Disclaimer. Squaresoft owns all these guys and places. I don't mean to infringe
you guys so........ just chill, eh???
I had an email saying the things that Ayden does are unrealistic...... And a
gunblade would work in the real world? This is the son of a sorceress we're
talking about, give a little please?
And Robbie is too nice for words so I'll say the song ai't mine it belongs to
that babe!
The Longest Road.
"And think this heart, all evil shed away, a dust in the eternal mind no
less, gives somewhere back the thoughts by England given. Her sights and
sounds, dreams as happy as her day. And laughter learnt of friends and
gentleness, in hearts at peace, under an English heaven."
Part of "The Soldier" By Rupert Brooke. (Darksquall's favourite poem
and one she knows off by heart.)
Chapter eighteen; Wing hearts at peace.
The quad was silent at this time of night. A full moon hung low over the
horizon and countless stars shone in the heavens.
In the semi darkness Squall sighed with a new appreciation for these sights,
new seeing eyes contented with new sights. The feel of the soft wet grass
against the back of his neck was relaxing. Even the weight of Zell's head upon
his chest as the martial artist lingered in slumber felt right on a night such
as this.
But in the back of his head, he wasn't really there. Rinoa's funeral was the
next day. Her father's also. Squall couldn't help wondering if there was
something he could have done to help her. Nor could he help thinking about
those words he had heard whispered to him before her death had been announced.
She had chosen to speak to him....
And even after all they'd been through, she had still loved him.
He sighed again and blinked away the burning of a tear.
Zell mumbled something in his sleep and opened his eyes to look up. Squall put
a finger on the blonde's lips to shush him.
"Zell...." Squall whispered. "You do know I love you with all my
heart, don't you?"
He smiled in response and nodded. "I love you too." Zell sat up and
wrapped his arms around Squall's shoulders again. "It's so nice to hear
you say it though."
Squall's eyes smiled even if his mouth did not.
"You're thinking about tommorow aren'T you?"
Squall nodded. "I can't get it out of my head.... The fact that if I'd
been with her I may have been able to do something to help."
"Don't think about it baby..... All you have to think about now is
Ayden."
******** Three hours later, four-thirty am. ********
His eyes still stung and he couldn't put the memory of that bright flash out of
his mind. He shook his head to snap himself out of it and turned his
concentration to the beating rain from the shower head.
He was dwelling far too much on the past.
"Come on Squall!" He whispered to himself. "Get a grip on
yourself."
He still couldn't sleep, and with dripping wet hair he rubbed a towel over his
well muscled body before tying it around his waist and walking to the spare
room which had become Ayden's bedroom.
The baby was awake, but completely silent. He sat up as soon as Squall entered
and reached out wanting to be held.
Squall obliged and picked him up before taking a seat beside the cot on a
chair. "I think I'm going crazy kid. All this stuff in my head about your
mother and all the others I've lost.... I can't get it out of my mind. I know
it's going to end up gettin me hurt..."
Ayden reached up to Squall's old scar and giggled before putting his other hand
to his own forehead.
"You saying we're the same?" The baby giggled again. "Trust me
kid you don't want to be that much like me....." He brushed a stray strand
of hair away, tucking it behind his ear. "Okay?"
Squall began to nod off, despite his best attempts to stay awake.
And Zell found the two of them, still like that, at seven am.
With eyes still hidden behind sunglasses and fortress around his emotions
Squall followed the white coffin accented with gold. Selphie sobbed on his left
while Zell walked in silence on his right. Irvine was one of the bearers and
was aiding the other men in carring the coffin. Quistis was a little way behind
them, walking with Edea and Cid.
The funeral took place in a tiny church on the outskirts of Timber. As they
entered the church Rinoa's favourite song began. Robbie Williams sang of his
love of angels. They found their seats.
"And through it all, she offers me protection. A lotta love and affection,
whether I'm right or wrong....." The voice continued. "And I'm the
one to fall, wherever it may take me, I know that life won't break me, when I
come to call.... She won't forsake me..... I'm loving angels instead."
Ayden was clinging to Squall's jacket for dear life, eyes darting this way and
that as though watching something. When the priest steped up to the pulpit and
made the sign of the cross, he seemed to settle a little and kept his gaze
locked on the coffins, that of her father having been bought in just after
Rinoa's, but still would not let go of the jacket.
They were laid to rest in the cemetary, in a small tomb which had been made a
shrine to a once famous singer whose remains had already beeen interred there,
Julia Heartilly. Now, due to unfortunate circumstances, the whole family had
been reunited in death.
Authors notes. Just a short note to apologise for the crappiness of this
chapter in comparison to the others only I don't feel at all well and I wanted
to finish this section immediately. *Coughs weakly.* Can you forgive me and
review please??????????