This is my personal journal of sorts. Here I will write of
what's on my mind. Some things may be personal, so please these things
are not up for discussion. Do not e-mail me about them, I am doing
this to vent some of the thoughts that may be stuck in my mind.
December 18 2000 I am 22 years old now and
I've been out of school for the last 2 years or so. It's been a learning
experience but I feel at this point in my life that I have not gotten anywhere
further than I was 2 years ago. I am just about to go back to school,
going to San Francisco State University. For once in a long time,
I think I've finally gotten back onto the track of life and am sure of
where I am headed once again. I am going into business with a major
in finance with a minor of liberal studies. I am anxious and excited
about starting school once again, but I am also afraid of school as well.
It's time for me to take control of my life and I am afraid of making mistakes
that will affect the rest of my life
Another thing that's happening in my life is a little bit
personal. I am at the point in my life where I am ready for the longest
relationship of my life. I want it to happen and I want it to be
perfect, but I know that's just a delusion on my part. Things never
seem to happen exactly as I wish, but there's always hope. And I'm
also afraid of it as well, just as my school, it could be a hard decision.
I don't want to make the wrong decision that may affect me the rest of
I've been working at the same place for about a year now
and I think it's time for a change. This has always been the way
with me. Every year or so I would change jobs. I never seem
to be totally satified with my job scenerio. I just wish I could
find something that I truly enjoy doing.