Unsaid

Chapter 1: It begins.

He needs me. He would never in a million years admit it, but then he doesn't have to. The most important things between us go unsaid. Like that I love him and have ever since I can remember. He knows, but he has never told me that he loves me. Maybe he doesn't, maybe he does, or maybe even he doesn't know the answer to that question. It makes no difference to me if he ever tells me one way or the other. He is with me, is mine, and that is what matters to me, all that seems to matter to me some times. I know he cares for me. It is in the feel of his lips against mine, the way he looks at me when he doesn't think I am watching, in the way he just holds me in his arms as we both drift off to sleep together, and the simple pleasure on his face when we are together. So do I love him, yes. Does he love me? I think so, but he would never admit it. Thats okay, like I said some of the most important things between us go unsaid.

Six months earlier



We had done it, just 3 short days ago we had beaten Ultima. Everyone is saying that we saved the world, hell we were just trying to survive. Some like the attention and fame. Like Irvine, he immediately becomes a SeeD and has women just throwing themselves at him. This makes Selphie mad, and she has no problem showing it. One woman trying to get to close to him found that out first hand, being grabbed from behind and getting slammed into the nearest wall. That made them back off quite effectively, of course having Selphie kick him in the balls made Irvine stop encouraging them. Quistis is trying to get her instructor's license again, and was seen talking to Seifer, who has been admitted back to garden. Rinoa is still after Squall, and can't seem to be discouraged no matter what he says or does. Squall is still anti-social Squall, absolutely beautiful, quiet, and easily pissed off. As for me, I'm even more in love with him than I was when this whole thing started. Still keeping my feelings for him hidden. Tonight he is alone in the Quad when I find him.

"Hey baby" I yell running over to him.

"Keep your voice down" he orders "I don't want her to find me."

I don't bother to ask whom he doesn't want to find him, I already know. I sit down next to him, not to close. If I sit to close I won't be able to think straight, and might do something stupid. Like blurting out how much I love him and would do anything for him. Followed by me shamelessly throwing myself at him, and getting my ass kicked. Not because I can't fight back, because I won't fight back. I wouldn't want to do anything that would risk me hurting him. So I sit quietly next to him, and wait for him to speak. I soon realize he is obviously not going to.

"Squall..." I start, but then see a familiar flash of blue and jump back into the shadows pulling him with me. Right up against me actually. He looks mad and about to say something, I point out to where I saw the flash of blue, and we see Rinoa standing there looking around. We both know she is looking for him, and press closer into the shadows. She starts walking toward where we are, and I think fast (most people seem to think that I can't, but I do.) I grab him and spin so that he is sandwiched between the wall and me. Then I quickly grab his head, bring it down to my level, and put my lips against his. This is what I have wanted for so long, to feel him this close. I push his lips apart with my tongue and slide it into his mouth. Suddenly I'm brought back to reality, She is less than 5 feet away and asking what is going on. Reluctantly I pull my lips away from his, and push his head down against my chest.

"Can't I get a little privacy?" I ask trying to sound as mad as I can. Pulling him closer to make sure he can't be seen. I can tell she wants to say something but instead she just asks "have you seen Squall?" Which of course I lie through my teeth, "no."

"Well sorry to interrupt." She replies trying to sound a sincere as she can. I know that she doesn't mean it, only the fact that she doesn't know who is with me keeps her from acting like the bitch she really is. Trying unsuccessfully to look around me one last time, she gives up and leaves.

Once I am sure she is gone I relax, until I realize that I still have Squall pinned to the wall. Even more surprising than the fact that he hasn't hit me yet is the feel of something hard against my stomach. He has an erection, and I'm the one who gave it to him! I loosen up my hold and he lifts his head. He could be mad and beating the hell out of me, but he isn't. Squall just lifts his head, says thanks, and slowly lowers his lips to mine. He gives me plenty of time to pull away. I think he expects me to push him away, and probably knock him on his ass. I just stand there and slide my arms under his jacket and around his waist. He hasn't pulled away yet, and I'm starting to get dizzy from lack of air. We finally break apart, gasping for air, but still holding on to each other. I wonder where we will go from here. I look at him and can tell he is wondering the same thing.



Okay here is chapter one what do you think? Should I keep going?