i am silenced by the way I seem, to turn off each person, chancing to meet me, too Doughton Residence I don't give a fuck, to each of these girls I want to suck; into my blackness black hole of depression, it seems I cannot make friends, any other way, in sadness it seems to me to be, my only insight into fighting these; thoughts that I cannot break the- chains from: the girl across from me, she lives inside my dorm, so totally oblivious to who I am, fuck her though the meaness aside, I am consumed by nothing more; then my pride- it would be fantasy if I could ever believe, in myself it seems that I believe in nothing- more then some far-fetched idea that the world is real in fantasy at last my thoughts; steal them from me and use for your own, and if your mind is that empty, my mind is that strong...... by joshua farmer copyright 2000 11-13-2000 written while sitting on the second floor of the Plemmons Student Union. dedicated to all of the people that have no compassion and love for anyone else besides themselves, for the people that do not give other people chances....I think this one is for you girl, and you KNOW who you are......