Disclaimer. Squaresoft owns all these guys and places. I don't mean to infringe you guys so........ just chill, eh??? BEFORE YOU START READING PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR THIS CHAPTER. I am using it as character development and it will be resolved soon. Once again forgive me. Don't flame me too much. I was going to put the battle in but I changed my mind. That'll be in chapter 12. Thanks for reading.


The Longest Road.

Catch myself from despair,
I could drown if I stay here,
Keeping busy every day,
I know I will be okay.

But I was ......
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.

Out of Reach by Gabrielle. Full Lyrics at the end.

Chapter eleven; The breaking of a heart.




Barely five minutes had passed.

Rinoa had sent out her messengers and spies to discover their exact numbers, and had asked Squall to walk her back to her room so she could collect her blaster edge.

"This way Squall." She pulled his arm and they turned a corner. He had begun to wonder what had been so important about collecting her weapon that Squall had to escort her. She led him to a rather Spartan room, the only elaborate pieces within being the four poster bed and cot beside it. He looked around at the walls, painted in a soft lilac, and wrinkled his nose a little. She saw this.

"I know I know, it's not wonderful, but I'm hoping it's only temporary."

"Sorry Rinn. It's just.... not you at all."

A radio on the wall crackled into life. "Sorceress, The president is leading this attack! Repeat, the president is leading this attack!!!"

Rinoa jumped up and down on the spot. "Yes!"

"You do know that this is a trap right?" Squall asked. "They'll overwhelm you with numbers."

She tossed her hair back and nodded. "But with you guys here, I'm sure everything will be alright!"

Squall looked down at the toes of his boots. 'We aren't miracle workers.' He thought to himself.

She took a step towards him...




Zell dashed down the corridor, looking for his commander. He passed an open door and heard Rinoa's voice.

Not wanting to intrude, Zell peeked through the crack of the door.




"Squall, I meant it. I really do miss you." She dropped her head forward so that her hair covered her eyes. "Saying goodbye to you was the biggest mistake of my life." She looked up with shimmering eyes full of tears. She reached behind the back of his head and pulled him into a quick kiss, her tongue dancing across his lips. Holding him like that, locked against her lips she reached the other hand to the small of his back. He reached up to her shoulders....




Zell lifted a hand to his open mouth to stifle a cry of disbelief. "No." As the tears filled his eyes, he turned and ran.....




Squall pushed her away gently so as not to hurt her. "Rinoa, don't."

"But, you said you missed me too."

"Yeah, but..." He touched the lock of hair in his pocket to give him strength. "I mean I miss you as one of the team. Not as a lover. I love you as a friend."

"So you'd rather have that little blonde than me...."

"That little blonde has a name. I'd prefer that you use it." Squall narrowed his eyes.

"Very well." Rinoa rolled her eyes. "You'd rather have Zell Dincht as your bed mate. Is that right? Oh well. I can always find another.... Shall we get back to the battlefield so that you can be on your way as soon as possible." She said bitterly.




Zell had found a bathroom. Splashing cold water in his face he waited until the redness had subsided, he stared at his reflection in the mirror. "How come I always lose out to a brunette?" He asked his reflection, but there was no answer.

"Ah fuck it, if he want's her he can have her. After all, Ayden needs him more than I do......"

He sighed.

"I guess he doesn't need me."




OUT OF REACH

Knew The Signs
Wasn't Right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you,
And now I feel like the fool.

So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far,
I never had you heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.

Catch myself from despair,
I could drown if I stay here,
Keeping busy every day,
I know I will be okay.

But I was ......
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.

So much hurt, so much pain,
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside,
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind.
I'll be over you.

But now I'm.......
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you.

Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.

Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart,
In my reach, I can see,
There's a life out there for me.



Authors notes.

*Waves white flag.* I surrender!!! Please don't kill me, like I said all this will be resolved in chapters to come. Could you review please? I want to know how well I did on conveying this.

Thanks people.

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