I am however, trying to make the world a little less hostile. I seem to be making nobody happy at the moment, or maybe it just seems that way. I spend most of my time trying to avoid disappointing people. This nasty habit has been getting me into more and more trouble lately.

"Sure boss, I can get that done on time"
"Yeah, I guess we can afford to go out of town this weekend."
"Don't worry, I will call them."
"I'll pick it up on my way home."

Any of the statements are harmless, and stem from the best intentions; but put them together, and they school like hungry piranhas. I'm trying to regain the grip I seemed to have on my life a little while ago.
And build on my successes, even the small ones.

Yesterday was the official first day of school for the kids. A traditional day for re-birth. On the first day of school you can re-invent yourself.
It's been a crappy Year.
"I asked Calvin what the highlight of his Summer was..."The Clark County Fair" was the only answer he could come up with. Was it really that uneventful? (All things considered, maybe un-eventful is the wrong word... there were lot's of events, many disappointing, a few were rotten.

I have been waiting for the calendar year to end...
2000 will forever be the year of our house fire... the year of our bancruptcy, the year Monica's sister Holly abandoned her kids (11 months next week), the year Monica's Mom was diagnosed with MS. The year my grandmother died... the year trust was questioned.

I'm determined to make the year from hell a school year, rather than a calendar year. I wanna ignore the final three months of 2000, and re-invent myself now.
Because I need to be re-born right now, I don't think it will wait another three months.

"Hall-pass in hand."