"Hardest Decision I ever made!"

How do I make you understand
that I am a woman with an ultimate plan
My children are my life you see
They have helped me get to know me

I never quite knew who I was
until one day I asked
what does life really mean to me

I asked my children and I gave them the floor
I wanted them to tell me
what they wanted more
I needed to know from them you see
whether they wanted to live with me
to move to a strange place
or to stay here with their friends and family
or to move and just be with me

They chose to stay and I had to agree
because it wasn't about me
It was about what was best for them
and what would make them happy

I am unselfish you see it is their happiness
that means the world to me
I can go on and be okay
But they needed stability and they needed to see
that no matter what I love and loved them unconditionally.

So the choice was made and I know this to be true
I made the choice and they did too
I was unselfish because if I had my way
they would be with me everyday
the decision was one of the biggest I have ever made
I pondered it and god how I prayed
But I feel in my heart that it was the right thing to do
and I will always love them
and be with them nomatter where they go
because I am with them in their heart and souls.

They know if they need me I will be there
they know that I truly care
because I was unselfish by letting them stay
and I will always love them even after my dying day.

Debbie
3-17-98