Title: Beside You
Author: Alicia Blade
E-mail: Kammi22@sprintmail.com

Missed me, didn't ya? DIDN'T YA?! Yup, I know I'm special. Tee hee hee,
gomen, I've had a good day. And I've written something!!! Ta-DA, aren't
ya proud of me? It is really short, and I apologize for that, but it's
better than nothing, ne? And it's my first NON-FIRST SEASON! Can ya
believe it??? It takes place at the very end of Manga #18, which I was
lucky enough to find a translation to. So, enjoy!! And I will probably
start posting A Million Kisses within the week, so that'll give ya
something else to look forward to!

"Then Moses stretched out his hand over the sea; and the Lord caused
the sea to go back by a strong east wind all that night, and made the
sea into dry land, and the waters were divided. So the children of
Israel went into the midst of the sea on the dry ground, and the waters
were a wall to them on their right hand and their left."
       Exodus 14:21-22


   Beside You

Sometimes I catch myself staring at her, analyzing every detail
of her face that is already memorized to heart. I think to myself what
it's like to hold her hand, to squeeze her waist in my arms, or tickle
the silky smooth skin over her stomach. It sends goose bumps up her
skin and she giggles, a laugh I've realized only arises when I touch
her pleasingly. I can feel her hair just from remembrance, imagining
every strand sliding through my fingers. I've done it so many times
now, I don't need to touch it directly to really feel it. I stare at
her and can fantasize about her sitting on my lap, the pressure
seemingly pressing down on my legs as her cold toes try to slide up
under my pant leg for warmth.

She usually catches me staring at her like that. She always seems
to look up right in the middle of my fantasy and I'm forced to smile
and turn away. But not before she blushes.

I like to surprise her too. I say things completely off the top
of my mind, simple phrases that I don't even need to think of, they
just come out so naturally. She loves them. I once told her that her
belly button was so small. She giggled, turning red on her cheeks, and
pulled her blouse down to cover the skin. I'll tell her what adorable
ears she has, or what a slender neck or fingers. I'm often rewarded
with a kiss or special little smile. I remember one time commenting on
her extremely long black eyelashes. She stared at me a moment with a
shy smile, before bending near me and placing her head on my shoulder,
blinking quickly so that those extremely long eyelashes teased my neck
in butterfly kisses. My lips were pressed to hers shortly after the
taunts began.

She won't catch me staring at her now. She's sleeping. Like a
princess, the perfect beauty, with a calm serene that is rarely seen in
her when she's awake.

We've been together for two years and she has been to my
apartment a number of times, and I am just now realizing that I've
never watched her sleep. She's never slept over here, of course. I
always made it a point to have her home by nine, ten at the very
latest. As much as she argued with me on it, I wanted her parents to
have the best impression of me as possible. They would see how well I
treated their little girl, how much I respected her.

But last night, I wasn't going to let her go for the world.

The second I saw her sitting at the edge of the cliff I made my
decision that we would not be separated that night. It had been far too
long, with so many hardships, battles, fights… I'd hurt her so much.
Everything, everyone had hurt her, even the ones that love her most, as
much as I do, I don't doubt. But we were finally freed of Galaxia's
spell, the scouts and I. I remembered my love the second that the
confining bracelet broke. It was terrifying though. Not remembering my
love for her, that was the single most wonderful thing I've ever had in
my life. But the memories of everything I've put her through.

I remember one minute it was like I was waking from a long
slumber, a torturous nightmare where I had been forced to sit back and
watch this evil man betray the woman of my dreams, my one true love. I
watched him stare at her with cold emotionless eyes, I watched him
strike at her with fists and words. Break her heart and defense, and
the last ounce of hope she had left. I watched him hover over her as
she cried and bled. I watched him kiss another woman, one who hated my
love down to her very core.

And I watched it all through his eyes.

I woke up in darkness, complete black. I was floating somewhere,
space pulling at my lungs. I don't remember much of that except
darkness. Maybe my eyes were closed. But I dealt with the pain of my
actions there, with no one to comfort me, and not being able to comfort
my princess. I didn't know what was going on, who had won the battle,
of if both the princess and Galaxia were dead. I dared not think of
that, but it hurt me to concentrate on her shocked looks when I had
said and done all of those horrid things.

Then I was bathed in light and warmth, all things good and
wonderful and bright. Suddenly, my feet were on solid ground again.
Looking down, I saw I was dressed all in white, a crisp button down
shirt and slacks, no shoes and I could feel grass beneath my feet. My
tuxedo and mask were gone and I could feel a surge of freedom emerge
from the disappearance of their binding. From the corner of my eyes I
could see others, girls just waking up. The scouts were dressed in
white too, their sailor suits gone from the last time I had seen them.

Then I looked up to be met with the most beautiful sight I can
remember seeing. There she was, asleep as the mysterious sunrays soaked
into her skin. Two strands of perfect gold-spun hair flowed down her
sides. She was dressed like the other girls, with a short satin white
gown, almost like lingerie. I was speechless, dormant as I watched her
stir. Slowly, she awoke. She then surprised me with her energy, bolting
upright quickly. She was turned away from the rest of us, facing out
over the cliff we sat on.

I couldn't wait any longer and found myself walking toward her,
placing the tips of my fingertips on her bare upper back. She froze for
a minute, before turning to me. Our fingers laced together and for the
first time she saw all the other girls. Tears sprung to her eyes and I
kissed her knuckles, wanting to take her into my arms and hold her for
all eternity, but the scouts beat me to her and I watched happily as
she hugged them all and shared happy and loving greetings.

Maybe that's when I made my decision that tonight would change
everything in our lives.

Everything has changed us. I've changed, she's changed, our
relationship has changed. I think all for the better. She stirs in her
sleep and I trail a finger down her shoulder, before tugging the
blanket up around her neck. The small smile on her lips widens with a
sigh and she rolls over onto her side, facing me. I am content in
staring at her sleeping features.

When we reached the city, she told me that she should go home and
make sure her parents weren't worried, but we both know she didn't want
to. I only smiled and turned her down the street towards my apartment,
holding her closely tucked beneath my arm. No one was taking her from
me that night. I refused to share her.

I hovered so close to her all the way home, both arms around her,
one at her shoulders and the other tied about her waist. My lips never
left her face or hair, always kissing or whispering into her ear. She
listened contentedly to everything I said, a sweet smile upon the
perfect lips.

When finally we were home, my apartment, I led her by hands into
the living room, letting the door close before wrapping her completely
into my arms, pressed against my body and tasting her lips for the
first time since the nightmare ended. We stood there together, one in
heart and soul, for hours on end. I felt like my life had been filled
up completely, a painfully deep and freezing hole filled to the top
with her very essence. Her life, her smile, her ongoing warmth and love
and devotion… I don't know if a million thoughts were running through
my head, or none at all. Why she chose me? I haven't the slightest
clue. But she was in my arms and we were together. I felt that at any
moment I would overflow and literally explode in happiness. One more
kiss and I would surely be pushed over the edge. But I didn't let her
go until she managed to mutter her need for a long warm bath.
Reluctantly, I let her go.

I stood outside the bathroom for the full thirty minutes as she
took her shower, listening to the water hit her body and the floor. My
thoughts wandered over everything about her, and strangely managed to
stay in very clean and appropriate fantasies. I think I knew what I had
to do then, what I wanted to do. My true desire and the only thing that
could complete my life, make it any more perfect than it was. I don't
know if I was content or nervous, but I knew I had to. That was it.
Pure, raw duty to my own heart and emotions.

I almost can't stand watching her sleep any longer. She's so
quiet and relaxed, it just doesn't seem right. All I seem to be able to
think about is her smile and bright glowing eyes right now. I know I'll
be able to become accustomed to her deep sleeping, I plan on waking up
beside her many times in the future. But I can't think of the future
just yet. I think I'll live in the present moment, and maybe a bit of
the past.

Last night was the first time we'd made love. The first time we'd
become one physically, no longer connected simply by heart and mind.
Everything was more incredible than I am sure either of us could have
imagined. Every touch and kiss, every sensation more powerful than the
last. It was as if we'd fallen into heaven together.

And now to wake up beside her with proof it wasn't a dream, it's
like more than I could ever ask for. Not a trace of regret is in my
thoughts, only unconditional love. I'm glad I waited to give my body to
this perfect angel, and thrilled with the knowledge she bestowed her
own innocence to me.

My heart is thumping wildly against my chest and I know I have to
wake her or drive myself insane with the agony of not kissing those
lips for a second longer.

And so, I lean forward, brushing my lips against hers, tenderly
at first, but slowly deepening the kiss as I feel her wake up beneath
me. A minute longer and her arms are around my neck, our tongues
dancing together. Finally, I pull away, hovering over her and smiling
down on still sleepy eyes. She sighs, collapsing into the single pillow
we shared. 

"Morning," I whisper. Her eyes glaze over in angelic delight.

"Morning, Mamo-chan," she whispers drowsily, rubbing her fingers
over her eyelids. I watch her from my close position, not bothering to
move even the slightest distance away. I wait patiently for another
kiss as she yawns and stretches beneath my body, before finally meeting
my intense stare. She blushes slightly. I'd always known she blushed
easily, but it hadn't become so distinctively clear until last night.
Still, I suppose she wasn't as shy as I had once presumed her to be.
Finally she whispers in a small, dainty voice, "It feels like I've been
having a long, long dream."

"Oh? What kind of dream?" I reply, placing my elbow down on the
mattress and smiling at her with love.
 
"I don't remember."

I laugh lightly, bending over to kiss the tip of her nose. Her
eyes open wide and we look at each other for a moment, before I press
my burning lips down on hers once again. Pulling away, I sit up on the
bed, pulling on my boxers that had landed carelessly on the floor
sometime last night.

"Hey, Mamo-chan...?"

"Hm?" I turn to her and see that she has sat up on the bed, the
sheets wrapped around her body. I smile, turning to face her
completely. "Yes, love?"

Her lips spread into a wide grin and she scoots towards me,
placing two fingers onto my face, just in front of my ear. "Say those
words one more time," she whispers pleadingly. I laugh, shaking my head
in disbelief.

"I already said them fifty times last night, Usako."

"I know," she giggles, touching her forehead to mine. But just
once more!"

"Okay. One last time, but this is it." She nods ecstatically and
I know it won't be the last time. Climbing onto my hands and knees, I
crawl toward her, knocking her down on top of the bed, giggling beneath
me. Our bodies press up against each other and I crane my neck to kiss
her passionately. It's some time before we break apart and I listen
elatedly to her delighted giggle as I answer her one request.

"Marry me, Usa."


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Luv and God bless ya!
<3 Ali-chan