Baby




IN SORROW THOU SHALT BRING FORTH CHILDREN


Nobody ever told me

how painful this would be.


I felt like I was being ripped apart

from my belly to my knees.



I laid there on that hospital bed

closed in by a pink-checked curtain

squirming

crying

trying not to scream

and embarrass myself


and I thought of all the millions of people in the world

and how each and every one of them represented a woman

like me

in horrifying unbearable frightening red-hot pain

and I was amazed

that the earth was populated

at all.



In between pains

I counted the tiles on the ceiling

from right to left

then diagonally

and every now and then

a cheerful nurse would be-bop into the room

check something

pat my shoulder

leave

and I was alone.



I felt nothing for the baby trying to come out.


I just prayed to the Lord

to make it get over soon

because I couldn't stand it.


I cried for Mom

to come and help me.


But of course she couldn't

being as how she was 382 miles away

and couldn't drive anyway.


At 9:30 P.M.

on December 9th

I was wheeled into the delivery room

and at 9:44 P.M.

I gave birth to a boy.



They put him in an isolette

next to me

and I looked at him

and he was stark naked

waving his arms

wide awake

looking at the lights on the ceiling


and I saw that his right thumb was withered

and I said to the Doctor

"What's wrong with his thumb?"

and the Doctor looked at it and laughed

and said

"He's been sucking on it in the womb"


and that struck me as so darn cute

that I couldn't help but like him.



A nurse took him out of the isolette

wrapped him in a blue flannel blanket

and laid him next to me

and asked

"What's his name?"

and I said

"His name is Adam"

even though I knew Larry wanted to name him

Jeffrey


but I figured I was the one who went through all that pain

to give him life

so I could pick his name.



When I was back in my room

Larry came in

and said

"He's totally bald."


I was in a feisty mood

so I said to him

"Look, he's your son

and we can't send him back

so deal with it."



Later, Mom called me

and I told her that having a baby hurts

and I wished she had told me that it did


and Mom said

"Oh, honey, now it wasn't that bad

and the Lord gave you a little boy

to love and cherish

for your Christmas present this year"


I broke into tears


and I said to Mom

"You're right, Mom"

and I swallowed my tears



and got on with the business of being a Mom myself.






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