|Welcome to my world, Warning Rant mode is always on|
|My name is Amanda, but if you are looking at my site chances are you already know that. And you already know I have ISSUES!!! If you ended up here by chance be forwarned that you are viewing the website of an extremely f*@ked up person. If you don't like what I have to say, don't read it, and don't come back.
If you like what I am spewing you are probably as messed up as I am :) Sorry for the pain in your life.
Oh and I apaoligize in advance, I'm not the best speller in the world.
|The Place I call home!!!!
Once I get my computer up and running I hope to actually get pics of me on my site!!!
|Links to a few of my favorite things:|
|Too long I have allowed my past mistakes haunt my mind and heart...It has taken me a while to realize this, but that time has finally come. I dedicated my life, heart, and soul to a man that is worth....HUM...Nothing, a person who was engaged when we met, dating/screwing about five others and yet I still let my heart go. But the things you do for love. The only thing I ever asked in return was honesty and the same love that I had to offer. But that just didn't work out. He wanted a mother, someone to take care of him and hold his hand. Well, I guess he found that in another, a married woman to boot. Ouch, what a sting to the ego...But I know how much better off I am now. I have the true love and genuine compassion of another. Some one who will never put themself before me, and will sacrifice the whole world to make me happy. I have never felt better in my whole life. I can now look back and realize that my former relationship was held together by the wrong things. I did nothing but bow down and drive myself crazy for PWTPT... And I deserve so much more than what I had. Well, now I have more than I deserve. It is so nice for once in my life to be taken care of. To be held and feel true compassion and warmth in another's arms is a feeling that I only wish I could share and expalin to others. I am sooooo HAPPY!!!! And I know that I have a real man in my life. It's taken me a while to get here, and it wasn't a easy road, but it is so worth it. I can honestly say the best thing to ever have happened to me was to be cheated on by a boy. I would have dedicated my entire life to him, and been miserable ever day that I took a breath. I would have never met Steven, and would never have had the chance to feel the love he has to offer. I am a firm belive in two things, karma, and patience. Remember what goes around comes around, it's all a matter of time... Life has a funny way of working out, and I can't say I have any complaints.|
|FloridaNeons.Org -Yeah I never thought I'd drive a damn Neon|
|Yahoo! Games - For when I'm bored at work|
|Bored.com - Yet again when I'm bored at work|
|Long after I am gone, the people who care about me will remember my words and actions. They will remember the times we laughed together and the times we cried together. I have found many wonderful people in my life, and when I think I can't go on they are the ones there to pick me up and encourage me to make it. I often beat myself up thinking I'm not good enough, I'm not smart enough, I'm not pretty enough, I'm not meant to have good things in my life. But I know this is not true. There are good things in everyones lives, some of us just have to look harder than others. I've always wondered why people who try so hard seem to get the most s*@t in their lives. But it's what you make of the s@*t that makes it all worthwile. You can't let it hold you down. You can't let it keep you from loving another person. You'll only hurt yourself. I personally have been hurt enough in my life by others. I don't need to hurt myself as well. I feel sorry for those who allow that pain to hold them back, you don't know what you could be missing.|
|Lessons Learned In Life:
*Take a chance, you never know if the opportunity will happen again.
*Don't be afraid of love, Accept that love comes with pain.
*Never let another hold you back from your dreams. If they love you they will support you in everything.
*Get over it...You're going to get screwed anyways.
My personal favorite:
*Never take life seriously...No one makes it out alive anyways.
|I thought I was right once....turns out I was wrong!!!!!!!|
|True love is one of the greatest feelings you could ever have. If you find it, don't let it go... If you haven't, don't give up. And always try to :-)SMILE(-: it makes the world brighter.|