DISCLAIMER: None of this started with
me; I'm just inspired by the words.
SPOILERS: Won't make any sense if you haven't seen Sacred Ground.
RATING: G. I mean, what else would it be rated?
SACRED GROUND: EXPANSION
Chakotay sat at his desk and looked over at the couch. He had let
her go through with it. He had actually watched her walk out of
his office and down to the transporter room. Why had he not gone
with her to send her off? He was certain she wouldn't die; they
wouldn't let her go through it if it would kill her.
And now he was in charge of the ship. She was down on that planet
doing only the spirits knew what, and he was stuck on Voyager
tending to the crew. He couldn't just sit there. "Chakotay
to the Doctor."
"Go ahead, Commander."
"I'd like to come down to Sick Bay and monitor the captain's
vital signs with you."
"Of course, Commander. Come down whenever you'd like."
"All right, but I'm not leaving this monitor until she gets
back."
That statement hadn't been entirely accurate. He had actually
left the monitor, but it was only to begin pacing around the Sick
Bay and simultaneously infuriating the Doctor. But he had to make
sure she was going to be okay. There were too many people who
would kill him if he let her die. Not to mention the mental
anguish he'd most likely inflict upon himself.
"That's right; don't embrace a thing."
The words sounded painful and yet strangely familiar to Janeway's
ears. She had embraced many things-Starfleet, science, Mark
Mark,
now there was a not-so-pleasant thought. Here she was seeking
spiritual purification and she's thinking about the fiancé she
left behind. Shouldn't she be thinking about more important
things like her ship, her crew, Kes
?
Chakotay. She startled herself with that thought. She hadn't
embraced him, even though she'd had the chance on New Earth. Why
hadn't she done just that? Because you are afraid, said that
nagging little voice inside her head that often made it difficult
to sleep at night. And because of protocol.
But would protocol have allowed her to go through an unknown
religious ritual to save a member of her crew? No, most likely
not. Chakotay had not fought her on the decision, but had showed
her that she was getting into something she didn't understand and
would probably get more out of it than she bargained for.
God, she hated it when he was right.
"We've been worried about you
I'll bring her down
myself."
Janeway smiled as the words danced around in her head. Yes, that
was her Chakotay. He would say something like that. She knew what
it was all about. He had been kicking himself for letting her go
on this spiritual journey and he was coming down to make sure it
wasn't one of the bigger mistakes in his life. That was very much
like him. She loved and hated that protection in the same breath.
"It's my responsibility to keep you safe."
She bit back a response. When had it become his responsibility?
She was an adult, fully capable of making her own decisions. She
had decided to go on this journey and now she was deciding to
take Kes back into the thing that was slowly killing her.
And yet it was his responsibility to keep her safe. He could keep
her safe-he was tall, had broad shoulders, was terribly good
looking
Okay, so the last part wouldn't keep her safe, but
it would keep her mind occupied if she were in danger.
But no matter now
she had a life to save.
Now, as she sat in her quarters, Janeway remembered what she had
done to save Kes. Or at least, tried to keep her thoughts focused
there. Instead, she found herself thinking about Chakotay. She
could still feel his hand on her waist as he tried to gauge if
she was all right. That touch had said so much-that he was
concerned, that he would do anything to help her, and that he
would do anything for her.