| Hiya!! Well… Wondering what this fanfiction is about? Well, read the title! Well, I'm not that anti-Mamoru… It's just that Jade kinda made me crazy about everyone else… you could ask her. The first letters that I ever wrote to her told her that I absolutely adored Mamoru… Yet I don't know what happened… Well, e-mail me at usako9@hotmail.com!! DISCLAIMER: Sailor Moon doesn't belong to me… I wished it did though… Then I could have gotten all this money… Because right now I'm like completely broke… Endymion By: Eternal Angel An angel sent me too you Telling me that I was suppose to love you I resisted loving you Not wanting too But as the days pass I wondered how I could have ever felt that way - Eternal Angel Endymion. That name was strong and high. Powerful and wise. The perfect name for the future king of earth. His dark hair and dark ocean blue eyes had made him into perfection. He had many admirers. Yet he could careless about them. His heart was like stone. He felt nothing for no one. He cared for only himself. Himself only. It wasn't his fault though. For what would you act like to watch your parent's die when you were small? To hear their cries… To see them get hurt and be unable to stop it. He had now taken over the role of king, even though he would not be called that until he was 21, considered an adult to take over the whole kingdom, which he still did even though he was 18. He was bitter and cold. Never warming up to people. They didn't know why. Why did they have such a cold and bitter prince. When he became king, he would be cruel to them all… That was something that they feared the most. Yet they didn't understand. They didn't understand what it felt to lose the people that you loved most when you are at the peak of your innocents. To know that you are useless to save them, to protect them. That all you could do was sit down and watch. Watch them die in front of you. He didn't want to love. Not because he didn't feel attracted to any of the ladies that came to him, yet he was afraid that once he had let them have his heart, it would ended up hurt and twisted in one way or another. He didn't want to take the risk of getting hurt again. It was just too painful. The scars of his parent's death were still deep and un-healing. He trusted no one, because he had once… but she betrayed him… hurt him so much. She did this when he was very venerable. Having lost he parents, and was all alone, she came in. She said that she loved him… that she actually cared. What lies they were. Lies that hurt him, that made him swear to never love again. * * * * * * * * * Endymion entered the royal gardens. The roses seemed to be at their peak of bloom. He heard some noise and looked up from the red roses to see a glint of gold. He frowned as he heard another giggle as he felt movements of something going past him. "Who's that?" He asked, as he turned around. Yet the person was gone. He frowned as something caught her eye. A star locket. That person must have dropped it. He thought, as he picked up. Its beautiful melody began to play as he looked at it in awe. The music was enchanting, as he felt mesmerized by its grace and beauty. So filled with love... He frowned as he closed it. Love. That word had no meaning to him. It was just a crazy emotion that would get you distracted… and he didn't want to get distracted… no, not at all. Love was something he didn't care for… or what he didn't want to care for… actually, he had wanted to love; yet his arrogant self-esteem made sure that he didn't. Because he had been to hurt… * * * * * * * * * The cool night's air welcomed him. The stars high above, and the moon shining the brightest of them all. He sat down next to the cherry blossom tree that was blossoming beautifully. His head up high yet his thoughts were low. The cold wind rustled against his skin, making him shiver lightly. He didn't noticed the girl that gracefully went and sat next to him, not saying a thing until the eerie silence finally got onto her nerves. "I don't see how you could look up at the beautiful sky, and not say a thing about its beauty. I always thought of it as magical." She finally said. As he looked to his right to see her. She had golden blond hair that seemed to glow in the dark. He could barely see her deep blue eyes with the moon as his only light, get the moonlight was enough to see her beauty. "What is there to comment about it? I have seen the sky for almost every night of my life. I seen it elegance, its beauty for many years… Isn't that enough?" He replied back. She just smiled lightly to him. "Yes, but what would you do without it? What if one night, you look up and you don't see the stars in the sky, the beautiful planets…" He finished the sentenced off for her. "And the bright beautiful moon." "Yes… what would you do?" She asked him. She waited for an answer, but only silence replied her back. He thought hard, trying to think of the right answer… "I don't know what I would do… It would be a shame to lose the thing that we don't appreciate… Yet I will appreciate it now…" He said, the silence between them began once more, and this time she didn't interrupted it. Hours must have past before the blond finally stood up. "It was nice to meet you Endymion… but I must go. Good bye, and good luck!" She said, as she started to walk away. He watched her leave, as he looked up at the wonderful moon once again. And then he headed back into his palace, before the sun had risen up from the night sky, shining brightly like always… * * * * * * * * * For the next couple of days, instead of siting in solitude the mysterious girl would appear to sit next to him. He never gave her any notice. Not wanting her to know that he looked forward to her coming. Yet, when she didn't, he felt a little disappointed yet put no notice into it. He didn't care… He didn't want to care. One night, when the two were siting quietly, the star locket that he had found one day had fallen out of his pocket, and started to play it's melody, filling the silence with it's elegance and beauty. "So I see that you found my star locket Endymion." She said to him, looking up at him. A smile played on her lips as it did every time he saw her. He felt a twinge of jealousy that she could be happy… that she was so happy… and he never felt this. "Yes. I found it one day in the gardens… Here you are…" He handed her the locket back. Yet all she did was shake her head no. "It's alright… you keep it. I would only lose it again. Just take care of it Endymion… so you could remember me…" "Thank you." He replied back. Looking up at the sky once more. He could hear her sigh softly once more. As if she was disappointed. "Can I ask you something?" "Ask away Endymion." She responded, happy that there wasn't the usual silence. "What is your name… you know mine, but I don't know yours." "I'm Serenity." She replied back. Then looked up at the moon and back down to Endymion. She noticed how he never smiled. He never showed any emotions in his face. As if he wore a mask everyday with no expression on his face except one that is angry of the world. "Serenity…" He whispered, then looked away from her, going back into his little world. She wanted to break him from that world… she wanted to tell him that she had fallen in love with him… yet she couldn't. * * * * * * * * * He didn't know how that night ended up in tears… except that it was his entire fault. All his fault… He could still recall her face as she confessed to him her love… His head jerked when he heard it. He didn't know what happen next… He wanted to hurt her… like he was hurt by love. "You? Love me? Is this a joke or something Serenity? For you to be capable of loving me? You are just like everyone else in my life… Lying about love… wanting to hurt me. Why should I believe that you love me? Why should I truly care?" She bit back tears and didn't reply back. She finally spoke up. "You are right Endymion. Maybe I am foolish for falling in love with you. It must have been some mistake… But you know what? Until now, I never regretted falling for you. But now I see it was useless." She continued on, hurt in her every word. "Now I wonder why I ever fallen for you. I thought that maybe you had some love in you… yet I was wrong… so terribly wrong." "I'm glad that you finally know that now. I wonder what ever made you think that I would be in love with you? You are just like everyone else in this world… cold hearted and cruel." Endymion stated, knowing it was all a lie. "So be it Endymion. I know that I'm not the one that is so cold hearted and cruel. Your every word is like a dagger deep inside my heart. You are right, why did I ever think that you would have fallen in love with me… Good-bye Endymion. I hope I never see you again." With that, she disappeared into the sky, as a beam of light hit the moon. And, not knowing why, he wept. He wept when she left him; he wanted to tell her that all of it was a lie. That he did care for her. He cared for her that he would fly to the moon to see her… Yet it was too late. It was his entire fault. His Serenity was gone now. Gone away forever as her last words echoed through his mind. "Good-bye Endymion… I hope I never see you again…" He could feel his heart breaking once more… yet this time he knew it wasn't Serenity's fault, or anyone else's… it was his fault. He was the one that brought this pain to him. He was the one that made him suffer like this… * * * * * * * * * He tried to ignore the feelings that were inside of him. He would come every night to their spot, just hoping that it was all a dream, or that she forgave him… yet she never did appear. He could feel his heart breaking more, yet all he did was become meaner and cold in the outside. The only thing that could make him calm down, and come back to his senses was the star locket that she had given to him. The locket would remind him so much of her… in a good way. Her beauty, such as her clear bright blue eyes that were so filled with light. Her golden blond hair, which was usually in two buns or 'meatballs', he noted with a soft smile. And her profile that he wished he could have traced… Serenity. His mind always thought of her. And other than the locket, the only link that he had to her was the glorious moon. Her home. It was almost as beautiful as she was… almost… "Prince Endymion… The Queen of the moon had invited you to the ball in held for her daughter's engagement…" His general, Kunzite said. Endymion's head jerk towards him with shock, surprise, and hurt in his face. "You mean Princess Serenity's engagement?" He asked hoarsely. He couldn't believe it. No, it wasn't true, he thought. Why would she do this to him? "Yes, Princess Serenity." Kunzite replied. His heart shattered in many pieces… to many to be fixed. "Endymion?" Kunzite asked him, as he felt a hand on his shoulder. He struggled off his friend's comforting offer, and fumed. "She did this on purpose!! She knew that I loved her!!" He exclaimed wildly. "Just like everyone else!! She is just like them!" He fought back tears, as he knew that every word out of her mouth was false. It was his fault that she was with someone else… She didn't know that he loved her… it was the opposite… He knew that she loved him. And she wasn't like everyone else… No, she was special, so special… Kunzite just looked at his friend with a look symphony. Yet he didn't understand. He didn't understand how it felt to be alone like this. To not have anyone to love you… and the one that had loved you, and you wanted to love you, had left you because of you… * * * * * * * * * The ball was elegant. As beautiful decorations of silver and blue hung onto the walls, and the ceilings. Endymion stiffly looked around the palace gloomy, instead of in awe like his generals. He had to admit it was beautiful, yet it didn't matter to him. All that mattered was that his princess was getting married to someone else… and he wanted to put a stop at that. He had decided that awhile ago. Knowing that this is the only way that he would ever be happy. He could see some girls staring at him with such admiration, yet he ignored them. He didn't care for them… only for Serenity. Serenity, he had seen her straight away. Her hair was put up in the traditional style, two buns, and she was in a beautiful silver dress, which didn't have sleeves. The neck of the dress was a straight as it exposed most of her back. It flowed down in a smooth manner, as a big bow was on the back of her waist. She wore long gloves that went high past her elbows. She stood next to another blond, whose hair was put up by a red ribbon. She wore an orange dress that seemed to fit her perfectly. He came up close to them, enough to hear them without being spotted. "I can't believe you are gonna get married to my brother!! I mean, finally you saw how much he cares for you! This is gonna be so cool! You and me sisters!!" The blond friend gust excitedly, making Serenity giggle. "Come on Minako. You are suppose to be the princess of Venus, act at like royalty a little." Serenity said, smiling at her friends. Yet when he looked at her eyes, he could see sadness in them. "You are like a sister to me anyways, even if I don't marry Galen…" "Aww… really?" Minako said a little moved by her words that she said softly. "Did you hear that the prince of Earth is here? I heard that he was major hunky…" He could see her stiffen as she heard about him coming to the ball. He could see an alone tear roll down her cheek as she quickly wiped it off. Her friend then left, saying something about spotting this cute guy… She was finally alone. He thought, as he came up to her. She gasped as she saw him. "Endymion." She whispered, as she ran outside, him following her. He had followed her into the gardens, that was filled with beautiful flowers… yet the one flower he did not see was the rose. "Serenity." He said, as she stopped. "Serenity… I'm sorry about that other day. I didn't mean too. It's just that I was afraid." He waited. He wanted her to turn around and come into his arms… Yet, that wasn't what she did… "I don't want to listen to you Endymion." She said his name icily. "I should go back into the ball before my fiancée gets worried about me." She said to him, then started to leave, as he grabbed her hand. "No, Serenity. Please, let me talk to you." She said nothing in reply. She just closed her eyes and was quiet. "I love you, I really do. I was just afraid. I just didn't know if these feelings were true. You see, I had been hurt so much when I was young and I didn't know if I could love you… I didn't want to love you… But it turned out that I did." "Endymion," She started out. "You think you could just tell me those words and we will be fine? No Endymion, it is not okay. I never did stop loving you, but I am not going to give you my heart again. You'll just break it again. And I am not risking it. Galen loves me more than you will ever." "Yes, but do you love him?" Endymion asked in reply. Silence filled the air until she finally spoke up. "I will. I will love him sooner or later. And that is good enough for me. And I'll be damned if I ever love you once more Endymion." She said, as pain filled his soul with every word she said. She finally got her wrist out of his strong grip and ran back into the ballroom. * * * * * * * * * Endymion sulked in the chair as he watched his Serenity dance with Galen. 'Not my Serenity anymore.' He thought bitterly. 'Galen's Serenity.' Never had he felt so much pain, hurt, and jealousy in his life. Yet he brought it among him. And no matter how hard he tried, he won't be able to heal this wound. "Well, well, well." A voice said from the doorway. Her blood shot eyes pierced everyone in the room as her hair was a ruby red color. "My, my Serenity," She said to the queen. "This celebration and you didn't invite me? Though that is all right, I always liked to crash the party." "Beryl." Was the only word that escaped the Queen's mouth. "Why princess, you look so beautiful. I bet you don't remember me huh? I bet your mother didn't tell you who I am…" The woman said looking at Serenity. Serenity looked backed wide eyed as Endymion wanted to embrace her, saying everything was going to be alright, that he was going to protect her. And then chaos corrupted. * * * * * * * * * He followed Serenity, as she headed towards the royal garden with calmness, as if she had been prepared for this a long time ago. "Endymion, you can stop following me." She said to me with a cold tone in her voice. He stepped out of the shadows. "Serenity… why can't you forgive me? You even say that you still love me… and I love you. Why can't you do what your heart says?" He asked her, as a smirk appeared onto her soft lips, which he longed to kiss. "Why Endymion? Do what my heart says? Is this softness I see?" She asked in a mocking tone. "Well, I my biggest mistake was loving you Endymion. Something I wish that had never happened. Why Endymion, you look so surprise. Why? You are surprise that I could be this cold and mean… But Endymion, it is you whom taught me this. You had made me like this." "Serenity…" He said, yet was interrupted by a familiar voice once more. "Why princess, what a lovely speech… I bet you hurt him real bad… but wouldn't it be better to hurt him physically? Not emotionally?" Beryl threw down a sword. "Here… why don't you?" Serenity just looked up with wide eyes. "You wouldn't dare huh? So soft and innocent, all your words that you just told him was fake, huh? Don't worry, if you aren't going to hurt him… I will." He heard Serenity let out a surprised gasp. He waited for Beryl's attack… that would have been better than all this pain that he was receiving. Yet her words seemed to stay in his mind… All the words you just told him was fake… He wondered if that was true… The sword headed towards him as he waited for the pain. Yet he felt no pain… maybe dying didn't hurt that much. But he heard Beryl's gasp and the sword clang onto the floor as he looked in front of him. Serenity had taken the hit herself. She laid on the ground, clutching her side. As Beryl looked at her with wide eyes. "Serenity… No… I didn't mean too… Serenity…" Beryl said, as she backed away trembling. With that, she disappeared. Endymion gently held her in his arms. "You know, she's right. She's right all of that was a lie… I don't ever regret loving you… I only regret not being able to love you more… But was that true about what you said about loving me? Do you really Endymion?" She asked with so much curiosity. "I love you so much that I can't describe you how much I love you." He whispered, as she smiled softly. He knew that she was trying hard no to show the pain that she was going through. Yet, he noticed the flash of expressions past her face, and how quickly the blood sunk into the silver dress. "I love you too Endymion… Never forget me…" She said, as he could feel her body become stiff and lifeless. "No!!" He cried, as he cradled her in his arms. He whispered contently into her ears, knowing that she was gone. This hurt more than seeing his parent's die in front of him, and Serenity hurt expression, and her telling him that she didn't love him. He looked at the discarded sword that seemed to lay before him, streaked with Serenity's blood. "Don't worry, I will never forget you…" He thrusted the sword into him as he could feel pain in him. Yet a smile played on his lips as he thought that he and his Serenity would finally be together again. As he feel down next to his princess, the star locket fell out of his pocket, playing it's content melody once more as it fulfills a wish that the two lovers had made… To be together again… *Present Day - Tokyo* He saw her again, as she ran the streets of Tokyo, yelling how she was late for school once more. His princess… She changed much, but he was much the same… And so was his story. Yet, just knowing that she was out there, waiting for him, made life worth living. He held the star locket contently in his hand as he whispered softly. "This time, I'm going to make it right…" "Hey, Mamoru-san, snap out of it? Talking to yourself *again*?" Motiko said teasingly. Mamoru looked at his best friend for a moment. And then smiled in reply. "Well… maybe I am…" "Sure… Hey, at least you don't talk to cats…" Motiko said with a smile as he polished the counter. "Now, tell me who talks to cats." Mamoru asked curiously. "Why, my best customer of course… Tsukino Usagi." END Hmm… I hoped you like that. Actually, I thought it was cool. Lots of Endymion's emotions, even though it wasn't a stand-alone. You know what I mean. The Silver Moon Palace http://www.oocities.org/Tokyo/Fuji/4456/ |