~Ravaged Emotions~

 

Walking alone in the rain, thinking of you.
I've got this feeling that the truth wasn't there totally,
but I could be wrong.
The raindrops fall steadily on my head,
I throw my head back and let them fall to my face,
reminding me of all the tears I cried that fateful evening.
I remember feeling ripped,
like I had been stomped upon.
It wasn't so though, you were kind and honest in your words.
I was lost in all of my thinking too.
What was I to do without you?
I tried to cling, I tried to hold on,
my actions were futile though, so I, in essence, gave up.
I said that I was fine, that moving on was going to happen.
I lied. It wasn't that easy.
I wanted so much from the others, they couldn't compete,
it was like some force field kept us apart.
They couldn't figure it out, but I knew what was going on...
I couldn't help but compare, and reject all of them.
My own unravelling.
I could have gone back and told you what I wanted to say all along,
but I didn't. Instead, I kept my mouth shut.
I played along with my little charade,
inside though, it was killing me, I was falling apart.
I still am. I feel it every time you cross my mind.
I'm still in love with you. I always have been and I always will be.
So why can't I say this to you?
Why can't I explain my lies, my constant pain to you?
Truth is, I can talk to you now, but what happens if I ruin it all?
I've lost the original romance, I don't want to lose your presence too...
I don't want to say it, don't want to live it,
but I'm dying inside, just so you know...

 

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