"never happened"


i brushed off the dirt, the scum, the leftovers.
you snickered in your know-it-all voice
and i still wanted your baby
seaweed sunk and pulling me under
entangled in this salty mess
come and tears all shooting across the sky
you never asked me why
it was just a fact, you said
it was just never meant to be, you said
but you drop a line to my heart
when the sun doesn't rise just the way it should
when you are left in the darkest broom closet
with the door locked
and you think my lust has the key
and you pick my brain
for signs of life
but all you find
is heartsick strife
more sticky webs you don't want tangled in
how did this ever get so grim
water can't put out fire
tears won't wash away this ache
it's the worst thing i've ever endured
and you chatter as though i announced marriage to another;
happily, so happy i'm out of your hair--
but it just isn't that simple
it's sickness on a dare
do we dare go on without trying
will every day pass with my poor eyes crying
for the silenced,
the denied,
the love there that NEVER HAPPENED
but it did
and it was such a beautiful feeling
i won't let go.


-hb
1:40 a.m.


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