A PIECE OF MY MIND

The constant noise fills my head
and I stumble to the ground
and begin to cry
QUIET!!!
The maggots gnawing at my mind
- bit by bit they devour me
until there's nothing left but the dust
that the wind slowly spreads around.
Like tiny snowflakes I drop on your faces
and you don't even know I'm gone...

And I want to plunge into the deadly waters
to end the fire that is me,
the lust for blood that hurt my soul,
that pain won't let me be;
The things I did to be with you
make my stomach turn,
you were my first,
the first that made me burn;
And I can't leave my body
so that I can be with you,
like I did before,
though I try, my love,
I try to come to you,
I can't do it anymore.

I tried to kill my father
I'll bury him one day
beside the bodies of my former-selves
that the world he lives in slays
I laid to rest my mother and my sisters
for the mistakes of others you made them pay
you say that I'm a monster
that I don't deserve to live you say
beside the remains of my beloved
I'll bury you all some day

TO HURT IS TO LIVE?
the pain that breaks me
never leaves my space
my body - my prison
no escape from it's embrace
no hope, no resurrection
for the one that fell from grace
no light, no warmth
in the darkness that binds me to this place
alone I live the horror
that shows it's ugly face

I love my love
for all the little things
I love my love
for the sun he brings
I love my love
and his so soft lips
I love my love
and his sexy hips
I love my love
and his lovely face
I love the love
of the human race

born with a deathwish
the lies we tell
shape what we are
you left me bare
naked to the crowd
and yet you gave me
so much more
you gave me hatred
shattered dreams
and eyes that cannot see
you that sit behind the high table
and point your fat finger at me
I hate you, Father, Man
and white the colour that you wear