5 Apr 2004

Wow..got more than 7 mths no update....have to apologise to those who used to frequent my blog....sian..many things happened to me....dun wanna say...abt it...sigh....i'm in a mess.

28 June 2003

Recently feeling kinda upset...probably for some matters of heart, or probably sch's coming. I went out to market today....it was a sunny day. Then reluctantly....(but i have to spend it), i spend some $ on 2 tshirts. Hai...I'm just sad....and moody.

27 June 2003

What is thing thing called "Love"? I mean the 1 between a guy and a girl...is it always the devoted partner that gets hurts? Hai....I hate reality...

25 June 2003

Recently busy doing the ranma page. It's gonna take me 4ever. Have been trying to relax from that stress by..playing yahoo cards and stuff. Yesterday had a nightmare, but I forgot wat's it abt...I only remember waking up and digusted by it.

17 June 2003 Tuesday

Today i finished reading a very sad love story. And i cried. It's can be found at This webby. The story is not only interesting, but also...hai....dunno. Maybe I'm the emotional sort of people. Just read it, maybe it will make you reflect on what you did, or what should you do in the future....or something.

I dunno why I cry also...it just came to me..a sudden burning sensation..in my eyes. The story was about a girl felt in love with this guy, who doesn't admit or tells her he loves her. One day he left her to korea without telling her. So she went to find him. Many things happened. Until one day the doctor says she will die unless she goes for a heart transplant. But she chooses to stay with the guy she loves. Even when she died, she still don't know that he actually loves her, and not because he pity her that he told her he loves her.

16 June 2003 Monday

School is starting. Time flies. *Sigh* Maybe I sound like a kid....but I really not ready to go back to school!! Hai... so depressed..... I dunno... I'm lost.... I'm scared.. I'm...maybe... I just developed a phobia for going to school during this period of time.

15 June 2003 Sunday

Today is Father's day, I almost forgot, but I still didn't. I still remember about a week ago, my dad asked me wat's this red red thing on the calendar. I told him it's a man jumping with joy, and a word "DAD" on it. It's Father's day.

Then i asked him if it was a hint. He say no it wasn't. And told me not to buy anything for him, just wish him happy father's day. I say ok..I'll do that..lol. And I'll do that when he comes home tonight.

14 June 2003 Saturday

Although I signed up for broadband, and own a ranma user name...somehow, I wasn't very happy. Why? Coz my email addy was in the mailing lists of various sex, viagra, how to increase your penis, buy a house, find young virgin girls, and "buy health products" companies/websites. Everytime I login my singnet email account, I was clearing mails and unsubscribing myself. But the mails.....over 20 of them each day... still come in.

Even mails that are send to other users like ranma@europe.com, or ranma15@singnet.com.sg or ravant@singnet.com.sg OR WATEVER, the recipient is still me. Why? I also dunno.

13 June 2003 Friday

Recently, I find myself more and more...thrifty..dunno ..I wasn't like that last time. I also realise 1 more thing. I think I talk kinda frankly with my best friends...or is it I take them for granted?

Well, wat happened was like this:

Recently, I sms an old friend of mine (also the 1 I dreamt in My Best Friend in Labor) an early "Happy Birthday" and she replied "thanks" and asked me when I could come out so she can give me my present. She say she was kinda busy so bought liao never give me. I say ok..and I phoned her. I ask her what should I buy..Soft toys? Photo frames? Or pencil case? She say strictly no soft toys or photo frames..or decorative items. And she said pencil case sum1 buy for her le. Then I frankly told her...ok..I buy her something else...but it wun be very expensive 1. She say of course lah..so I went to orchard to window shop...but I saw nothing that suits either me or her. Even if there is, it's also kinda ex...hai

So I walked for 4+hours in orchard, and got lost...u know? The "Where am I???" look on me. But then later managed to found my way again. I bought nothing. But I spent $5. $2 on milo, $2 on charity, $1 on 4 otaks. I think I shouldn't have buy the milo. Waste my $2...should have buy the can drink..

So when the next day I met her (to cut hair), she gave me my present. I say bu hao yi shi lor...wat else? I can't seem to find anything to buy for her. Wanna buy stationery but I never really had this habit. She hates Anime too, and think I'm childish...ah...watever. Then I told her I will give her present next time. And she suddenly asked "u know what I want?" "What?" "Hair dye." "How much?" "$14.95 I think" "Uh...so expensive 1 ar.." "uh?? where got expensive..then u pay $10 i pay the rest" "ok" "REALLY????" "yah...as long as u happy can liao mah" "as long as i happy....then y don't u pay the full amount?..." "....u say 1 wat..dun buy over $10 thing for u" "...."

Then we went 2 the shop and she choose a dunno what colour...like the colour of this text. Afterwhich we went to another place.

Suddenly she asked me if I missed her. I say yes and I ask her wat about her. She say she miss me too (geez...do we sound like lesbians?). Then she also told me about the guy she likes...blah blah blah. She asked me to open my present, so I open lor. I was kinda shocked. It was...it was..it was a a thing to hang, on god words on it, and got a girl in bathing suit. I think she bought that in a christian store. She say she thought it was cute. Then I pick up another present (her present consists of 3 things). It was a fruity lip balm. She say she bought it in Espirit and I say "oh....expensive or not..?" She say "ok lah...". Then the last prsent i open it up. It was a photoframe. Then I exclaimed "Eee....u tell me not to buy photo frames for u, and u buy photo frames for me?" She say it was cute...I say cute meh..then she say I got no taste...which I think is supposed to be my line. Then she ask me if I like my present, I say yes lor....but I like last year's present (wallet) better (am I too frank? no right..?). I always talk wat I think to my best friends..unless it's really hurting, or else I will speak my mind. She thinks the same way as me too..I'm sure..coz she treat me in that way too..haha

But it doesn't really matter what she gave me. It's the thoughts behind it that matters. And I appreciate that. Then we also talked about lots of things. I realise that she is one of a kind that I get along well with..I'm very fortunate to have know her and other best friends. I wonder if this will remain when we grow very old?

20 May 2003

Wah...recently kinda busy doing my ranma page..........my english sucks...think of writing short summaries dunno use past tense or present tense....or wat adjective...hai....sobs. Also looking at and finding a free web hosting service. Yesterday dreamt about my teeth dropping off again......I had this kinda dream for more than 5 times le!!!Damn...

Nowadays when I check email.....also -_-. The bulk mails, 5 mails, i scan, all contain viruses. so I blocked support@microsoft.com . I wonder why they have email addy such as that?....dunno..ack care..

Today I also want to recommend 1 very nice Japanese Drama I saw on Channel 56, Long Love Letter. The show has a lot for me to think about. I think I also like that male actor..his name is Yosuke Kubozuka see here. I probanly wouldn't it's very very very, but I guess it's not bad....and worth watching.

11 May 2003

Mothers' Day!! Wat I did was only wish my mother a happy mothers' Day...Yesterday saw a hp case very unique, but no stock for 6510. I think.....someday I will buy it, maybe yes, maybe no....coz dun wan to waste money...hai..Yesterday's going-out already spend $16+.....so much money.

Yeah....recently going out, if not watching tv, or doing the OVAs page of my ranma page. Seldom online....to update this page...haha. I thought of changing the look of this page to....the Saiyuki Sanzo. But then I think I will do it only after I completed my Ranma page....-_-'

8 May 2003

I am typing with 2 hands now, but not correct positioning. But I guess it's better than 1 finger/hand hor? Today saw a lot of things, but cannot buy. Coz dun want to waste money....unless for Ranma or something ...really important/useful.

Today a friend of my dad commented that I was very cute when I'm young, but not now. I agree with her. Coz that's what my other friends said too. Hai.....I'm tired mentally now. Sleepy....nite....