"No, i mean, it's that it's like one of those novels that you read but never think would actually happen."
Brrr, its so cold. My mom looks like a babushka. You know, cuz of the scarf thing. So do i.
Closed at work today...i'll have to be there 6:30 tomorrow morning. Boo. Close-opening sucks ass. Damn you chase not pulling bakes. Or taking out the trash. Or making baskets. Or reserve JDUs. Or ... damn, did you do any work tonight? Haha its okay, i forgive you. Just so you could talk to those hot girls...dork =)
Stupid punk 11 year-olds-that used the f-word so nonchalantly...i dislike you greatly. "yeah well...get off your cell phone" is not a good comeback line, by the way.
I don't know why i'm listening to Country Grammar, but i think i like it.
Not looking forward to working the hours before Superbowl Sunday.....please don't come order drinks for your party tomorrow...please? go to Safeway. buy some water or beer or something. or soda. or milk. or anything.
The cutest boy ever came to visit me at work today. You know who you are.
My ears, my ears! They're uncovered! How i blush.
I can't figure out if i'm hungry or just asleep with my eyes open...yeah that makes no sense. I have to be at work in 7.5 hours. i might as well have slept there. Heeeeeeeey i'll bet i could have. i could if i were a lead...
I was wrong about the chopsticks thing.
Operation Tousled Hair is aborted. She saw. And she didn't really care. But she did say that they had to be my last ones. Heh heh
And every sunset that we'll miss, i'll wrap them all up in a kiss
I think i'm only sick in the mornings. Just the sniffles. Hmmm But I must be sick, i mean, it doesn't make sense that i'm not. it's only a matter of time, right?
I fell on my face in the Burger King parking lot, but its okay, cuz then i got a rush of endorphins. Endorphins! Hahaha
Subconsiously, i've decided to remedy my lack of never writing ever by writing at ever single possible consious (or at least semi-consious) moment.
I can't keep track anymore, but somewhere along the way, i learned that if you have to keep track, it really doesn't matter.
So i'm okay with not knowing.
"No, it's not like that. I don't like popping pills, i just like having things in my mouth."
Errr
I'm always sleepy before 10, but on the occasion that i DO get to 10, then i get a rush of energy. So i will sleep now. As should you. It's a friday night. What else have you got to do? No need to party. Stay home. Sleep. Sleep is good.
January 30, 2004 6:12 AM
Just cuz i keep saying "Acos(wt)", doesn't mean i actually know what to do with it
I think i am officially sick. My throat hurts and my nose is (was) stuffy. I didn't lose my voice or anything, but that doesn't make it any less true.
I really should start reading the comments teachers write on my papers, but i'm too scared.
I don't want to jinx it, but i think i've gotten the hang of this chopsticks thing. But keep it quiet for now. I don't want anyone to expect much...
Do you like how i'm stalling studying for that physics test?
Oh I still have an hour-ish before i have to leave....dr. dann, why do you make it so hard to hate you?
Acos(wt). gotcha.
Did you know you could do integrals and derivatives and limits...oh god limits...on your calculator? Cuz i sure didn't, but if I had known, i would've gotten that A in calculus. Is that past contrary-to-fact? i don't even know.
Remind me to hit the yearbook office after school.
I tried to fill out my FAFSA forms in the middle of physics yesterday, but not only did i misspell "South San Francisco," I said that i was born in the year "2286," cuz obviously i misspelled "2986," which was my true birth year.
I'm missing 1/30 of January 2004 thus far (I figured out January 11! All on my own. Damn you, Chase. haha just kidding. Damn you, Vicki! is what i mean. i needed someone to talk to? well i guess i didn't need to. you're just...not-so-comedic comedic relief. thanks anyhow)
Sometimes, the same things that make my stomach churn with nervous anticipation are the same things that bring that warm and fuzzy feeling to my heart.
Weird, i know.
I don't think i'm talking about what you think i'm talking about. Or maybe i am. I don't know what i think i'm talking about anymore.
I think it's raining! Ooooh!
We wouldn't make such a bad Real World. That's kinda scary, actually
I think i'm gonna take a shower now. I'll study...in the shower! Acos(wt), i told you! T=1/f, i couldn't tell you pendulumic motion, though. i'll work on that when i get back. Best wishes to you and yours.
Post script
Day 5 of Operation Tousled Hair. Only 37 days to go.
Did i neglect to mention i got my ears pierced?
Day 45 of Operation Sweet Sixteen. Only 22672 days to go.
According to deathclock.com
All unofficial, of course. Of course.
So much for standing ovations...
...and other things that made my day more bearable
Never ONCE being on time to Music App.
The very cute couple that drinks coffee and splits a brownie...too cute. I adore you.
Japanese restaurant that included and extra roll of sushi "as a gift"...how i love you
Being laughed at by college kids...and i have to go to school with them now!
Driving, brownies, and psych.
You
Canon in D and Chess
Sweet sweet strawberries
Sleeeeeeeeeeeeep
Now i want to go shopping. I just do. After i sleep, of course.
I think (with the exception of last Sunday,) this is the first day for 3 weeks i've been home before 8 o'clock. It's not so bad...out of sight, out of mind. Oh look, i'm missing Friends again. Meh, the tv was emitting high-pitched noises anyway. I'm gonna head off to bedy-bye now...wish me luck on that physics test i'm gonna (hopefully) wake up early to study for! G'nite, all!
Seventy-six trombones, seventy-six people. Get it? Hah hah...
Oh where to begin, where to begin?
Do NOT tempt fate. It will prove you wrong.
I'm not sick yet. Woohoo
I think my left ear is infected. Hurts so very much. Ow.
I think i played a total of 2 lines in our musical so far. Really, it was 6, but it was the same 2 lines repeated 3 times.
So much homework to catch up on. Where is my math book? I don't want to carry a backpack. But i will. Junior year i didn't carry a backpack. I forgot how i managed. I think i had a huge purse.
my eyes are shutting. i want more coffee tomorrow.
$4.70 for a small coffee and a brownie? Are you kidding me? That's more than i paid for dinner yesterday or today. Seeing as how today's dinner was free...Thanks, by the way. I appreciated that much.
my eyes are practically closed now. i shall be off. off to my floor. hurrah.
til i see you again.
Pre-spring cleaning
It's time to cleanse yourself, staring with your closet. Anything that doesn't make you feel absolutely fantastic needs to go.
Isn't 27.4/8 3.425? I'd just like to voice my confusion about this whole GPA business.
Nine more sick days left.
Today was............Today was.
Actually, i think today went quite well. As Mondays usually do.
Minus the screaming and cursing and punching.
Wow i'm kinda sleepy. So yesterday, waking up at 5 to do homework didn't really work. But it might tonight. i totally want some sleep. isn't that odd? for all of break, i averaged 5 hours of sleep a night. Last night i got...okay, well so i got 5 hours, but my point is now i'm tired, and i wasn't back then. what happened?
I can't remember the last time i sat and watched an entire TV program. not yesterday , not saturday, not friday, not thursday, not wednesday, i tried to watch One Tree Hill on tuesday, but i didn't finish it, i think i tried to watch friends on monday...no i didn't, i wasn't home then. jebus. i used to watch 6 hours of tv a day when i was a kid. i was smarter back then. i also used to play more video games. maybe the secret to life is to watch more tv and play more games.
I'm leaving for retreat tomorrow. I'm kinda excited, but a bit apprehensive. But excited. Oh fudge. Packing. Meh, i'd better wake up on time then.
So i woke up this morning - this beautiful morning - and i said, "i'll bet, on this my day off, they're gonna call me in to work because they need more help." But since it was my day off, i decided to catch a movie. At approximately 3:16 PM, while waiting to leave for the 3:40 showing of Cold Mountain, work calls and asks where i am because i was supposed to be there at 3. I didn't knowwwwwwwwwww. The list wasn't up yesterday, i swear.
At least she didn't eat me.
So ... very ... sleepy.
What if i woke up early to do my homework? would that work, do you think?
Maybe just fall asleep in my physics book. yeah, that sounds nice.
hey laure, when i read what you write i can totally hear your voice in my head.
tonight is saturday night. i am at home, as well. well i just got home from work. she made me close again tonight. i guess she really doesn't care when i said i would REALLY LOVE to open on saturday mornings, because for the last 3 weeks and next week, she has me closing on saturday. (Oh trace, ummm so work sucks ass and they scheduled me to close next saturday and open on sunday. so i could still go (as long as my mom doesn't try to tie me down) if i left your house at 7:28 in the morning. if that's okay with you. at least i think we open at 7:30. Well, either 7:30 or 7:00, i'll get the details later.)
when i was on reg today, some guy came and ordered this thing (orange dream no-oj, no-orange sherbert, sub-rasp.jc sub-rasp.shbt...if that means anything to you, i think it's called rasperry dreamin or something, but the took it off the menu. anyway) so joel makes another one and says its hella good, orgasmically good, and that i should try it. "uhh, it's good but not orgasmically good" "hahahaha" "what?" "it's just funny hearing that from you. that's so cute." sigh. cute indeed. yeeeeeeeees.
i cut my finger on the oj dispenser. another work-related injury. it was really cool. i mean, it wasn't, but it was. i put the band-aid on and i started bleeding through the band-aid. haha. yeah that probably wasn't really cool. but it was funny at the time.
got pictures back from costco. remind me to give you what is yours. remind me to ask shanti for my negatives/doubles
i got my ears pierced. shh don't tell my mom. i have to hide it by keeping my hair in my face, and she hates me with my hair in my face because i "already have such a small face that the hair just makes it smaller." she tried to brush my hair away, so i had to squirm and run away. just six more weeks, just six more weeks...
Denise has 17 piercings. Seriously.
i'm thinking about getting my hair cut tomorrow. i've been thinking about that for awhile. what happens if it sucks. or what if i don't fix it in the mornings, cuz god knows i didn't fix it last time i had hair like that. or what if....just what if? i'm scared. always scared of the unknown.
I checked e-bay, amazon.com, the grocery store, and 3 friends & my aunt's house, and no one has a brown dish. i don't wanna dieeeeeeeeeeee.
i finally started buying CDs again. like paying for them. yes, i know, cynthia paying for stuff. funny joke. well i still burn stuff like crazy, but i needed to get a new cd case. did that today. AND i FINALLY got that beach boys compilation. you know, the one i said i would get myself as a christmas present. it still counts as christmas if it's january 10th, right?
longest friday ever. kinda felt like a wednesday. latin should not be allowed to ruin fridays.
i am failing physics. almost officially. i'm almost positive i have a D in that class. i am getting a B in latin. in latin. what the hell. it's an elective. they're both electives. it's like me getting a B in photography. what's that about? but i did get an A in fiction-to-film. heh. but it's still an A. my only A.
we jump started a car for the second time. it went quite well, i must say. i did enjoy parking on the wrong side of the road. it was exciting to be going the opposite direction of traffic. in the middle of the traffic.
that janet jackson song ruined "you're so vain." every time it starts i think its that "clouds in my coffee" song. ooh. coffee. mmmmm.
i didn't make my new years resolutions this year. guess that means i can lie and steal all i want this year. anti-1's aren't afraid of being evil, after all.
enjoy your first day off since the year started. you've earned it.
December 27th, i called work to NOT schedule me for work on New Years Day. Obviously they missed the NOT because on New Years Day, they called and said i didn't have to come into work cuz it was slow. But i didn't have to work, so all was good.
Sometimes you don't know when your peak times end and you spend 111 extra "anytime" minutes. (112 if you don't know how to turn the alarm off the car you had to use that isn't your regular car.)
Some shitty ass carries charge you $.49 a minute for those extra "anytime" minutes.
Sometimes when you go to certain areas around my house, you cell phone will lose service. And sometimes i actually need to tell you things like to NOT call my house. But you didn't call, so hurray! (These phones like to screw with the negatives, don't they?)
Sometimes i'll give my mom your cell phone number and she'll call you forcing you to pretend i'm with/not with you because i won't pick up my phone and she doesn't know where i am. (sorry bout that, she had a misunderstanding...she thought i was going to your house instead of you coming to mine. thanks for covering)
On a completely unrelated note, hurray for san francisco at night. too tired now. will be more complete later.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TRACY!!! did you get my message? probably not cuz you were out partying so hard. hehe. hope it was a good one. this year will be great, i can feel it
P.S. i'm totally changing this month to "januwary" to avoid all further typing confusion.
