Huh?

How do I feel about friendship you ask?  No you didn't.  I'll tell you any way.  As far as my friends go, I have a few that are really close and I enjoy being with, there are some that are fun at times, and there are the ones that see me as a formality.  That means they meet me, but like my friends more and feel like they should invite me along wherever they go just so I can be ignored but so they can say they were including me, not just hanging out with my friends.  It's even worse when they say I'm one of their best friends but then they completly ignore me while having fun with every one else while I sit there and watch.  Sure I could make an attempt to participate, but that never works out.  It's only a matter of time before they find something better to do that dosn't involve me.  Oh well that's life.   (You know . . . I sure do bitch a lot) ----Addition---- 11/25/2001 Today someone I thought was one of my best friends accused me of stealing $20 dollars from him while simultaniously calling me "dirt poor" and other rude things.  This is just one more reason that friendship is essentially  crap, although this is more a trust thing than a friendship thing.  That'll show me to trust anyone.  I didn't take your damn money Jarrod.  You can believe me or you can just throw it all away.  I don't even want an appology, just let it go.   Things are going to be fucked up enough already.  I don't know if I'll ever be able to look at you again.  Don't tell me you know me.

"People are only your friends if you have something they want"                    -I forgot who said that-