"There is a theory which states that if ever anybody discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable.
There is another theory which states that this has already happened."
- Douglas Adams 

5/30/00 I don't recall.

This past weekend feels kinda like a missed opportunity... it was the perfect chance to get out, and do something fun.

I'm not sure what I expected from the weekend - after all, it was only last weekend that we were in the Tri-Cities, visiting my Dad, Brother, and my Mom. Last week seems like it occured over a decade ago... with me "pulling an all-nighter" to get a design package done for a presentation that was re-scheduledfor Thursday 1pm, rather than the Friday 4pm I had been hoping for. Either way the work got done... and it makes me think that an occasional "all-nighter" is probably a good thing.

The highlight of Friday was the Blazer/Laker Game. The Blazers lost by a small margin, and after that, the details of my weekend sort of blend together - kind of a "memory puree".
For the life of me I can't remember Saturday even happened, I remember that Sunday was the other Blazer/Laker Game... and Cameron and Shelby spent the night with their Father-David, so ther was an added relaxation factor that day. Sunday was also the day Monica ran out of pain pills for the week (today is her refill day)
Yesterday was the day that Calvin, Katie and I went to McDonalds with Yogi and Carla, and blew a few glorius hours without feeling like we had to be someplace else, making someone else happy. The joy ended when we got home, and found out that my in-laws have been arguing long distance over the phone - spiralling my mother in-law into a depression that kept her in the fetal position, asleep in her room until dinner time.

I visited my shrink - "Dr.Feelgood" today.
My task of the week is to go out and have fun with the kids, and have fun... with or without Monica, and to prevent her pain/addiction from spoiling the enjoyment the rest of the family might get from life. I'm also supposed to continue with the past tasks...namely -

Stay Employed - Don't let Monica sucker me into staying home to help her.

Let Monica do more of the house work - I have gotten good at doing nothing. I'm turning into a male cheauvanist.

Don't help her get pain pills. - 'nuff said.

I told the Doc that these weekly goals seemed pretty do-able, and he started congratulating me... like I made some big breakthrough. It seemed so non-sequiter...kinda freaked me out.

"Desperately Seeking Saturday"
 

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