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by Bronwen Waller
I played once with a Ouija board
I was fifteen, and I asked it if my heartthrob liked me
It spelled gibberish. I was immortal
It was now, and could never be long ago

Some of my friends told ghost stories
They saw dead relatives deliver platitudes
I scoffed, death couldn't touch me

I never cared about life after death until I lost my father
So fast and slippery he tumbled down into the depths of no breath
We were a family, now we have been wrong
We are now wrong

Through the last gasps, I stared above him, watching for a spirit, something
to tell me, but saw nothing
I was almost glad; it would ask how I could have let him die

My mother watched his eyes, and all she saw was fear
She closed them, but couldn't make his mouth stay closed, his poor purple bruise of a mouth
warped by the ventilator tube

I'm still waiting to wake up
I collect ghost stories now. I am careful of obsession

Not that careful.


copyright © Bronwen Waller 2001
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