The Letter

Disclaimer: Unfortunately for you and me, Star Trek Voyager is the property of paramount Pictures, but we're free to add our own ideas right?

Author's Note: The lyrics used in the story are from the album "Burnin' The Roadhouse Down" by Steve Wariner.

Author's *other* Note: A while back, I read a beautiful story called "Fly" it was a very powerful piece of work. About a week ago, a friend of mine sent me the lyrics to this song, asking what it reminded me of, and "Fly" was the first thing that came to mind.
*Note* Thank you to those who helped in my 'search' in finding the author. I encourage you to read Fly,Part1, Part2 before you read "The Letter" as the following story came about, from the events in "fly".
Thank you Claudia, for creating a beautiful story. Never stop writing.

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And together, they thouched the sky...

The Letter
by Kathryn Murphy
August 1998

One day shy of eight years old
My grandma passed away
I was a broken hearted little boy
Blowing out that birthday cake
And how I cried when the sky let go
With a cold and lonesome rain
Mama smiled said "Don't be sad child
Grandma's watching you today."

Dear Kathryn

Your favorite song is playing, as I write you this letter. Can you hear the words? If you were here with me, I would sing them to you, just to make you smile. You know the one I'm talking about, the one that always made you cry. You used to say the words gripped at you heart and never let go. Can you feel it now?

Cause there's holes in the floor of heaven
And her tears are pouring down
That's how you know she's watching
Wishing she could be here now
And sometimes if you're lonely
Just remember she can see
There's holes in the floor of heaven and
She's watchin over you and me

So much time has passed since I last saw you, but I could never forget what you look like, what you smell like, what you feel like. Your beautiful ivory face, staring up at me, through the wonder of your deep blue eyes. Can you see me now?

Sometimes I just stop and think back to the last time that we were together, the last time that I held you in my arms, the last time that I kissed your lips, whispered in your ear. Can you feel me around you?

Seasons come and seasons go
Nothing stays the same
I grew up, fell in love
Met a girl who took my name
Year by year we made a life
In this sleepy little town
I thought we'd grow old together
Lord I sure do miss her now

When I first saw you, so many years ago, something inside me froze, as you looked into my eyes. You took my breath away. You took my breath away then, and you still take my breath away now. Do you know what you do to me?

When I asked you to be mine, to stay with me, to love me forever, you scared me when you didn't speak, but then you smiled that crooked smile, you know, the one that always drove me crazy, and whispered so softly, I thought I'd imagined it. Do you still whisper like that?

But there's holes in the floor of heaven
And her tears are pouring down
That's how I know she's watching
Wishin she could be here now
And sometimes when I'm lonely
I remember she can see
There's holes in the floor of heaven
And she's watchin over you and me

I miss you. I missed you everyday, when I woke up to an empty bed instead of your smiling face, I missed you. I missed your laugh, the way you could always make me smile, even when I didn't think I could. I missed you. The way you could comfort me, even when my entire world came crashing down around my feet. I miss you, do you miss me?

You used to command attention, whenever you walked into a room, but with me, you were just my Kathryn. Just my love, my life, my soul. But you left me. I hated you for leaving me. Why did you leave me Kathryn, why did you have to leave. Do you hate me for leaving you?

Well my little girl's twenty-three
I walk her down the alse
It's a shame her mom can't be here now
To see her lovely smile
They throw the rice, I catch her eye
As the rain starts comin' down
She takes my hand says "Daddy don't be sad,
Cause I know Mama's watching now"

She's all grown up now, my love. All grown, and married, and off on her own. The last time you saw her, she was so small, so fragile, but she was strong all along. She just didn't let anyone know it. Just like you, always hiding from her feelings. She loves you. She always has. Do you know that she loves you?

She won't be alone when I leave. She has a new family to watch over her, to protect her. Of course it will hurt, but she knows it's where I want to be, where I've always wanted to be. With you. She understands that now. Do you understand?

And there's holes in the floor of heaven
And her tears are pourin down
That's how you know she watching
Wishin she could be here now
And sometimes when I'm lonely
I remember she can see
Yes there's holes in the floor of heaven
And she's watchin over you and me

Your favorite song is ending as I write this letter. I'm almost finished now. I only have a few things left to say. You kept your secret from me for so long, my love. I wish more then anything in this world, that you had let me in, let me hold you, let me protect you. Why didn't you let me in?

I could have helped you, my Kathryn, I could have listened to your fears, held you as you cried. Loved you as I do. I wanted so much for you to come back to me. To wake me up, and tell me it was only a dream. But it was real. You were taken from me, and I had to move on. But I couldn't my Kathryn. You have such a hold on me. Even in death, your love surrounded me. Did you know that?

The time has come to end, my love, but please, don't be afraid. I'm not. I'm more at peace now, then I have been for a long time. I'm almost finished now, but I will be with you shortly, don't go away Kathryn. Don't leave me again my love. Will you wait for me?

There's holes in the floor of heaven
And she's watchin over you and me

Fine

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