SIGN THE GUEST BOOK!! I've made it extremely easy, its just below this box!!!
5-25-02 So here I am once again, rambling to you, the people, thinking that there is a soul out there who thinks like me, works like me and would empathize with me. The thought is proposterous....even more so than my spelling. Get used to the misspelled words because they will be quite frequent.
It's pretty dumb for a guy to use big words but not know how to spell them. How can you be looked at as intelligent if you can't spell definitely? I mean, I mispell it all the time....anyway
So if you're here you either are going through the motions so you can earn points with me by telling me you visited my site, you stumbled on here on accident because you thought you were getting something cool, or your one of my friends and you wanted to see whats new. To all of the above and any that didn't apply, thank you for visiting. If you really wanna earn points with me, you'd SIGN MY GUESTBOOK NO GOOD FREELOADERS!!
Speaking of guest books, I'd like to talk about my high school career. It was all pointless, really. I never studied, and when I did I never learned anymore than if I hadn't. I went through high school just trying to "get by". I never did anything, but what I could've done would have been fruitless. What I wanted to do I couldn't....so discontent was a major feeling of all four years.
Ever wonder what it'd be like to have any person you wanted? I don't really mean in the sexual sense, but have any girlfriend you wanted......and they'd love you back just as much as you loved her.....that would be the most amazing thing. And maybe God has somebody like that out there for me. Somebody I can be myself around and not worry about what she thinks. Somebody that I can talk to and not fear to appear concieted. Somebody that I can listen to and not have to say anything, just because she needed someone to talk to. Somebody that would give me a hug. Somebody that would tell me that they can't live without me, somebody I could tell that I'd die for them. "don't you want somebody to love?" What kind of question is that, Jefferson Airplaine? OF COURSE I DO!!!!
Here is my theory on destiny.....a mere thesis that is free to evolve and fluctuate and all that other science drek throughout the course of time. Consider this
1. There is a God; in the word "god" you concede that he is all knowing, immortal, that He is present from beginning to end, as far as we can comprehend. Time is eternal and he has survived and will survive forever. Nothing is beyond Him.
2. God is the first and the last: He knows what will happen from the birth of the earth to the death of the earth, and the universe for that matter (no pun intended)
3. God knows your life from beginning to end. Everything you do, in a sense, is "pre-recorded" in a sense, by God's memmory and knowledge. Anything you do is known to God before you are even born.
4. -conclusion- if the above is accepted to be true, destiny must also be true. Everything we've done and anything we accept and all tasks we do that we think to break the norm was destined to be before we were born.
So why should we try if its dictated ahead of time? Because, even though there is a destiny, we must live our lives as if there wasn't one. If we just think "this is my destiny" and fail where we could've succeeded, this knowledge is useless. Its just an intellectual exploration, nothing more. Enjoy your destines, but enjoy them with Christ. Only through God can you achieve true happiness.
Oh yeah, you never know where my insanity stops and my mind takes over.
The Reaper
Never "just accept" things. Always wonder, and find out.
Brando's page <-----this is a new one....check it out!!
Tracey's page
Jennifer's Page <-----------fixed the link
Sarah's page
Crystal's Art Page
Know what I discovered? These sections don't work. I could never keep up with everything nor include everybody I know, be them acquantences or Friends. Or family, for that matter, so I'll just do a section.....well.....you'll see.
What exactly is the D.O.A.? Well, to give the answer to that, I'll tell the story (shortened). Okay, one day, in my gradeschool, I sat back and said "You know, I have a group of friends here, and I think it'd be fun to give it a name." After talking with my friends (this is 8th grade btw) I came up with the name "Disciples of the Apocalypse". This was first taken from the WWF stable "the DOA" and the name copies it up to the word "the" which was added. See, if it were "Disciples of Apocalypse" We would be followers of some X-men villain, which we did not want to be the case. I love and fantasize about the end of the world, cause its soo cool. So the name stuck. Who knew that it would become ironic, because two years later I entered my apocalyptic suicidal stage of my life.
Here is a complete list of the official members (please, forgive me, but temporary or potential members are not mentioned for obvious reasons): John H., Mike M., Chris G., Steve K., Steve V., James B., Andrew K., Justin S. These were the originals, just so you know. Then, when highschool started, the only ones to enter CLHS were Steve V., Mike M. and Chris G. All the others moved or went to another school. Then, these members joined: Jeff B., Steve B., John E., Steph L., Ryan M.
Just for fun, here's what comes to mind when I think of each member.
John H.- Really kind of harsh and serious, but still fun to be around
Mike M. - Smart, very smart, and a ladies man (You don't know the half of it, brotha!)
Chris G. - Crazy, "druggy" (lol), Big classic rock man
Steve K. - First guy I got to know at St. Paul and a nice guy! Well, he shares my name, so.....
Steve V. - Quite frankly I think this guy is a loser.
James B. - Tough (beat him in arm wrestling once, though!), sports fiend, pastor's son
Andrew K. - sorry Anrew, the main thing I remember is you talked like a baby (some kind of complex)
But really, andrew is a great guy and I remember him for that, too!
Justin S. - Though he picked on me sometimes, I remember him for being off the wall crazy and we had so many funny memmories and did some really crazy stuff (LEMONY FRESH!)
Jeff B. - I didn't know what "crazy" and "diffrent" really meant till I met Jeff. jeff is really funny, and lives his life like its a constant commedy, but I know (I've been down that road) there is a serious, melancholly side to him too! Solidiarity brotha!!
Steve B. - What can I say that he hasn't already said? lol, Steve is the only other one I know that shares my zealous following of Pop. If pop manifested itself in the form of a woman, she'd be mine!
John E. - Psycho!! He's absolutly insane, folks!! I'm serious!
Steph L. - Not much to say about her, so we'll move on.....j/k, Steph's cool. Likes to tease and lie a lot, but hey, so do I. She's also a very caring person.
Ryan M. - No doubt the timid one of the group, but still a great guy and a hard worker academicaly.
