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This is a special request fic from Flowergirl862000,who was the 45th
reviewer of Zell's so-called life.Thanx hunny! I hope you all enjoy my
first lemon attempt!
luv nakiko

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Zell squinted through the rain,turning the water-logged piece of
paper over in his hands and trying to decipher the directions
scrawled over it before they washed away in the downpour.

"Awh.....crap." He realised for the first time,with a small stamp of
his foot and a pout that he was totally lost.

The neighbourhood spread out before him looked even more inhospitable
now,angry grey stormclouds had gathered to kill the sunlight,tall,
uniform warehouses and flat-blocks stood silently,shadowed and
boarded up against prying eyes.Discarded shopping trolleys lay like
broken children's toys at the mouths of darkened alleys,just waiting
to claim their next victim.....

Zell shivered,pulling his soaking jacket around his shoulders in a
vain attempt to ward off the assaulting winds.

"Fuckin' Commander Squall!..... 'Go find Irvine',he says, 'Irvine's
living here.....go and get him' ........don't worry if you get rained
on,chased by big a$$ dogs!! Noooooo,I'll just sit in my big,warm,
office,while you freeze your butt off looking for Mr.Cowboy AWOL
SeeD!!"

He was still grumbling when the first growl rose above the deluge's
song,deep and vicious.....Zell stopped in his tracks,a rush of
apprehension in his bones as he turned slowly.....

"Nice doggy!" He held his hands out infront of his,looking at the
slavering mongrel cheerfully, "Don't wanna bite me,do ya?" The dog,
growled again and lunged,a feverish flicker in it's eyes.

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*BLAM!*

Zell carefully pried his hands from his face and glanced around,his
panic subsiding.The dog was making a lightening exit along the road
ahead,it's tail between it's legs.He gulped a few calming mouthfuls
of smog suffocated air.

"Zell?" The voice was familiar,he looked up and sure enough through
the mists,Irvine Kinneas approached.

"I've been looking all over for you!" Zell cried,leaping to his feet
lightly and practically bowling the cowboy over with his enthusiastic
hug.

Irvine broke away from the blonde,smiling slightly, "Really?.....
What's wrong?" Zell rolled his eyes, "COMMANDER Squall requests your
presence for another mission......." He paused,a tiny flash of
concern in those baby-blues, "Freelance of course....He knows you've
quit SeeD,but......" Zell trailed off,turning away.

"Well,I'm not fussy where the money comes from." Irvine's reply held
a note of bitterness,barely hidden.

"But,first," He grinned,catching Zell's gaze again, "We'd better get
you inside,you're soaked." Zell nodded,following the Galbadian
without protest,wondering why the hell Irvine was living in a dump
like this.....

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(Irvine's flat)

The room was small,a shoe-box one might say,with a minute kitchen and
another closed door that Zell assumed was his bedroom.It wasn't dirty,
modest furniture dotted the dark blue carpet and photographs of
Irvine and the others were hung sporadically on the cream painted
walls.But still,the encroachment of squalor could be seen,artfully
covered cracks in the cement.....the view outside was enough to
depress even Selphie.

Zell sat down on the patched up sofa,accepting a towel from Irvine
gratefully and rubbing his ruined hairstyle back to some semblance
of decency.He shrugged his jacket off,watching it drip all over the
rug,shooting Irvine an apologetic grimace.

"Irvy.....?" Zell started softly,using his almost forgotten
pet-name....

"Yeah?" The cowboy wandered into the kitchen.

"......Why did you leave?" Zell asked quietly.

He heard a small sigh,imagining the chestnut haired man,leaning back
on the counter to contemplate the question...

"....You already know...." The reply was firm,but edged with regret.

Zell fiddled with his shorts hem,unsure of himself now,confidence
suddenly deserted into the gloomy evening sky outside.He decided to
change the conversation,some things were best left unsaid....

"So.....what are you doing here?" He tried to keep the disgust out
of his tone,failing miserably.

Irvine entered,holding a steaming mug of something or other,he
handed it to the martial artist,not meeting his eyes.

"I know it's a dump,but I'm broke....." He admitted awkwardly,sitting
down next to Zell.

Zell sipped from the cup,the sudden rush of heat evaporating the chill
that had permeated his body.

"It's not right....come bac-" He paused,knowing how useless the offer
was before it left his lips.
He set the mug down on a side table,his hand stretching out to touch
Irvine's cheek,forcing his to look into Zell's summer-blue eyes.

"....What is it? What keeps you here?" He demanded.

Irvine bit his lip,tossing his haphazard plait over his shoulder with
a weary gesture.

"I'm a-"

*Knock Knock*

Zell glared at the door,waiting impatiently while Irvine rose and
unlatched the two deadbolts.Opening it to the foul-smelling stairwell
of his apartment block.

(......What the hell is going on?.....)

A young man stood in the semi-darkness,he was dressed casually in a
pair of torn jeans and a timber maniacs t-shirt.A flutter of
recognition shimmied up Zell's spine......

(......Nida?.......)

The unremarkable brunette spoke quickly,in lower whispers than Zell's
sensitive ears could detect,Irvine nodded and turned his attention
back to a bewildered Zell.

"Give me ten minutes.....I'll be right back,okay?"

(Where are you going?........)

Zell didn't realise that he'd never spoken the question until it was
too late,Irvine and Nida had retreated to some unknown destination,
leaving Zell alone to wonder....

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(Twenty minutes later)

Zell was humming now,a tuneless song of boredom as he paced the
cramped flat,still worrying about Irvine.....

(....You didn't answer my question......what keeps you here,this
place is a dive....a dump and I'd do anything.....to get you
back......)

Footsteps.....and that awkward,disjointed conversation that filtered
weakly through the walls...

"Next week okay??" Nida,he sounded strange.......

"Whatever...." Irvine.....

The door was hastily unlocked,Irvine stepped inside,he was fingering
several ten pound notes and yet again avoided Zell's piercing stare.

"Irvy?..."

"Don't ask...." He stated bluntly,dropping the money on the
sideboard.

Zell stood up,his hands balling into fists,he'd had enough.....

"What the fuck is going on here? You taking cash from Nida?? What is
it,drugs??? Tell me!"

Irvine's face bleached of colour and he sank onto the sofa,a defeated
expression on his tired features.The anger began to bleed from Zell
and he knelt down infront of Irvine,reaching out to enfold a gloved
hand with his own.

"I want to know....."

Irvine looked at him,shaking his head softly, "You'll hate me...I'm
so.....dirty...."

Zell's eyes reached a new high of dinnerplate size,but he stilled
the panic beginning to rage in his guts.

"I'm a......" Irvine's voice broke,lined with self-loathing,
"A hooker,a whore...Zell,I'm a rent-boy."

He was breathless now,gauging Zell's reaction,the disgust,the shame
he would be feeling for him now.....

".....I'm sorry.....I never thought it was this bad."

When the first drop of moisture hit Irvine's hand,he barely realised
what it was.....

(You're crying........? Zell........?)

Zell looked up at him,from under undried, sunlight blonde bangs,tears
streaming down his face like tiny rivers,his lip quivering with guilt....

"Come live with me.....in Balamb....please." He whispered a desperate
offer.

"I-" Irvine hesitated,and in the fleeting second Zell's lips found
his own,a gentle,persuading kiss.The tears washed away on a tide of
impulsive contact.

(.....come back to me......)

Nimble fingers unwound the tie from his sleek,chestnut locks,letting
them spill freely over his shoulders.Irvine parted his mouth,granting
Zell the permission he was hungry for,his tongue slicked past
Irvine's,that sweet familiar taste as fresh as it had been the first
time they kissed,so long ago,so heaped under the events of last year.....last year when everything had been so right....

(.........But.......)

Zell leant back,slipping his arms around Irvine's leather covered
waist,gripping him so tightly that breath came in sporadic gasps.
Suddenly,Irvine's body shifted,pulling back,reluctant once again...

"But...." He started fearfully, "I'm....."

Zell pressed a single finger to his lips, "I don't care.I.....still
love you."

A ripple of excitement spread through his body,Zell's warm smile
coaxing him back into the old routine,dusty memories of their time
together floating back to haunt him.

"I saved myself....all those others,they meant nothing to me....I
waited for you Zell...."

The words echoed in Zell's ears,sparking the heat below,fanning the
flame of his desire....

"......."

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Zell staggered backwards,pulling Irvine with him as if he weighed
nothing,he fumbled for the doorknob,praying that this was Irvine's
bedroom,the prospect of doing it in a stairwell was not very
attractive at best.

The room was lit only by shafts of wan,autumn light,raking their
claws over an unmade double bed,piles of clothes strewn around the
floor,magazines and unpacked boxes stacked against the poster coated
walls.

(......Thank Hyne......)

He dragged Irvine willingly over to the bed,suddenly careful not to
let the lust consume him,remembering just what he'd been subjected to
these last few months,but this wasn't an urge either of them could
resist.

Irvine lay back on the crumpled sheets,the nervousness faded like an
old photograph.Zell's body was so warm,he could feel the staccato
rhythm of the blonde's heart,pounding with renewed passion,as he
ravaged Irvine with another kiss,trailing his hot,wet tongue lazily
down to his collarbone,stroking the skin delicately,teasing him.....

Irvine moaned,how long had he dreamed,that it was Zell and not some
stranger that shared his bed?

His hands moved,tracing invisible paths underneath the rough fabric
of Zell's top,meeting the waistband of his shorts,eliciting a
small sigh of invite from Zell.He fingered the zip,pulling it down
slowly,letting them fall off Zell's angular hips,sliding past
unwanted underwear,finding Zell's erection and closing his hand
around it,working it back and forth tenderly....

The young SeeD buried his head in Irvine's shoulder,feeling the
cowboy's own need pressing against his thigh,mirroring Irvine's touch,
he reached down,shedding clothes like a second skin......

(.......I've waited forever.......)

The light outside the boarded up window had begun to die,and in the
near darkness Zell spoke through gritted teeth, "Now......?" He felt
Irvine's response,a sudden shift on their bodies so that Zell was
pulled onto his front,lifted carefully to his knees,hands braced on
the headboard silhouetted in the grim light.Irvine nudged his legs
apart with his knee and produced a small vial from under the mattress.
He set about coating his sex,barely able to contain the desperation
in his shaking body.

He positioned himself infront of Zell's opening,hands grasping firmly
around the chiselled edge of Zell's hips,he thrust up,merging with
the blonde in one sure movement.Zell shunted forward,driven against
the pillows by the sheer force of Irvine's entry,he groaned,
suffocating himself in the sheets as Irvine found his rhythm,drawing
himself out and back in with increasing ferocity.

Zell's threw his head back,gasping,declaring Irvine's name to the
ceiling as he finally hit the spot,forcing a pulse of ecstasy through
Zell's muscular body,his legs going weak,collapsing beneath him,only
held up by Irvine's vice-like grip.

"Irvy.....harder......please.." He was pleading now,eyes screwed
tightly shut,breathing tortured,holding onto the final seconds of
this incredible feeling,lost for so long....

Irvine's hand wrapped around his throbbing sex oncemore,caressing it,
light fingertips ripping a strangled cry from Zell's throat as he
came,spilling his seed over Irvine's sweat slicked hand.

The Galbadian,hearing his lover's pleasure drowned scream,followed
soon after,filling Zell,falling against his shivering back,forcing
them both to fall onto the bedsheets,a tangle of heat and sated
lust...

Zell rolled over to face Irvine,his eyes half-closed in
post-copulatory bliss,

"Irvy.....?" He asked with a hopeful smile.

"Yeah?" The chestnut haired cowboy leant over,taking Zell closer into
his arms,kissing his forehead tenderly.

"Will you come live with me now.....this place,this job isn't....."
His eyes were begging,full of apprehension..

Irvine ruffled his spiky bangs affectionately,gazing at him with
unconcealed happiness for the first time in many months.

"After that,how could I resist?" He hugged Zell tighter,all the
tension ebbing from their bodies as they fell asleep together,knowing
that tomorrow they would both be free of the past.......

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Well there it is,my first lemon!!!! *Hope you liked it!*
sorry for any spelling/grammar mistakes it's only 7:30 in the morning
^_^ PLZ R&R!!!
luv nakiko
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