Longing.

By Purple Penguin.

Disclaimer: All the characters belong to squaresoft. I own nothing.

Seifer sat in front of the campfire a faint smile wavering on his lips as he watched Squall laughing with Ellone and Selphie about the old days.

Seifer was instantly happy whenever he looked upon Squall he had been in love with Squall as long as he could remember even when they were little kids in the orphanage he was fond of him. Squall was adorable. Beautiful in a guy way. Seifer knew Squall would never love him back and that made him instantly sad. Seifer never until recently considered himself gay he didn’t like women but was not very attracted to men either it was just Squall he’d never liked anyone the same way as he liked or rather loved Squall and he knew he’d never get over him.

Seifer shook off the feeling as Selphie bounced towards him.

“Hey Seify.” She cheerfully shouted in greeting.

“DON’T call me that.”

“You look sad, what’s wrong?” She looked at him with concern.

He offered her a faint smile “Nothing.” She gave him a disbelieving look

“You can tell me the truth,” she sat beside him.

Seifer looked behind Selphie to see Quistis, Ellone and Squall coming in their direction.

“Hey,” Quistis greeted then seeing Seifer’s expression her smile faltered. “What’s the problem, something wrong?”

Seifer waved his arm at her. “It’s nothing really.”

“Seifer’s depressed.”

“I am NOT depressed a little lonely maybe but not depressed.”

“Awww poor Seifer.” Selphie put her hand on his shoulder. “Ya know if I wasn’t dating Irvine... she trailed off.

Seifer smirked. “No offence Selphie but your not my type.”

She raised her eyebrows “well what is your type? I’ve got friends I could set you up with.”

“I don’t need charity thanks besides any of your friends I’m not quite that desperate yet.”

Selphie frowned “Here I am trying to cheer you up and your insulting me...seriously Seif’ what type of girl do you go for?”

Seifer hesitated “Non at all.” He said quietly.

“What?”

“I prefer men.” Seifer looked up at Selphie expecting her to be disgusted.

“Oh well you don’t to worry about us girls thinking any less of you right?” She said reading his mind she looked over her at the other two girls whom both nodded in unison. “And Squall bats for both teams anyway.”

“SELPHIE!” Squall stood up suddenly

“I did not know that.” Seifer calmly replied.

“I told you not to tell any of the guys.”

“It doesn’t matter about him he’s gay, besides...” she got up and whispered to him. “I didn’t think you’d mind if I told Seifer.” She pulled back and winked at him. Squall rolled his eyes then much to Seifer’s surprise turned and smiled at him. Seifer after recovering from the shock winked in Squall’s direction figuring Squall was just teasing, as there was no way he would flirt with him.

“Hey we’re back.”

Irvine and Zell came through the trees with armfuls of wood for the second fire. Selphie had decided seven people could not easily fit round one campfire so she’d practically ordered them to get some more wood and to build another fire.

“Why don’t you do it?” Zell argued.

“Look this orphanage camping trip was my idea so I’m in charge, no complaining if it wasn’t for me we wouldn’t be here.”

“Wouldn’t that be a tragedy (?) Seifer commented.

Selphie placed her hands on her hips. “This trip is going to be great as soon as the fire’s going the fun can start.” She clasped her hands together excitedly.

“Well what are we gonna do? Sing campfire songs.” Seifer said sarcastically.

“That’s a great idea!”

All four guys stared in horror. “You can’t be serious?!” Squall said “there is no way I’m singing anything.” The others immediately agreed.

“Well it’s us girls who are doing the cooking so if you want to get fed you better sing up. Come on someone must be able to sing.”

“Seifer can I heard him in the shower.” Squall said smirking at the tall blond.

Zell sniggered. “That’s not the sort of thing you want to publish Squall people may think you’re an item.”

“Another tragedy.” Seifer mumbled. Squall still heard him he raised his eyebrows slightly then flashed Seifer a seductive smile. Seifer once again winked at him, he knew there was no way he’d ever tell Squall how he felt but a little casual flirting never hurt anyone and Squall was the one to start it.

He turned his attention back to Selphie who somehow had managed to convince Zell and Irvine to quietly mumble ‘she’ll be coming round the mountain’ he couldn’t help laughing as both pairs eyes were fixed on the ground and Irvine turned the color of a beetroot.

“I don’t what your laughing at Seifer Almasy it’s you turn next unless you wanna go hungry.” Selphie replied with her hands on her hips and an evil grin on her face.

“Ohhh no, no, no, no there is no way I am ever singing a campfire song.”

“You can sing a normal song. What was he singing when you heard him?” She asked Squall.

The SeeD commander smirked “Singing in the rain.” Squall answered delighting in Seifer’s embarrassment as he blushed.

Irvine laughed “That’s original. Come on sing up!”

“Yeah let’s hear ya Seif” Zell yelled joining in.

“NO”

Selphie turned to Squall. “Come on you can’t back out.”

“Yes I can and I’m going to.

Seifer butted in “You two do not sing it’s only fair if we all do this together agreed?”

“Fine.” Selphie said for the guys. “How about ten green bottles?” She smiled happily at the slight nods in agreement she received.

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Seifer stretched on the ground, Quistis had called them some time ago for dinner they still had four green bottles left to do and Selphie had insisted they finish the song.

“Finally, can we go eat now?”

“Yep let’s go” Selphie was already bounding off in the direction of dinner.

Seifer dragged himself off the floor. “Come on Squall, Squall?”

He knelt down beside him. Squall lay fast asleep he shook him gently.

“Come on Selphie freed us from our torture let’s go eat.” He gave him a hand up and they walked towards the other fire.

End of chapter 1

The < > marks mean someone’s thinking. This chapter’s better than the last one.

Chapter 2.

The digital watch on Seifer’s wrist flashed 12:00 midnight the campers had retired for the night. Selphie as the leader of this trip had decided to slip the guys into pairs so Seifer had to share a tent with Squall he had hoped he could have been with someone else as it was hard enough not to stare at Squall with the others around so how the hell would he manage when they were alone in the same tent with no distractions. The prospect became a little rosier when he discovered Squall slept naked. Seifer had raked these thoughts over in his head holding the book he was pretending to read but instead his eyes hovered over the top to watch Squall get ready for bed, when Squall was only wearing a pair of boxers Seifer just barely managed to drag his eyes away before he pounced on the unsuspecting SeeD commander. He pressed his fingertips into his forehead.

<God Seifer get a grip, for fucks’ sake, you’re pathetic absolutely pathetic pretty soon I bet you’ll turn into one of those obsessive stalker types that get excited over touching something belonging to the object of their affections.>

“Are you okay?”

Seifer looked up to see Squall couching beside him with a look of concern on his beautiful face.

“Er...Yeah, yeah I’m fine, just thinking.”

With a quick nod Squall stood and walked over to his side of the tent and lay down on top of his sleeping bag.

Seifer took off his beloved trench coat neatly before lying back down again.

Squall frowned. “You’re not sleeping in your clothes are ya?”

“No.” Seifer knew it was stupid but he felt uncomfortable about taking his clothes off in front of Squall. “I’d go outside and get changed in a minute alright.”

Squall frown deepened “Outside why?” then he smiled slightly.

“You’re not afraid of little me are ya?”

Seifer raised an eyebrow. <Is he flirting with me?>

“Cause you really shouldn’t be I would bite....unless you want me to.” Squall had a wicked grin on his face and he laughed when Seifer just sat there gaping at him. “Hey it’s just a bit of fun don’t be so uptight.”

<The ice prince is telling me not to be uptight that’s a first.>

“What’s the matter with you squall? This isn’t like you at all.”

Squall shrugged.

Seifer sat up unbuttoning his shirt and taking it off his pants followed ignoring the wolf-whistles from Selphie as she barged into their tent.

“Sorry to disturb guys.” she said winking at Squall.

Seifer noticed “What’s that mean?”

“Oh nothing.” she said in her best innocent voice. Squall smiled at her then lay flat on his back stretching lazily fully aware Seifer was checking him out and enjoying every minute of it.

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Diary 21/7.

Squall.

Okay I know I’m a flirt so sue me. Only Selphie knows how I feel about Seifer that’s why she put us in the same tent.

I’m not in love with Seifer lust maybe, yeah that’s it, I’m in lust with him.

Before I heard him say he was gay I would never have done anything like this but he didn’t seem too cut-up about what Zell said about us.

I’m not blind I can him checking me out not that I mind too much.

I made it look as obvious as possible when I watched him get undressed.

Now that I know he wants me I have a feeling this trip going to be fun after all and by the end of it he’ll be mine.

Squall closed the book and set the pen down he was about to place it safely back in his bag when he decided he wouldn’t mind too much if Seifer happened to read it so he just left it on the floor. He climbed into his sleeping bag and removed his boxers chucking them anywhere. He watched Seifer fold his clothes neatly and placed them in the corner.

“You’re a neat freak huh, never would have guessed.”

Seifer looked at Squall’s clothes all inside-out and all over the place.

“I only look like a neat freak compared to you.” Seifer sighed reaching for Squall T-shirt.

Squall chuckled as Seifer picked up his clothes and folded them neatly piling them beside his own.

“I can’t believe you sleep naked.” Seifer said as he added Squall’s boxers to the pile. “You don’t seem the type I’d expect it more of someone like Irvine.”

“It doesn’t atomically make you a horny pervert ya know.”

“Well what if we were attacked in the night by a herd of bite bugs during the night the night and there was no time to get dressed you’ll have to ran around naked or if there was a fire and all your clothes got burnt then what?”

Squall looked amused “Are either of these things likely?”

“Well no but...”

“Then I don’t need to worry then do I?”

<In perfect honestly I didn’t normally sleep naked anyway not when I’m alone but my Seifer gets special treatment. plus he’s quite cute when he’s embarrassed.>

Squall looked out the zipper entrance of their tent to see the lights were out in the other tents.

Squall silently gestured to the two torches that lit the small space asking seifer if he was ready for lights out. he nodded and squall flipped the switch. “Goodnight seifer.”

“Goodnight squall.”

End of chapter 2. tbc.