Thoughts of me


Thoughts flow
through my fingertips
my keyboard clatters
as I write myself
and rewrite myself
never knowing
what's coming next

I can't stop them
I don't want to try
I'm tired of hiding
tired of being afraid
of what's inside
never knowing
what's coming next

You know me
but you really don't
because I don't
I ebb and flow
in quiet mystery
never knowing
what's coming next

Is it good to feel
where I have not?
Is it good to search
into places strange
and scary and dark,
never knowing
what's coming next?

I have few answers
only more questions
and I regress
as I write myself
and rewrite myself
never knowing
what's coming next







Is it strength or weakness,
or some of both
that brings me here?
I face the feelings,
and feel the fears,
never knowing
what's coming next

Am I healing?
or am I just going
in circles of despair?
as I write myself
and rewrite myself
never knowing
what's coming next

3/22/97

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