if by God's grace I were to die today, would at last my heart find solace in the ground where I lay, would peace be finally upon my soul, or would the cavern where I stay, be bitter and cold? if i somehow found the strength to perish today, would the world mourn my passing, or would they laugh and say I accomplished nothing, maybe not if i choose the optimistic way, if i were to find peace in the last breath that i breathe, would i be called sick or maybe insane, but somehow i find it quite disheartening, to realize i am already sick by societies' standards, if maybe by dying I could even the score, with the number of scorning enemies I have, then in death i would be rewarded for the hardships of life, maybe I see a different kind of glory, if the sun never shone upon my grave, would the earth be content with the corpse in its' misdt, would the world be better off if i found another way, to express my ingratitude to the people i hate the most, if death is so powerful, then why am i not scared, to die even in a horrible way, if i could find peace in the sweet silent summer of my passing, then rise up OH vengeful Demons, for my soul is already bound, to whatever card Fate wants to play...... by jw farmer 12-8-99