon there virgin (do I have to say anything?) was most hurt (copping a feel) and nicely asking: whyre have you been so grace a mauling (eating, seen by Freud as sexual) and where were you chaste (chaste-nonsexual, chased) me child? Be who, farther potential?  and so wider but we grisly old Sykos (Psyche, dirty old men, Psycho - probably a Freud reference again) who have done our unsmiling bit on 'alices (Alice in Wonderland?) when they were yung (Jung, young) and easily freudened (frightened, Freud)"  I'm not sure but I think this may be a reference to Freud and his ability to see sexual meaning in everything.  THe story which could easily be interpreted as an innocent girl bicycling who fell but Joyce's jeu de mots (word play for those of you who neglected to study the french language) makes this passage into a sex-filled misadventure.  This could also be a reference to Joyce's daughter and their experience with her psychoanalysis.  I get a little confused around the 'alices part because I keep wondering if its an Alice and Wonderland reference.  Maybe Charles Dodson is the priest?  I'll do some more research and get back to this when I have more answers.

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So I called my little brother the other day and we got to talking.  Mom was complaining because my little brother wasn't waking up in the morning when his alarm clock went off.  I asked him if he just kept hitting the snooze and he said, "No, Andi, usually when my alarm goes off, there's music playing and in the dream I'm having, everyone just starts dancing to the music.  And when I put it on the buzzer, it just turns into a fire alarm and I have to save a whole bunch of people or something like that."  I laughed when he told me that but this seems to be what Dr. Sexson was talking about whne he said sometimes things don't always manifest themselves in the same way in dreams.  I know i had a dream the other night that I was taking out my contacts and I tried to clean them because there was orange and red particles and goo stuck to them.  That day was also a day that my allergies had been bothering me.  Isn't it funny how the day comes back to haunt you in the night?