| Title: Longing Author: Silver*white*rose Disclaimers: I do not own Sailormoon. I would love to, but I don't. Rating:PG Well, I would like to say thanks to everyone that has written me about my stories. You guys are the greatest. Thank you. One last thing.... has anyone ever heard of 'The Lunar Chronicles?' It is this great new newsletter about fanfics and stuff. You guys should check it out. I love it. Okay enough of that. Now remember e-mail...I love to get e-mail. E-mail: silverrose71442@ aol.com Start: June 25, 2000 --------------------------------------------------------------------- There was a knock heard at the door. He got up to see whom it was. Once he opened the door, no one was there. He looked around and still found no one. Looking down, there was a small pink envelope with hearts. He picked it up and went inside closing the door behind him. The moment he closed the door, a blond haired girl poked her head around the corner and smiled. She turned around and began to leave with her long hair trailing behind her in two pigtails on each side of her head. Once inside he looked at the note and smelled it. It smelled so sweet. He stood there for a few moments and let the smell invade his being. He looked at the front of it and it said 'Darien' with hearts all over it. Darien smiled and wondered who would send him something like this. He then opened and pulled out the letter to read. 'I have this feeling that I can't quite explain. All I know is whenever you are around I get this feeling deep within me. At first I just shook it off, but for some reason it wouldn't go away. Now I know what this feeling is...it is what love should feel like. Yes, I am falling in love with you, but I don't know how. You seem to fill in that missing part for me. Once it is filled I know I will feel whole. I know that you try to hide the sweet, caring, and frightened person you are inside. But remember I can see the true person you are. Remember that you have a friend out there...a person who truly cares and sees you for who you really are.' A friend Darien read the words, but couldn't believe what it said. It said that someone had actually fallen in love with him. That someone could care for him. He couldn't believe that someone actually saw through his facade. He put that up so that he couldn't get hurt. He had lost his parents at such a young age so he kept his feelings locked away not to be hurt. Somehow though, someone had found a way to see through it and actually care for him. Darien smiled at the thought of someone actually loving him. He folded up the letter and put it in his desk drawer. From now on he would keep his eyes open to see whom this angel was that could see him for who he was. -------------Next day at the arcade-------------------------- Darien entered the arcade and scanned the room to see who was there. He proceed to take a seat at the counter in front of his best bud, Andrew. "Hey Darien." Andrew greeted his friend. "Hey Andrew, how is everything going?" He smiled widely. "What's up with you? You are in a really good mood." Andrew stated with disbelief in his voice. He didn't mind seeing his friend happy, but that was a very rare site. "What do you mean, can't I be happy?" His friend couldn't answer him because at that precise moment a group of giggling girls came in and walked to the counter. "Hey Andrew!" They cheered. "Hello girls," he smiled at them. "What will you guys have?" "I want a coke," stated a brunette with her hair pulled back in a ponytail. "I'll have the same," added a blue haired one. "Just water for me," chimed in a blond with a red bow in her hair. "I will have a Dr. Pepper," said a raven hair beauty. "I would like a chocolate milkshake." Smiled the blond with her hair up in two meatballs. "Hey meatball head, no detention today?" Grinned Darien. "My name is Serena. And no I didn't if you must know." She said with ice in her voice. 'Why does he always have to call me meatball head?''You know that you really like it.''I guess. He does talk to me more than any other.'' I can't believe I actually gave him that letter. I wonder if he knows that I wrote it.' Serena thought. She was brought out of her trance when Andrew handed her shake to her. She took it and went to take a seat with the rest of her friends. -----------45 minutes later--------------------------------------- "Bye Andrew!" the girls called out as they left the arcade. Serena looked back one last time at Darien before she completely exited. "I have to go too, Andrew. I'll see you later." Darien told him. As Darien start to get ready to leave. He found something in his coat pocket. He put his hand in his pocket and pulled out another little pink envelope. He looked at it and this time it read, 'my sweet'. 'How did this get here,' he thought as he eyed it. "Darien, what is that?" Andrew asked while spying the little pink envelope. He could swear he smelled roses and lilies. "This...nothing. I got to go." Darien said quickly not wanting to let his friend see the note or the fact that he wanted to open it up quickly. Andrew stared after his friend in wonder.' What was that all about?' ------------------------------------------------------------------- Once outside and on his way to the park, he began to read the letter. It read: 'To my sweet, I know that this is just too strange, but this is the only way that I can seem to tell you how I feel. You make my heart soar. I just watch you. To me, you are truly handsome. I wonder if you would feel the same for me. I know what I feel is love. I want to be the one that you love. I want you to be the one for me. I wish I knew how you felt. Love is just this prefect feeling of being whole and fills you so much that you are ready to burst. This is the way you make me feel. I would love you so very tenderly. I would love to feel your strong arms wrapped around me. I often find myself day dreaming about how your kisses would taste, to rest my head on your chest, to lie next to you and watch you sleep. I just wish I could tell you and know you could feel the same as I do. As I said before just remember I am always there for you, though you can't see me. I am always watching you, my sweet.' Love is something you cannot define Love is something that makes you whole Love is something that I feel My heart is aching to be near and to love you so dear I just wish I knew if you could love me as I do you *Okay. It wasn't the greatest, but hey I tried.* *Abbi-chan: It's good to me! :o)* Darien just smiled at the letter. He wondered if someone could fall in love by just hearing the words that this girl writes. He could see himself falling for this person. He may not know who she was but he didn't care for he knew that she must be a wonderful person to love. As he continued on his walk through the park, he saw someone staring out across the lake. Her hair was blowing in the wind and the fading glow of the sun radiated around her. He notice that she was quite stunning. Darien walked closer, and realized that the beautiful girl was the one and only Meatball head. His Meatball head. He couldn't believe it was her even though he thought she was beautiful, but he always made sure to ignore the growing feelings he had for her. He couldn't let anyone in. But for some reason she was breaking down his walls. There was already someone seeing through his facade and pretty soon there would be another. "Hey Meatball head. What are you doing here?" He asked still admiring the picture she made. As if coming out of a trance and just noticing him. She smiled up at him. Darien was awe struck by the smile she gave him. "Hi there, Darien. Did you say something?" "Yeah, I did Me...Serena." Darien answered her. "I was just thinking. It looks so beautiful and peaceful here." They just stood there looking out at the lake. Once in a while each taking a quick peek at each other, wondering what the other was thinking. Serena turned to Darien and noticed he was holding something. She saw a little pink envelope and blushed. 'He read it.' Darien noticed that someone was watching him. He turned his head and asked, "Yes, Serena?" Serena blushed a crimson red and then responded by pointing to the envelope in his hand. "Just wondering what you were reading?" Darien then remembers the letter. He blushed and turned is head. "This, just a letter I received. Nothing big." He spoke not looking in Serena's direction. If he had he would have seen the hurt and longing on her face. "Oh." Was all she could muster to say. There was a long silence. 'So it means nothing, huh?' That is when Serena made up her mind and start to see where this could go. "Darien. What does love feel like? How do you know when you are in love?" "I-I....what do you think?" He returned feeling uneasy as to where this was going. "I think love is this feeling. You will know when you are in love. It will make you whole and the feeling will just wash over you and make you smile. You will know that this is the person you want to be with, to share your life and your soul with." She stated firmly looking deeply in his eyes. Darien stared at the bewitching girl in front of him. He didn't know that she felt so strong. Why did he have a strange but warm feeling when he was around her? The light that always surrounded her just seem to make him smile and the warmth of her filled him. He then though about what she said. 'Could Serena be the one?' He smiled at the thought and then shook his head to clear those kinds of thoughts. 'No,' he exclaimed while a little voice countered, 'Why not?' Serena watched while the emotions passed over his face and the last one made her start to squirm. She had to get out of there before he figured it out and she was not quite ready to tell him. "Well Darien, it is getting late and I need to go. Thanks for the talk. See ya." She yelled over her shoulder as she walked quickly away. "Huh?" Darien finally answered coming out of his thoughts. Darien just stood there watching as she disappeared down the path and out of the park. "Serena. Why did you run off?" He whispered to himself as he turned to leave in the direction of his apartment. As soon as Serena knew it was safe she decided to slow down. All kinds of thoughts were running through her head but focused on one particular subject. *Anyone care to guess? * 'I can't believe I did that. He could have found out it was me.' 'So what if he did?' 'I just can't handle it right now.' 'Are you sure that is it?' The voice countered. 'Okay that isn't the only reason. What if he finds out it is ME? What if he doesn't want anything to do with ME? What if he rejects me because of ME? Serena, the klutz, the whining crybaby.' She sniffed and wiped a tear from her cheek at the last thought. She knew that this was what a lot of people thought of her even Darien did. Maybe she was a lot of those things but she had a good heart and could love everyone unconditionally. She could love Darien. God! She already did. She thought about how she was the only one to bring him out of his shell. She smiled at how he would always do that when he fought with her. But quickly changed when she remember talking to Andrew about him. *****flashback************************ "Hi there Andrew." Serena called happily. "Hey Serena." Andrew smiled then frowned after hearing Darien speak. "Meatball head keep it down. I really would like to have my hearing in tact." Darien interjected. "Oh you! My name is Serena. Can't you get that right?" She whined. "I could but I think Meatball Head fits you better. I mean it goes with that meatball brain of yours. Since we are talking about brains...failed any tests lately?" Darien winced as the words came out on their own accord. You could see the tears silently falling down her face. "Why are you so mean to me?" "Look at the time." Darien said to Andrew and disappeared out of the arcade doors. He couldn't take what he had said to her and if he had stayed he would have broken down. He would have pulled her to him and try to take away pain that he inflicted on her. Andrew watched as his friend left. He turned his attention to the weeping girl on the stool in front of him. He could sense something was wrong because she was not crying like herself. She sat there quietly weeping as tears ran down her cheeks. "Andrew. Why does he hate me so much?" She looked at him with tears still glistening over her delicate features. "Serena. I don't think he hates you." Andrew voiced soothingly. "No. Then what do you call it? I would hate to see what he is like when he is sweet and kind to someone." She sniffed as she she wiped the tears from her face. "Look Serena. Darien would kill me but...he has grown up alone. His parents died when he was really young. He had to live in an orphanage until he was old enough to live on his own. He really doesn't know how to act with others and love is an emotion he knows very little about." Andrew spoke softly as not to let anyone else hear. Serena sat there stunned at what Andrew had told her. As she thought about it, she could see why he acted the way he did. He knew very little about love, friendship, and kindness. His parents had died. And he was alone. No wonder he was cold and distant to everyone. Well at least everyone but Andrew. Now why did he always go out of his way to argue with her? Was she really that bad? No. Maybe that was the only way he knew how to communicate with her. Maybe they could be friends if she could get him to trust her. Get close enough. Serena was brought out of her thoughts as she heard Andrew called to her and waved a hand in her face. "Serena, are you okay?" Andrew asked trying to get her attention. "Yeah, Andrew. I'm fine, just thinking about what you said. It's really sad that he had to experience so much heartache." She expressed with sadness in her voice, but nowhere could you hear pity. *****************End of Flashback********************************** After that day she had started to see Darien in a new light. Sure they still fought but she knew that they were for other reasons than what she use to think. At least most of the time. As she got to see him in a different light she began to slowly realized that she always had feelings for him even before she knew about his past. The teasing and fighting were her ways of hiding her feelings from everyone including herself. But she could not hide them any longer from herself. So that is why she started to right the letters to him. She needed to express her feelings to him even though she would never address them with her name. She was not sure if Darien could ever feel that way for her and she didn't want to be hurt. With that last thought of being hurt, she walked into her home. She could hear her mother in the kitchen and saw her little brother Sammy, in the family room, playing video games. "Mom, I'm home." Serena called as she started up the stairs towards her room. "Serena. Dinner will be ready in 10 minutes so you should wash up." Her mother mentioned as she walked to see where her daughter was. "Thanks, Mom. But I ate a little while ago and I am not really hungry." Serena said to her wistfully. "Oh. Sure honey." She replied knowing something was upsetting her daughter but knew not to over step. 'She will tell me when she's ready. I mean love is very hard at 16.' Ilene smiled sadly and walked into the kitchen to finish getting dinner ready. Upstairs in her room, Serena laid down in her bed thinking about Darien and the letters she was writing him. She really didn't know if she should continue to write them or if Darien even cared. She did know that he seemed happier since her first letter. She slowly drifted to sleep thinking about how she felt for him. ********Meanwhile in another dark bedroom***************** Darien lay on his bed looking up at the ceiling. He was thinking about the letters he had gotten, about his feelings towards Serena and why she would run off like that. 'I wonder if I will get any more letters. Maybe. I guess I will have to wait and see.' He sighed. 'Why did Serena run off like that earlier? Did I say something wrong, again? And what are these feelings she brings up in me?' Darien smiled as he remember the feelings when he is with her. He remember what she looked like earlier in the glow of the setting sun. Amazing. Was the only word that came to his mind. 'I'm sorry Serena.' Were his last thoughts as he fell asleep. He was sorry for making her run off and the other times he had inflected pain upon her. He would find out why she ran off and make things right. ***********One week later*********************************** Serena was walking home from school. She had been doing a lot of thinking since she started to send Darien the letters. It had also been about a week since she had last seen him. She was trying very hard to avoid him since what happened out near the lake. She could not have him find out yet. She wasn't ready. She really wasn't sure if she would ever be ready. Serena still wrote him the letters and delivered them to him secretly. She would put them under his door to his apartment, on the window of his car, or even his mailbox. But she would make sure she didn't see him. She stayed away from the arcade and got up early every morning for school so that she would not run into him. It was starting to get very hard not to see him but she didn't know if Darien could ever feel the same way for her as she did for him. And after writing all those letters, giving her soul to him, if he would reject her or laugh in her face she wouldn't be able to take it. Serena continued on her way with all kinds of thoughts drifting to her head that she really didn't notice she was heading to the park and to a certain dark hair male. *********Same time as Serena was walking toward the park******** Darien sat at a bench that over looked the lake. He was going through Serena withdrawal. It had been one week since he had last seen Serena. It was as if she was completely avoiding him. Why would she do that? He really had no idea what was wrong with her. He kept thinking back to the day last week when he had spoken to her and the next thing he knew she was gone. 'What's wrong with me? I can't seem to get Serena out of my head.' He sighed as he ran a hand through his sleek black hair. 'What do you think is wrong with you? You have feelings for the girl and I just wish you would stop fooling yourself.' A voice spoke in his mind. 'I do not.' 'Yes, you do and you know it.' The voice answered back. 'Oh, I don't know. Maybe. But what about the one that writes these beautiful letters to me?' Darien sighed frustrated and confused. 'You don't even know who this girl is or if she is even real? But there is one that is very much real and I must say very beautiful.' His mind voiced. Abruptly Darien stood up and turns around. He was getting really frustrated at all these strange feelings and emotions that plagued him. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw 2 long blond steamers heading toward the big oak tree a little ways away from where he stood. 'Maybe I should try and talk to her.' He slowly followed a little ways behind the girl. Serena found the spot she was looking for. She sat down under the big oak tree in the park that looked out towards the lake. She loved going there and clearing her mind. She pulled out a pink piece of stationary and pink envelope. She started to write her last letter to Darien. 'This is it.' She swallowed as she wrote her last letter to him and asked if he would like to meet her. "Serena," a voice called from behind her. She turned around slowly recognizing the voice. She looked to see Darien stand there looking at her intensely. Smiling she spoke, "Hello, Darien." "Serena, what is wrong?" He asked without hesitation. He needed to find out what was wrong. "What do you mean?" Came her confused reply. "I haven't seen you since last week when you ran off. Did I do anything to upset you?" 'Wow. He's actually concerned about me.' She smiled feeling more confident about this last letter she would give to him. Noticing the smile that graced her face, he relaxed knowing that it was nice sitting and talking with her. How he wished this could really happen. All of sudden the letters started to pop in his head. 'What about this girl that writes these beautiful letters?" He groaned inwardly. 'What about them, when you have someone real beside you now?' Countered the voice. Darien was about to comment when he saw something pink below his vision. He looked to see Serena was writing something and had stopped. He could see that it was some kind of stationary with hearts all over it. He gulped and looked closer. He saw that it was addressed to him. 'Serena is the one.' He declared in his mind. Serena now noticing that someone was looking directly at her. She stop writing and looked to her right as if just realizing that Darien had been there all that time. She slowly started putting her things away to leave. She stood up. "Serena, it is you, isn't?" Came the question that made her stop in her tracks and looked at him. She gulped, "Yes, Darien. I'm the one that has been writing you the letters." Darien stood there with no emotions on the outside, but jumped up for joy on the inside. 'All this time it was you, my angel.' Serena seeing that he gave no sign of emotions or what he thought meant that he wasn't interested. That he was just being kind not to laugh in her face. She turned around quickly and wiped away the tears that had decided to fall. She started to leave when she felt a hand grab her wrist and whirl her around. She was caught looking into those intense blue eyes that seemed to be studying her. She was about to say something, but was caught complete off guard when she found herself locked in a kiss with Darien. It was slow and very gentle at first, but both giving into the longing that they felt, the kiss deepend, exploring each other. They stood there kissing not needing to say a word, both knowing that this is where they were meant to be. The longing finally filled in both of their hearts. ~~~~The End~~~~ @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ Well, that's it. What did you guys think? E-mail!!!! Fin: Aug. 3, 2000 |