Everday is a battle to overcome myself to try and find the happiness that is ever so elusive to me. Everyday I struggle to become someone to be someone that is happy or at the very least content. Everyday I look and find myself lacking and hope to find that one thing that will complete me. Everyday I think tomorrow will be better and some days it is but some days it isn't. I hope just because that is all I have.
Today I realized that I will never belong here but where can I go? Will I ever find the place where I belong? Will I ever be more than an afterthought to those around me? Even in my own family I can't find myself.